this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !


















sepehr g.  asks


Andrew, what do you think of J. Krishnamurti?  Toni Packer was inspired by him


my


reply


i have come to understand him better as i have got older !


he and u.g krishnamurti are complementary,  together they add to something competent and interesting,  apart something is missing in each : o()(
















sepehr g.  asks


Andrew, what do you think of J. Krishnamurti?  Toni Packer was inspired by him


my


reply


i have come to understand him better as i have got older !


he and u.g krishnamurti are complementary, together they add to something competent and interesting, apart something is missing in each : o()(
















 Spencer Tracy with Ernest and Mary Hemingway at the El Floridita in Havana, Cuba, ca. 1955


there's something unusual about this picture, perhaps the dissociation and depression of hemingway compared to the  “ locked-in-ness ”  of the others ?


jesus christ, he was abit  accident  prone ! : o())()


: o())(


just discovered that his grandaughter margaux hemingway committed  suicide  !
















 Spencer Tracy with Ernest and Mary Hemingway at the El Floridita in Havana, Cuba, ca. 1955


there's something unusual about this picture, perhaps the dissociation and depression of hemingway compared to the  “ locked-in-ness ”  of the others ?
















why some professional hunters use a red light at night is it doesn't upset the body clock ! :o)


if you are working beyond the hours you would normally be sleeping, if you use a red light, the eye and brain still perceives that as being dark, but if you work under light with any blue in it  (white has blue in it)  then the body percieves that as day light and begins to induct jet lag in you :o)(
















i don't think i realized  this  until about 50 or even later :o()


evolutionary programming?
















children, you


haveone


fuck


and


you


have


this


burden


that


follows


you


around


for


the


rest

of


your


life

:


o


(


)
















children, you


haveone


fuck


and


you


have


this


burden


that


follows


you


around


for


the


rest

of


your


life

:


o


(
















children, you


haveone


fuck


and


you


have


this


burden


that


follows


you


around


for


the


rest

of


your


life


!

:


o


)


(
















children, you


haveone


fuck


and


you


have


this


burden


that


follows


you


around


for


the


rest

of


your


life


!
















nonin chowaney  writes


“ we need to remember, however, that awakening is not a permanent event [...] ”


my  reply


another unenlightened zen fuckwit !


awakening is a permanent event, a tip of the iceberg so to speak, a profoundly disrupting change and view point !!!!!!!!!


however i wouldn't say it gets that well worked through, it is remembered but only partly acted on, the working through is an optional process that takes the rest of your life ............... :o()))(


these shits pretending the experience and knowledge before they get to base one are disgusting in the sight of infinity and buddha...........


get real or do something sensible like kill yourself nonin ! :o()(
















the evolutionary imperative behind luxury goods and brands !


gucci  ain't going out of business anytime soon :o()


“ women indicated they would be less likely to pursue a man whose partner was wearing a luxury outfit and accessories because they perceived the man to be more devoted. Whereas men often display luxury products to the opposite sex, women often seek to flaunt expensive possessions to the same sex........ women are the primary audiences of women's luxury consumption ”


and a  study  about it no less ! : o(()((()
















the itching in shingles and herpes is due to the virus  drilling  holes in axon walls


“ [...] electrical current can leak through these holes, or fusion pores, and spread to nearby neurons that were similarly damaged, causing the neurons to fire all at once rather than as needed. The pores were likely created for the purpose of infecting new cells ”
















andrei tarkovsky,  a  poet  in the cinema (1983)


i noticed i kept coming back to look at it, his astounding visual intelligence that so shines in his films :o)(
















fred  writes


My first enlightenment experience like Brads was in 1981


You could say that something dipped into the Absolute, but there was nothing recording this “experience”, ie., there was no self there


So as Dogen says the Enlightened will not even know they are enlightened.


Not that it matters anyway.


my  reply


drug and alcohol experiences don't count fred, i presume you have dementia now because your endless posting of mostly  (good syliva palth  quote  tho !)  bullshit lacks any other explanation !


it's sorta sad because i can see you occasionally lift a bit, then sink back almost immediately :o()


god, these nauseous arseholes spew their crap everywhere ! :o()
















omega-3 status  linked  to sleep quality in school children


interestingly they found a disturbing level of sleep problems in school children, their algal DHA trial gave an extra 46 minutes sleep at night and i would presume you get somewhat the same effect from quality fish oil !


the distance between what the modern medically and commercially sanctified diet provides and what our offal eating ape species needs is not a gathering storm but a ripping hurricane that you can see the damage and dysfunction everywhere !
















the  biofilm/microbiome  carbohydrate diet and supplement program is basically a dialogue about how to survive nutritionally and digestively if you are on autistic spectrum ! :o ()


ignore at your peril  ! : o)()()((
















the  biofilm/microbiome  carbohydrate diet and supplement program is basically a dialogue about how to survive nutritionally and digestively if you are on autistic spectrum ! :o ()
















Pretty Yende & Andrea Bocelli  singing  O Soave Fanciulla


oh lovely girl, oh sweet face

bathed in the soft moonlight.

i see you in a dream

i'd dream forever!


from the voice you would think her any quality european opera diva, the fuzzy hair and black skin speak different tho.. :o))(((


she is zulu and was born and brought up in  thandukukhanya /piet retief which is almost in swaziland !


she later attended the south african college of music !


it's a good example of how racially neutral voices are and how the human brain is primary over surroundings :o))(()


“ Eight years ago she didn't know what opera was. Living in a township, it was something that in no way touched her life – except as background music to TV commercials. But her moment of revelation came when, by chance, she heard the background music to that old BA  advertisement ,  the Lakme duet


As she  told  me, in a couple of minutes her life was changed. She asked a teacher what it was. He said: this is opera. She said: I want in on it ”


ed.  the flower duet  (from the opera Lakmé)  is in fact an arrangement by malcom mclaren and the composer yanni called  “aria on air”  !  if you listen to the BA video, scroll the execrable visuals out of sight, much better for your mental health :o()
















life does not allow any place of retirement to enjoy quietitude, it's a constant stretch


until


you


are


broken


again


and


again

:


o


(


)(()(
















life does not allow any place of retirement to enjoy quietitude, it's a constant stretch


until


you


are


broken


again


and


again


.


.


.


.


.
















life does not allow any place of retirement to enjoy quietitude, it's a constant stretch


until


you


are


broken


again


and


again


.


.


.


.


.
















Isaiah chapter 29,  verses 5 to 6


and in an instant, suddenly,

you will be visited by the Lord of hosts

with thunder and with earthquake and great noise,

with whirlwind and tempest,

and the flame of a devouring fire


my


reply


in the blink of an eye


swallowed


by


god


the


abatement of self


a rage of fire carried


across


the


universe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
















Isaiah chapter 29,  verses 5 to 6


and in an instant, suddenly,

you will be visited by the Lord of hosts

with thunder and with earthquake and great noise,

with whirlwind and tempest,

and the flame of a devouring fire


my


reply


in the blink of an eye


swallowed


by


god


the


abatement of self


a rage of fire carried


across


the


universe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
















reply  to sepehr g.


yeah  Diogenes  of sinope is interesting !  he was obviously on autistic spectrum and sadly today would be medicated into some numb semi non-existant and half dead state like zen :o)


you are right about greek culture being cool because there was obviously a lot of tolerance for him and behaviors that today would be deemed criminal or anti-social :o)


America today is sooooo dumbed down and anti‑intellectual........... working class mores rule everything :o().....


yeah, that's a great  book  on wei ying wu by red pine/bill porter !


yeah there seems a good possibility that Buddhism originated in Persia, all religions evolve out of something else  (islam evolved out of judaism !)  and buddhism may have evolved out of zoroastrianism !  !
















the original tune that stairway to heaven was  repackaged  from


they had opened for  “spirit”  on their first american tour !


you can't blame led zepp, that cord sequence was too good to let go to waste .............. :o)(


i know i am going to suffer the indignity of seeing the biofilm/microbiome diet and my writings repackaged by those commercially shrewder and the morons who abuse me now will lap up that repacking and still shit in my face :o((()))


it's depressing how the unintelligent always win and truely original art kills its creators :o(())
















health problems suck


don't


be


a


duck : o()
















health problems suck


don't


be


a


duck : o()
















health problems suck


don't


be


a


duck

:


o


(


)
















gypsum is  porous  to carbon monoxide so plaster and wall board won't act as a barrier if your neighbour is somehow generating it :o(((
















ivan's  childhood ,  final scene


there's something profoundly mystical about it


exactly what i don't know ! :o()


maybe the image of the boy running on the shallow water to the dead tree at the end ?


interestingly tarkovsky's  father  was a major poet and i think you see a depth of understanding and sinuous lyricism in tarkovsky not really there in almost any other director !   (fellini, though a different person and cultural style is also up there :o)


the full  movie  :o)(


my god,  the  nightmare  of making movies in the old soviet union, incompetence, a dangerously polluted enviroment and censors !!!! with the secret police always in the backdrop ! :o()
















ivan's  childhood ,  final scene


there's something really profound about it and i don't exactly know what ! :o()


maybe the image of the boy running on the shallow water to the dead tree at the end ?


interestingly tarkovsky's  father  was a major poet and i think you see a depth of understanding and sinuous lyricism in tarkovsky not really there in almost any other director !   (fellini, though a different person and cultural style is also up there :o)


the full  movie  :o)(


my god,  the  nightmare  of making movies in the old soviet union, incompetence, a dangerously polluted enviroment and censors !!!! with the secret police always in the backdrop ! :o()
















i have been very depressed for the last couple of months and tho i am not necesssarily a ray of light and can be abit of a pessimist, it wasn't normal, so have been trying to sort out what was behind it ! :o)


i think its been a combination of things, a wet winter  (hardly any sun !  :o(   so the food, especially animal products are coming from more stressed animals, taking less  copper  than i usually do, not eating feral thyroids since i haven't been hunting much at all............!


maybe too much  mushroom  D2 and hardly any uvb skin lamping


but i think particularly, tho i am not 100% sure, is i have been taking spirulina, tho not a lot, as it is helpful for the gut lining, indeed very good for it but the fly in the ointment is that it also has forms of b-12 which are not true b-12, but can clog up the bodies b-12 receptors and depression is a symptom of b-12 deficiency !!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so i have been taking some  b-12 , more copper, eating thyroids/neck sweetbreads and will uvb lamp my skin more and mushrooms less and have stopped taking spirulina and things seem to have/ to be improving............


b-12 in multitvitamin and mineral supplements becoming  converted  into disrupting analogue forms of b-12 through interactions with vitamin C, copper and thiamine is also a problem ! :o(
















being in my late fifties and another birthday soon, i am far enough into the process of aging and its thwarting of what makes life interesting and gives it value and the way it shards memory and deprecates the intellect  to hate it  !


dylan thomas says  all this  somewhat more  floridly  :o()
















being in my late fifties and another birthday soon, i am far enough into the process of aging and its thwarting of what makes life interesting and gives it value and the way it shards memory and deprecates the intellect  to hate it  !


dylan thomas says all this somewhat more  floridly  :o()
















being in my late fifties and another birthday soon, i am far enough into the process of aging and its thwarting of what makes life interesting and gives it value and the way it shards memory and deprecates the intellect  to hate it  !


dylan thomas says this somewhat more  floridly  :o()
















the american version of zen is  “married” ,  incompetent,  deskilled,  ignorant  and  proud of it and  very very set in its ways ,  which is actually not what i think zen is about :o()
















write


a more refined  “ home-brew ”  encryption


mueller_rangessottripodsotcom andrew pending_poems93sotlmth pearl-ing


the explanation link is coded so as not to be removed by you tube, replace sot with . and spaces with  /  except the last space gets replaced with a hash sign and write lmth backwards to get html


mossy mcsharry  replies


andrew. you are far too sophisticated and covert. secrecy. our new bond? james bond...


my  reply


well, it's like those martial arts you are so interested in, good fighters are sophisticated and covert !


do you notice your hostility to a competent understanding of what this  video  is about ?


you have sort of gone in the wrong direction, but no doubt you will be a typical zenster and be totally unable to see what I am saying :o(


just an endless blind egoism trying protect a very flawed intellectual investment in the clichéd world of zen, buddhism and mysticism ! :o(


mossy mcsharry  replies


I love you too. All the best.


my  reply


healthsotgroupssotyahoosotcom group who_knows


the link is coded so as not to be removed by you tube, replace sot with . and spaces with /


the best is got  (and lost :o)  through work, not wishes ! :o(


mossy mcsharry  replies


You're very hard to please Andrew. Could have used swirl in place of purl. The best is right now brown cow. Jump over the moon it'll be work time soon, enough. I refer you to Seamus Heaney's   Digging  I think you'll like it. No more fighting now. It's not good. I want another poem from you.


my  reply


health problems suck


don't


be


a


duck : o()
















“ Good sir, how many angels may jig upon the point of a needle? ”


my  reply


good sir that depends on the hardness of the soles of their boots :o)
















“ Good sir, how many angels may jig upon the point of a needle? ”


my  reply


good sir that depends on the hardness of their boots :o)
















ivan's  childhood ,  final scene
















jundo  cohen  writes


[....]  being someone who runs all around the internet bashing Zen simply for the sake of bashing Zen, and for one’s own jollies, and without regard to whether one is actually lucid and well-informed in doing so


my  reply


jundo, since we disagree severely there are three situations !


we have both got it wrong, i have it right and you have it wrong or you have it right and i have it wrong !


your complaint is actually you have got it wrong and are being shown up as wrong, for the life of me i can't see why you don't put the same energy you put into attempting to shore up your position of being wrong    into getting it right : 0 )


you and all the other zen retards, it beggars belief :o(
















religious  trickery  goes back 100,000 years ! :o(


back to the early origins of the evolution of our species


i suppose it goes with abstract thought, faulty abstraction of the real :o()


 python stone, tsodilo hills, botswana


“ a secret chamber behind the python stone. Some areas of the entrance to this small chamber were worn smooth, indicating that many people had passed through it over the years.


The shaman, who is still a very important person in San culture, could have kept himself hidden in that secret chamber. He would have had a good view of the inside of the cave while remaining hidden himself. When he spoke from his hiding place, it could have seemed as if the voice came from the snake itself. The shaman would have been able to control everything. It was perfect.


The shaman could also have  disappeared  from the chamber by crawling out onto the hillside through a small shaft ”
















dave st. germain  quotes me and asks


“ poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o() ”


How many humans are?

Your poem  response  hit the mark. But what about the moth's point of view?



........


my  reply


there is no resolution and the nature of no resolution is not sitting back and claiming  “there is no resolution”  and this state of seeing no resolution is some sort of answer which is really what i think zen claims with all the idiots pursuing some idea of enlightenment and some sort of contentment with life


as you


point out it's just the ongoing nightmare of the  life  of the moth :o)


flutter ..... flutter  :o( ((())(
















dave st. germain  quotes me and asks


“ poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o() ”


How many humans are?

Your poem  response  hit the mark. But what about the moth's point of view?



........


my  reply


there is no resolution and the nature of no resolution is not sitting back and claiming  “there is no resolution”  and this state of seeing no resolution is some sort of answer which is really what i think zen claims with all the idiots pursuing some idea of enlightenment and some sort of contentment with life


as you


point out it's just the ongoing nightmare of the  life  of the moth :o)


flutter...flutter :o( ((())(
















dave st. germain  quotes me and asks


“ poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o() ”


How many humans are?

Your poem  response  hit the mark. But what about the moth's point of view?



........


my  reply


there is no resolution and the nature of no resolution is not sitting back and claiming  “there is no resolution”  and this state of seeing no resolution is some sort of answer which is really what i think zen claims with all the idiots pursuing some idea of enlightenment and some sort of contentment with life


as you


point out it's just the ongoing nightmare of the  life  of the moth :o)


flutter...flutter

:


o


(


)


(
















dave st. germain  quotes me and asks


“ poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o() ”


How many humans are?

Your poem  response  hit the mark. But what about the moth's point of view?



........


my  reply


there is no resolution and the nature of no resolution is not sitting back and claiming  “there is no resolution”  and this state of seeing no resolution is some sort of answer which is really what i think zen claims with all the idiots pursuing some idea of enlightenment and some sort of contentment with life


as you


point out it's just the ongoing nightmare of the  life  of the moth :o)


flutter...flutter :o()
















dave st. germain  quotes me and asks


“ poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o() ”


How many humans are?

Your poem  response  hit the mark. But what about the moth's point of view?



........


my  reply


there is no resolution and the nature of no resolution is not sitting back and claiming  “there is no resolution”  and this state of seeing no resolution is some sort of answer which is really what i think zen claims with all the idiots pursuing some idea of enlightenment and some sort of contentment with life


as you


point out it's just the ongoing nightmare of the  life  of the moth :o)
















the koan system is a travesty of genuine intellectual inquiry !


put


that


in


your


pipe


and


smoke


it

:


o


)


(


or


meditate


on


it

you


  bozo  !


: o ()
















the zen koan system is a travesty of genuine intellectual inquiry


v2
















the koan system is a travesty of genuine intellectual inquiry !
















the koan system is a travesty of genuine intellectual inquiry


v1r2
















the koan system is a travesty of genuine intellectual inquiry


v1r1
















“ in the instructions for the tenzo, eihei dogen recorded his conversation with an old tenzo named yong at taintong monastery


one hot summer day after lunch when dogen was walking through a corridor, he saw the tenzo drying mushrooms in front of the buddha hall


the tenzo carried a bamboo cane, but had no hat on his head


he was drenched with sweat


the tenzo’s spine bent like a bow and with his shaggy eyebrows he looked like a crane


dogen asked the tenzo’s age


the tenzo said, “ sixty-eight ” ,  then dogen asked, “ why do you not have an attendant or lay worker do this ? ”


the tenzo said, “ others are not me ”


dogen said, “ esteemed sir, you are truly dedicated. the sun is so hot. why are you doing this now ? ”


the tenzo replied, “ what time should I wait for ? ”


dogen wrote :    I immediately withdrew.  thinking to myself as I walked away, I deeply appreciated that this job expresses the essential function ”


the above story  was dogen's biggest mistake ,  he was just schizo, missed the important points and walked away when he should have been investigating !


first thing is since the tenzo had shaggy eyebrows he was in good health for his age with good circulation !


so the exercise was useful to him, not hard labour, but moderate exercise ! all the research now shows this is helpful as we age ! :o)


now since the sun was hot why is that important ?


because he had the mushrooms out not simply to dry but be  irridated  by the UVB in intense sun so as to make vitamin D2,  extremely important to tide one over winter in good health and reduce the probability of getting  tuberculosis  !


that's why the tenzo replied  “ what time should i wait for ”  but dogen misunderstood it as some weird mystical  “essential function”  state


irridating/drying mushrooms in the sun requires finesse and attention to detail and alot of consistent care, not everybody is suitable having both the concentration and fine motor control, even a sixty-eight year old with these skills and abilities is better than the usual sort of twit that would be hanging around in a monastery !


dogen didn't offer to help, but fled and walked past the biggest opportunity of his life to get a handle on what could help his TB and for this disaster area he is lauded by the zen stupids of today who deludedly cling to some weird idea  of a schizophrenic essential state  and spew this crap on their censored forums and in their  “no criticism permitted”  talks


ignorant, blind, foolish stupid thinking themselves some holy ray of wrong minded light when it is just a univeral brown turd farting themselves to death :o)


the other mistake dogen made was not getting some of that intense sun on his  skin  to up his vitamin D3 levels and helping with the schizophrenia since it also helps brain function.............something the zen retards of today would also do well to think about :o)


save yourself some grief you retards there is no essential function mystical state, or if there is you haven't seen it on a fine clear day :o)(


well actually don't save yourselves some grief, but wallow in it please :o)(
















monarch butterflies, brilliantly serene in their ochre-orange colouring


carving a hole


in


infinity


a


state of


attention


we


can


only


guess


at

:


o


)


(
















monarch butterflies, brilliantly serene in their ochre-orange colouring


carving a hole


in


infinity


a


state of


attention


we


can


only


guess


at

:


o


(


)
















monarch butterflies, brilliantly serene in their ochre-orange colouring


carving a hole


in


infinity


a


state of


attention


we


can


only


guess


at


: o )()(
















monarch butterflies, brilliantly serene in their ochre-orange colouring


carving a hole


in


infinity


a


state of


attention


we


can


only


guess


at


: o )()(
















poem  by dave st. germain


this time

when the marigold butterflies arrive,

resting on the ground

gently opening and closing wings

with grace, without purpose

or else the purpose is to bestow it upon me,

most-honored guest



at night

the sound of a moth's wings flitter above my head,

searching along the edge of the wall

desperate for an exit.

he belongs outside,

but his instincts have enslaved him

to a floor lamp.



my reply


marigolds !  how rich !


but not as rich as a flower burnished with a red bleeding crimson streak ! : o()


poor moth, but he is not concious of being enslaved or otherwise :o()
















poem  by dave st. germain


this time

when the marigold butterflies arrive,

resting on the ground

gently opening and closing wings

with grace, without purpose

or else the purpose is to bestow it upon me,

most-honored guest



at night

the sound of a moth's wings flitter above my head,

searching along the edge of the wall

desperate for an exit.

he belongs outside,

but his instincts have enslaved him

to a floor lamp.
















however the point of zen and great creative talent is there is some secret well beyond our normal understanding, a literal stalker or roadside picnic  (ed. the film and the book)  so to speak, some resting between the horns of the moon and circumambulation/circumnavigation ?  of any number of known and unknown universes with infinities light......................


this understanding/truth is unpalatable to our breeding manic species......................
















i think the ongoing discussion between sepehr g. and myself on the 7th zen patriarch  blog  is really about artistic content versus meditative reflection



there's no answer because there's no point you'd get to but artifically limiting your artistic and philosophical horizons the way this bastard form of zen that currently holds sway does


in my observation of what happens practically


is just to produce very limited people, both students, teachers and even the more remotely involved doing zazen and avoiding teachers !
















is what  this  is talking about a trap or a benefit?


or


both ?


what I notice is when you begin to investigate an author, there's an infinite regress of understanding, everything you read and work out needs a further embellishment of detail which leads to a further need ...........


you open the lid of both Pandora/hell and paradise, there's inherent conflicts and mark is sort of just talking about the paradise side, there's no resolution or answer, anymore than life has any resolution or answer, some unending  “solaris”  nightmare :o()
















is what  this  is talking about a trap or a benefit?


or


both ?


what I notice is when you begin to investigate an author, there's an infinite regress of understanding, everything you read and work out needs a further embellishment of detail which leads to a further need ...........


you open the lid of both Pandora/hell and paradise, there's inherent conflicts and mark is sorta just talking about the paradise side, there's no resolution or answer, anymore than life has any resolution or answer, some unending  “solaris”  nightmare :o()
















is what  this  is talking about a trap or a benefit?


or


both ?


what I notice is when you begin to investigate an author, there's an infinite regress of understanding, everything you read and work out needs a further embellishment of detail which leads to a further need ...........


you open the lid of both Pandora/hell and paradise, there's inherent conflicts and mark is sorta just talking about the paradise side, there's no resolution or answer, anymore than life has any resolution or answer, some unending  “solaris”  nightmare :o()
















is what  this  is talking about a trap or a benefit?


or


both ?


what I notice is when you begin to investigate an author, there's an infinite regress of understanding, everything you read and work out needs a further embellishment of detail which leads to a further need ...........


you open the lid of both Pandora/hell and paradise, there's inherent conflicts and mark is sort of just talking about the paradise side, there's no resolution or answer, anymore than life has any resolution or answer, some unending  “solaris”  nightmare :o()
















mark,  i've never read such  drivel ,  trying to sell something are we? :o)
















mark, I've never read such  drivel ,  trying to sell something are we? :o)
















sepehr g.  writes 


Also, have you ever seen the 1986 Monkey King TV series? It's pretty good.


I can't compare to the book because I haven't read it though.


my  reply


I think the  book  is better, I read the arthur waley translation !


it really takes you to a different time, culture and way of looking at things :o)


I was interested that tarkovsky was the director of  solaris , I saw the film about 32 - 34? years ago and it had quite an impact :o)


zizek's  take  on solaris !


(includes some of the film with the lovely and somewhat autistic natalya bondarchuk who plays kris kelvin's long dead by suicide wife resurrected by the lifeform that is the sea/planet solaris ! :o)(


sometimes i feel like solaris, an old man trying to reform the world that i cannot do as age fragments my abilities :o()
















amy hanaiali`i  singing  aloha  `oe


i think this song being so like the lyric maori songs of new zealand strikes a nostalgic cord with me.......... the mystic unhurried lands and coasts of my childhood and youth
















how many of these women were  executed  ?


one


two


or


three?


the   rat a tat tat of a machine gun   then .......... nothing?


Aloha `Oe is quite an interesting  song ,  written by a  queen  who might have been better to stick at her real talent :o)


lovely lyrics, too much for kim jong-un's wife?
















this guy i met yesterday, the neighbours ex-boyfriend, he was still concerned for her................


drunk, half drunk, too much energy in the wrong places, trouble to himself and perhaps to others ? :o()


another intense lesson in the school of life ! :o(
















this guy i met yesterday, the neighbours ex-boyfriend, he was still concerned for her................


drunk, half drunk, too much energy in the wrong places, trouble to himself and perhaps to others ? :o()


another intense lesson in the school of life !
















this guy i met yesterday, the neighbours ex-boyfriend, he was still concerned for her................


drunk, half drunk, too much energy in the wrong places, trouble to himself and perhaps to others ? :o()
















what i am the power of this crystal clear intelligence


i guess creative too on agood day ! :o) !
















what i am the power of this crystal clear intelligence, i guess creative too on agood day ! :o)
















what i am


the


power of this crystal clear intelligence


:o)
















what i am am


the


power of this crystal clear intelligence


:o)


well


some-one


has to say it


even


if


it's


only


me :o)( ()
















what i am am


the


power of this crystal clear intelligence


:o)
















walter    bagehot


baghot's    dictum
















“ All over the world writers are respected and feared because they tell the truth ”
















you can see people who speak and have to deal with two languages never have the same power of synthetic syncretism as a monolingual

:


o


( )

















you can see people who speak and have to deal with two languages never have the same power of synthetic syncretism as a monolingual :o()
















you can see people who speak and have to deal with two languages never have the same power of synthetic syncretism as amonolingual :o()
















meena alexander is  interesting ,  she's right on the edge of useful/useless,  too sane/insane?


a bit comfy with her emotions,


not


traumatized


enough


!? ! ?

:


o


(


)
















meena alexander is  interesting ,  she's right on the edge of useful/useless,  too sane/insane?


a bit comfy with her emotions,


not


traumatized


enough


!? ! ?

:


o


(


)
















cats are a bit  shallow ,  and your diet looks terrible, wheat flour and more wheat flour !


there's something happening and it's not minor :o()


there's an interesting degree of recursion doing a vlog like this ! :o)
















social  skills  :o)(
















the real  dynamic  of north korea !


sex on tap with attractive young women for the ruling elite : o ()


“ [...]  state-sponsored prostitution has been in place ever since the days of Kim Jong-un’s grandfather, Kim Il-sung, who, as Mr Martin writes, took his role as “father of the nation” quite literally.


Convinced that impregnating young women would keep him feeling young himself, he sired scores of illegitimate children at secret love nests code named “Number One” and “Number Two.”


One part of the Fifth Division, known as the Satisfaction Corps, is dedicated entirely to prostitution, although its members’ parents are told that their children have been sent to work as undercover spies in South Korea ”
















sepehr g.  writes


Andrew, what about reading manga, watching art-house films, or etc.? I found Tezuka's Hi no Tori like poetry, and I also find Andrei Tarkovsky's films, particularly Stalker, on the level of poetry too.


Seriously, though, check out Stalker. It's one of the deepest experiences I've ever had in regards to art.


I definitely agree with you the creative process is indistinguishable from Zen... that is, it opens a window of infinite potentialities where anything is possible. It's like a feral cat, or even domestic cat, ready to prance on a prey. The only difference with the human is he is ready to prance and create a new world, or better represent this infinite myriad of world(s).


I feel as if your poetry opens up to this, Andrew. I've read a lot of your stuff on your site, but I don't see what makes poetry more special than film, sequential art, cartoons, or etc.


If you want, I can recommend you some great comics, film, and/or video games. I've always been more of a visual person, and this is why I BADLY want to learn how to draw well and make my own comics! I would do that more than write poetry. Perhaps, my characters would say poetic things...


But then again, maybe there is no clear delineation among these medium of art when they come from a deep sincerity and true creativity? A mind that is unfettered from wanting prestige, impressing others, and so forth...


my  reply


i think it's all to do with quality and depth of abstraction !


andrei tarkovsky | stalker | roadside  picnic  | arkady and boris strugatsky  has an abstraction depth


however the point of zen and great creative talent is there is some secret well beyond our normal understanding, a literal stalker or roadside picnic so to speak, some resting between the horns of the moon and circumambulation of any number of known and unknown universes with infinities light......................


this understanding/truth is unpalatable to our breeding manic species......................


there appears to be free comic drawing software on the web, why not try that and start producing ?


sepher g.  replies


You really are like the 7th Zen/Chan patriarch...


my  reply


it's a gift the world has no use for ..............
















dave st. germain  replies  to


Not everything needs my commentary!


my


reply


yeah but you are caught in the low standards of your own generation ! this is the thing,  do you go with the second rate or adhere to the standards of histories greats ?


like  tu fu  for instance?


meena alexander is like some not quite half witted drudge compared to tu fu, your choice, we only live once ! :o())))(()
















he took hugo boss to the  cleaners  :o)


good


for


you

russell ! :o)


it's like chess, they left themselves exposed and he took advantage of it :o)
















as you get older, you learn the importance of being non-judgemental


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as you get older, you learn the importance of not being judgemental
















as you get older, you learn the importance of  not being judgemental


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i was thinking abstractly and a few instances i have observed when i wrote/spoke the sequence below , but in part it was from this  video  with charles bukowski and his future wife  (linda  beighle),  when i first saw this i was skeptical of his accusation that she was sleeping around but i have since come to understand him as being dead on, so she must have made some sort of decision ! : o )(
















a woman can love you and still be unfaithful


i wonder if the same applies to men?
















a woman can love you and still be unfaithful  i wonder if the same applies to men?
















a woman can love you  and still be unfaithful  i wonder if the same applies to men ?


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a woman can love you and still be unfaithful :o( :o) !
















a woman can love you and still be unfaithful  :o( :o)  !


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a woman can love you and still be unfaithful :o( :o)


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a woman can love you and still be unfaithful :o) :o(


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a woman can love you and still be unfaithful


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quality writing,  it says something and is clearly evocative


one laments the modern wasteland of fradulent insincere trash peddled by its experientially bankrupt owners :o(


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On Seeing a Pupil of Kung-sun Dance the Chien-ch`i


On the nineteenth day of the tenth month of the second year of Ta-li  (15 November 767),  in the residence of Yuan Ch`ih, Lieutenant-Governor of K`uei-chou, I saw Li Shih-er-niang of Lin-ying dance the chien-ch`i.


Impressed by the brilliance and thrust of her style, I asked her whom she had studied under.  “ I am a pupil of Kung-sun ”,  was the reply.


I remember in the fifth year of K`ai-yuan  (717)  when I was still a little lad seeing Kung-sun dance the chien-ch`i and the hun-t`o at Yen-ch`eng.  For purity of technique and self-confident attack she was unrivalled in her day.


From the  “royal command performers”  and the  “insiders”  of the Spring Garden and Pear Garden schools in the palace down to the  “official call”  dancers outside, there was no one during the early years of His Sagely Pacific and Divinely Martial Majesty who understood this dance as she did.  Where now is that lovely figure in its gorgeous costume?  Now even I am an old, white-haired man,  and this pupil of hers is well past her prime.


Having found out about the pupil's antecedents, I now realized that what I had been watching was a faithful reproduction of the great dancer's interpretation. The train of reflections set off by this discovery so moved me that I felt inspired to compose a ballad on the chien-ch`i.


Some years ago, Chang Hsu, the great master of the  “grass writing”  style of calligraphy, having several times seen Kung-sun dance the West River chien-ch`i at Yeh-hsein, afterwards discovered, to his immense gratification, that his calligraphy had greatly improved.  This gives one some idea of the sort of person Kung-sun was !


In time past there was a lovely woman called Kung-sun, whose chien-ch`i astonished the whole world. Audiences numerous as the hills watched awestruck as she danced, and, to their reeling senses, the world seemed to go on rising and falling, long after she had finished dancing. Her flashing swoop was like the nine suns falling, transfixed by the Mighty Archer's arrows; her soaring flight like the lords of the sky driving their dragon teams aloft; her advance like the thunder gathering up its dreadful rage; her stoppings like seas and rivers locked in the cold glint of ice


The crimson lips, the pearl-encrusted sleeves are now at rest. But in her latter years there had been a pupil to whom she transmitted the fragrance of her art. And now in the city of the White Emperor the handsome woman from Lin-ying performs this dance with superb spirit. Her answers to my questions have revealed that there was good reason to admire, my ensuing reflections fill me with painful emotion.


Of the eight thousand women who served our late Emperor, Kung-sun was from the first the leading performer of the chien-ch`i.  Fifty years have now gone by like a flick of the hand - fifty years in which rebellions and disorders darkened the royal house.  The pupils of the Pear Garden have vanished like the mist.  And now here is this dancer, with the cold winter sun shining on her fading features.


South of the Hill of Golden Grain the boughs of the trees already interlace. On the rocky walls of Ch`u-t`ang the dead grasses blow forlornly. At the glittering feast the shrill flutes have once more concluded. When pleasure is at its height, sorrow follows.


The moon rises in the east, and I depart, an old man who does not know where he is going, but whose feet, calloused from much walking in the wild mountains, make him wearier and wearier of the pace


〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰


a beautiful poem by  tu fu


Morning Rain


A slight rain comes, bathed in dawn light


I hear it among treetop leaves before mist


Arrives. Soon it sprinkles the soil and,


Windblown, follows clouds away. Deepened


Colors grace thatch homes for a moment.


Flocks and herds of things wild glisten


Faintly. Then the scent of musk opens across


Half a mountain -- and lingers on past noon.