this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items that don't warrant a page by themselves or seem to fit better here



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files are best listened to  with the eyes closed !



the layout is done with the internet explorer text size setting at  largest  and with a zoom of 125%, and my text rendering is done for these settings though they should be somewhat tolerant of a zoom setting or two up or down


















entheta,  the scientology concept of avoiding reading or thinking or speaking about anything contrary to the group's accepted beliefs, an excellent word, thanx ron, you were good for something


:


o


)

















captialism has simply replaced the old “warlordism”,  the usual story of competence, control and repression : o)
















lifeline (ed. youngish female voice)


this is just a brief call and i would like to thank you for your support



andrew


well i haven't given you any support and i am in disagreement with your approach 


: o )



  lifeline


bye































audio table for 2nd of march to come !

















well, now i don't think this  group  are into sexually exploiting it's acolytes and financially seems marginal


but still the same advaita mistake, this confusion of the now or seeming or awareness as being of the infinite


in fact this understanding that there is some tangible “infinite” is what it is all about and this takes time  : o )


don't put yourself in a situation of being judged by your inferiors, i do that all the time, the terminal condition of  “competent depressives”  : o (
















the bottom line is can we embrace being hurt in an intelligent constructive way  : o )


this is of course beyond you lot  : o )


this is the real letting go of the self, not the spaced out blather of zen and advaita and the arrant nonsense of christianity
















herman melville in  jerusalem


i was thinking that advaita, zen and religion generally were like melville's experience of jerusalem


all the gloss of a lot of history and the associations and stories in the bible, but the reality is an unattractive arid city with alot of stone, muggers and petty thieves  ;  o)


and

actually


the


heartless


brutality


if


you


can


see


it


:


o


)
















moby dick sold 3,100 copies in melvilles lifetime  : o (


“Mr. Melville has survived his reputation,” one critic wrote in 1851 of the “imposing” novel, with its diatribes, tangents, and verbosity. “If he had been contented with writing one or two books, he might have been famous, but his vanity has destroyed all his chances for immortality, or even of a good name with his own generation.”


  article 
















migraine



my


living


dead


moment



:


o


)


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migraine


my


living


dead


moment


:


o


)


(
















life


just


seems


to


consist


of


a


succession


of


periods


of


insanity


:


o


(


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life


just


seems


to


consist


of


a


succession


of


periods


of


insanity


:


o


)


(
















honestly anonymouse, there's really is something to sort out (ed. zen/inquiry/infinity) and you have no interest in doing any real work have you ?


the big huge problem is you have to go along lines that hurt, and straight away that sorts the sheep from the goats


none of those posters on the new hczb can do that, indeed, think it abit sick


but actually brad who has some insight can, tho not enough to be useful to him : o )


all that prattle about buddha, but it hurts too much to investigate wether he was really an actual historical person and not some building of cardboard pasted together over the ages : o )
















modern music, a sheep rattle for the young   : o (
















advaita is a fiction that depends on censorship  : o (
















zen


turns


out


to


be


a


bunch


of


idiots


shaking


sheep


rattles


 : o (


SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE SHAKE !!!!
















zen


turns


out


to


be


a


bunch


of


idiots


shaking


sheep


rattles


 : o (
















Andrew


r u mad?


well


i

could


say


iwas


or


i


could


say


i

wasn't, but really


what is


madness?



mp3 #2 22nd aug/12 tbu
















i was thinking, where does miscavigie get these competent depressives ( jefferson  hawkins  and john  brousseau  ) to do his insane and manically egotistical bidding with punishment or permission to continue as the only reward


then


i


thought


i'm


one


of


them !


:


o


)


(
















i was thinking, where does miscavigie get these competent depressives ( jefferson  hawkins  and john  brousseau  ) to do his insane and manically egotistical bidding with punishment or permission to continue as the only reward ?
















advaita


dreary


dullards


permuting


vocabulary


fo-r


ever :


!


o


)
















advaita


dreary


dullards


permuting


vocabulary


fo-r


ever
















all you guys are so full of endless bullshit, but the one thing you can't bullshit about is your health
















i correct my spelling, but basically don't change them : o)




ed. reply  to
















people are afraid to experience themselves, so fill their brains with music now, it makes them vulnerable : o )





ed. reply  to
















the only sane teacher i ever came across was toni packer !


why are people in it? tolle is in for the money which makes sense, renz is in it for sexual opportunity or used to be, that promiscuous travelling life style, the vast majority are in it because they are schizophrenic and autistic queens bees !


in actual fact i think the mirrors that teaching creates for teachers is so distorting and full of hubris that “ he needs must not see himself ” in the famous words of sir henry neville  : o )


my helen keller links


she wasn't simply blind, but had that super visual intensity of autism  : o )


sir henry neville is very autistic too, and suzanne foxton and her family and me and ...............


yeah the neurobiological paradigm leaves advaita in the dust


the autistic and developmentally disabled puppets swaying in life's cruel breezes  : o )





ed. reply  to
















the


female


philosophy


the


most


intelligent


man


is


dumber


than


the


dumbest


woman


:


o


)


(
















the


female


philosophy


the


most


intelligent


man


is


dumber


than


the


dumbest


woman



mp3 #1 20th august/12 tbu
















we could have the grey-monochrome  wars,  nations battling across europe for centuries over wether grey is a colour  : o )


it's


about


as


sensible


as



anything


else


i've


seen


in


terms


of


religious


belief


:


o


)
















we could have the grey-monochrome wars, nations battling across europe for centuries over wether grey is a colour  : o )


it's


about


as


sensible


as



anything


else


i've


seen


:


o


)
















we could have the grey-monochrome wars, nations battling across europe for centuries over wether grey is a colour  : o )




pauls  reply
















odd  nerdrum
















i wonder if the polygamy of islam has favoured a selective breeding of manic aggressive nuts?


maybe


that's


why


the


middle


east,


northern


middle

east,


and


afghanistan


are


like


they


are?
















i wonder if the polygamy of islam has favoured a selective breeding of manic aggressive nuts?




eileen writes



arab men frightened me when i was a child there (ed. libya and egypt )


have intense stare


i was very young but picked up the cast ur eyes down in their presence very quick


mum didn't even need to emphasis they give off an aggressive aura
















the software writer who runs the new hcz blog, jayce has me on moderation


“ i have to be polite ”


but it's too damaging to be on there and posting without being able to call their shit aggressively  : o )


unless i can do that i aquiesce and become part of their toxicity, aggressive abusive keeps me sane

perhaps i do need the conflict, i don't know


anyway i think brad understood this issue of when you aquiesce to bullshit, you become part of it which was why he is always so reluctant to moderate


i know, they don't, it's that simple


they are fucked in the head for sure


schizophrenic
















it  (ed. grey)  is a colour ! it isn't a colour ! it is a color ! it isn't a color! it's spelt with a “u” ..... no it isn't ...................................................................................................


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i think we have the basis for a religious schism here  : o )





ed. reply 
to
















a search on candice o'denver is interesting, she has a pretty powerful marketing machine, spam posts everywhere


i feel basically she is talking rubbish and wonder where these supporters come from and then i thought, well this is the new jehovah's witnesses


i am going through this in a zen board at the moment, you just sorta stand in front of them stupified, they are so wilfully ignorant  : o )
















the new  hczb , would be teachers, masturbating for real   : o )
















mysterion, your low ferritin levels from being  vegetarian  would have been a major factor in your heart and circulation problems


and the fact your brain , like brad's doesn't work properly  : o )


brains need ferritin too, the pools of iron in the body are not that interchangeable and you have to eat liver to get ferritin : o )


yeah i take 1000 iu of vit D daily, use a homebuilt uvb lamp and get high solar noon sun on the skin in summer


my cardiovascular health is very good and so is my brain  : o )


only an idiot would think doctors know anything about nutrition or health  : o )


you may claim to be a buddhist but like christians what you really worship is medicine for its ability to bring you back from your own dietary stupidity  : o )


i love medicine, the way it half kills the suckers with chemo, hiroshima-like doses from CAT scans, brain damage from open heart surgery (which is what has happened in your case), making entire generations schizpohrenic and autistic with vaccines and lack of sun on the skin



oh


yes


humans


deserve


it


:


o


)
















the fifth noble truth is anyone who believes the four noble truths is so immersed in bullshit they don't know what the truth is ! : o )
















the fifth noble truth is anyone who believes the four noble truths is so immersed in bullshit they don't know what truth is ! : o )
















anonymouse asks


hey andrew, what do you think of the caveman diet?



my


reply



i guess you mean the paleolithic diet which is actually based on a false premise, that humans are not adapted at all to agrarian style eating !


so these very high protein, very high iron diets don't suit us either !


the specific carbohydrate and bioflm carbohydrate diets are not low carb diets, but selective of carbs that don't feed bad biofilm or gut flora !


the bcd diet is complex and i know you guys are incapable of the level of work it requires, you like this sort of thing like you like zen, easy bullshit is wanted and real discerning work that gets results, well.................


speaking of easy bullshit, brad warner's new blog has degenerated pretty quickly the moment i stopped posting hasn't it?


actually, i think to brad's credit he's not capable of moderating it, he understands the problems, but jayce renner is your usual ignorant as pigshit but self assured buddhist twit and he's got the control of that site  : o )



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some simple things to do in terms of the biofilm carbohydrate diet are to cut back on wheat and start to think about pasturizing fruit and salads


eliminate sugar and honey


with the odd excpetion store brough fruit juices are toxic


really, grains should be eliminated
















north korea is an archetypal communist state, non-functioning economy, privileged elite, personality  cult  and extremely brutal repression of the population  : o )
















it's not a universe!


   people are not universally going to listen to you : o )
















it's not a universe! people are not universally going to listen to you : o )
















actually the diet at tassajara is unintelligent vegetarian, that is, high wheat flour


veg pizza's that sort of thing, and not particularly informed on the veg/fruit side


brad warner is going to come out a zombie which is what happened to him last time  : o )


nice spot, but like prison, slow execution by a very toxic diet


unleavened bread is the worse, no denaturing of the wheat proteins ! : o )
















ted, at our ages our brains are failing and to make progress one has to address diet and supplements like fish oil in a serious way, otherwise we just run in circles !


i have voluminous writings on the subject


i would be a dead duck if i hadn't done this


i think this is basically what i have learnt from the hczb, everyone is running in circles or falling down some toxic hill and it's that the brains are failing due to diet, micronutrient deficiencies and age


people are not meant to be like what is showing here, malfunctional beyond belief  : o )


brad warner is a paradigm for here, schizophrenically rigid, starting to get into the area of failing health, just a liability to those that know him, yet he is an able person  : o (


america is an unbelieveably medicalized culture, you are all damaged from too many vaccines and bad scheduling of them and excess medical interventions and lack needed things like sun on the skin which is discouraged and have poor quality food


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jayce, i don't notice you speaking up when people write they want to kill me or that turd alan is trying to get me removed and banned from this board


that said, i do notice americans place more weight on superfical politeness and australians are rougher in manner and more straightforward


cultural differences
















you


can't


reason


an


idiot


out


of


idoacy


can


you?
















ted, it can be a bit scary to be ourselves, but not that scary :o )


put down the clichés, leave the buddhism in the garbage and step into what is hopefully a fresh you


the stench of your rotting flesh will abate : o )
















well of course if they keep shutting the door...................


i have never met such a bunch of obstructing and self obstructing half wits


even at work : o )
















ted you are broken in the usual human way


a


hell


state


all


by


yourself


with


no


light


:


o


)



god give you some insight to see what this means  : o (
















“the conspiracy of claudius civilis”  by  rembrandt 
















there's a special sort of broken machine that repairs itself in the image and reality of buddha and sees buddha and knows buddha and that's what it's all about, i keep thinking this is clear but but you self satisfied prigs seem to have a sort of waterproofing so full of your selves and your untrue beliefs  : o )


why


do


we


have


so


much


trouble


seeing


ourselves

a

s


abroken


machine ?


:


o


)
















sadly i see reality truely and there's no more pyschotic state  : o ( )


mind to mind transmission is what zen is about, that happened with me and the sixth partriarch so that's the most senior appointment and i am boss


i'm not a messiah cause it's abit dangerous and who cares about saving the world, but the fact is i am the most senior zen/chan person alive and if you can't understand that direct link outside time then..............


you


don't


get


what


it's


all


about


:


o


)
















“ YOU


DEPRESSIVE


ASPIE


FUCKER ”


yah well that's me  : o )


and dogen and the sixth patriarch, basho, emily dickenson, and moondog


AND


YOU (ed. comic brains)


why not step into your heritage : o )
















 “zen letters”  is 7th patriarch disapproved, it's actually the usual heresy of conciousness being buddha


yuanwu keqin (commentator of the blue cliff record and writer of zen letters) was not enlightened, but xuedou zhongxian the original collator/author of the koan's was, you you have to parse a bit reading the blue cliff record!


i would guess most of the people posting on this board (ed.hczb) have very little idea that there is an authentic zen literaure, their ideas about it having been derived from popular culture and psuedo stuff like moondog : o )


future generations can look forward to “sayings of the seventh partiarch” of course, no doubt thoroughly distorted and misinterpreted by the usual know nothing editors and commentators : o )
















as the enlightened one and 7th patriarch i notice you plebs believe in some sort of path, my experience is there might be a path but it's only apparent or visible when you look back over where you have gone


so actually attempts to steer oneself along or onto it are futile


there is only one steering star and that's infinity, projecting your ideas is just that, projecting and unless you are sensitive to what infinity or buddha is, it's futile and you will end up here (ed. hczb) blathering nonsense for ever  : o )


actually i do have some sort of sense of path looking back over my time here, sorta of a maturing and latter days “enlightenment”, just tediously slow and perhaps not more difficult than any other disaster area i have been involved with  : o )


back to watching  sniper  videos  : o )


i am amazed, i designed my own muzzle brake and it looks very like the one on the mcmillan tac-50


an interesting perspective on  sniping
















don't get soft in the head, it's not a good sign for brain health  : o )
















ted, your partner is quite male and you have a strong female streak, we are actually all a mix


heterosexuals can be as severely or even more gender blurred than homosexuals, look and you will see : o )


why not walk out of the failed buddhist conceptual box you have built around yourself?


khru, i think zen is selective for better intelligence, vipassana and tibetan are cretinous


tho i would also say that zen is also selective for poor emotional intelligence and extreme rigidity : o )


most religions, they don't bother what they believe, just some fluff one goes along with : o )
















i think you will find that transgender is not well acccepted and understood and actually it's a slightly psychotic condition, not because of male and female brains being in opposite bodies, but the need to physically attempt to change the body which is too penal from a long term health view and socially stigmatizing


being over identified with being one sex : o)


just blend in and go with the flow i say : o )
















@ fred



well i take statements about wanting to kill me as a threat to kill, perhaps you have a different interpretation


death threats are actually not much fun, but once you have had one it's abit ho hum after that  : o )


i know how it sux being such a nonentity that no-one wants to kill you, get over it  : o )


you are a person who would benefit by reading the cleary bros translation of the blue cliff record, zen is all about schizoid and autism, you and i being both of course !


the trick with schiziod is to move beyond it, there's no trick to autism except survival and taking what it offers  : o)


enlightenment is the complete understanding that we are shadows and infinity is all : o )


my remark about you being zoned out on wheat products abit close to home?
















alan, maybe you have some slight ticking over between the ears, can you just say there is some possibility that seeking to get someone banned or threating to kill someone is being unpleasant and that since you are not seeking removal of the people threatening to kill, that there is total and complete hypocrisy?


is zen about being more or less of a hypocrite?


what is the role of personal consistency in enlightenment?

















internet trolls have power, they grab you and stuff you down their throats : o )
















the blue cliff record is really the basic zen text after the platform sutra, the cleary brothers translation is way the best imo
















look what’s your zen worth if you can’t competently refute what i say, read the old stories


the cleary brothers translation of the blue cliff record is very good, you are all so interested in zen, why not read up abit instead of conscripting musicians like moondog as a reference!


to stand on the blue cliff, what is that ? find out !
















the thing about bipolar is the mood shift is a pump, i think all genius has some degree of bipolar, but the only really effective med is high dose lithium which is a killer of the thyroid and general health


on my health web pages i have a write up about using very very tiny dose lithium carbonate in drinking water and low dose lithium aspartate and strontium can be useful as well.................
















@ andy



i can see it's worrying you : o)


it's the expression itself that's interesting to me


i don't write for anybody, i am just happy if it has the weight of the infinite in it


i also publish it, like i use this blog material i write for my homilies and poems pages, but in a way it's not necessary others read it


the point of this blog and the people on it, their extreme make believe and estrangement from what it's about is it's an extreme that generates a very functional dissonance


it's not a dialogue, it's a storyboard, but the story is true............


wether people pick up on it or not i have no expectations and actually that would work not that well for me if people became less estranged, you in fact are about as close as it can get to be effective, you are actually at an optimal distance for effectiveness so i hope that doesn't change and i don't think it will


it's really fundamental to this "alignment" that being "offended, annoyed, upset and tuned out" be used in productive ways, like recognising in this case that valid criticisms are being made and needing to step down from a senseless and pointless self esteem bound up is the supposed mastery of some rediculous zen or advaita type vocabulary


but as i say these people are not capable of it and it's better that way : o )


they are totally opaque and it's like talking to walruses : o )


nothing would shock me more than comic brains saying, “i can see what you are on about,” fortunately it can't happen  : o )


as to where wonderland is and when it occurs, you get an intuition about it


yeah there are dangers, i don't necessarily recommend it at all having had some very close scrapes : o )
















@andy



there are other time and spaces beside this everyday world, magical, polished spaces and in those spaces shine the sixth and seventh patriarchs, alice in wonderland, the infinite moon, the trees at tassajara and the hohonu range near lake brunner, the sea off ulverstone.............. cape leveque, kalumburu, the new zealand south island............just north of tullah in tasmania, the king river, the west coast ranges, ocean beach..............................


in these spaces you enter the timeless......................


you


don't


really


have


any


question


after


this


the


morons


babble


from


the


everyday


world


.


.


.


.


:


o


)





andy replies


then why are you babbling back?




my


reply



well you think it babble


an every day worlder i guess, the majesty and beauty and awe of it all escapes you


it's not that it's babble back but what i write is that magical polished space and surface


so it speaks to all except the estranged



:


o


)



zen is not different from poetry, the claim of the everyday worlders is the same as moondogs quote, the infinite is inexpressible, the mystics however hold that some expressions are in identity with infinity itself and this identity and alignment is what it is all about


the scoffers of the everyday sit on the sideline, yelling abuse and disbelief


so my babble/writing is rooted in that identity and that's why it appears



my further reply


the quality of my writing and intensity of effort are in a way out of place on this blog, (ed.hczb) except that really i have no intention of convincing anyone of anything, amd what could it possibly matter, but that it's like a storyboard and i use what i write on my website
















tunneling through  time  nyiregyhazi playing the music for the somewhat execrable movie  : o )


it's of a totally different order from just about anything i have ever heard, sadly his later recordings lack due to his age and alcoholism



“ a short clip of the great pianist nyiregyhazi, from a very early film. the background liebestraum may also be nyiregyhazi. around two minutes in you can hear him more clearly (and see him at the back) and his unusual style is quite distinctively captured liszt rhapsody no. 12. you can hear his characteristic depth of tone and freedom of timing (scarcely a single melody note actually coincides fully with the left hand) without the mannerisms that his later recordings sometimes suffer from.


there are no proper recordings of him in his prime. he was only recorded later when he hadn't owned a piano or practised properly in 40 years and he was usually very drunk.


he had ten wives before his death, one of whom tried to murder him and one of whom was the mother of a previous wife ”
















moondog/louis hardin  “why spend the dark  night  with you”,  unfortunately i was unable to find the music without the dancing  : o )
















anonymous, if balanced  view  works why can't you have a name?


it looks to me like a pretty slick machine to take cash from middle aged women


why are the most stupid, vacuous and talentless people involved in  “the spiritual scene” ?


teachers who can't cope with criticism, indeed so proactive in avoiding it it's not funny, and students who are some amalgam of emotional retardation, stupidity and cowardice?


balanced view guru candice o'denver   persuading  the disciples not to have children to keep the money for for the balanced view pot  : o ), but actually i can see her point, a good 50% of today's women shouldn't breed,  GO CANDICE  : o )
















zen, first refuge of the talentless : o (
















it's like the living dead, you flatten them down and they get up again, it's the hitting of them that gives them the only energy they know


:


o


(
















ok, lets take that  quote  from moondog  (that autistic loser!)



“The only one who knows this ounce of words is just a token,

   is he who has a tongue to tell that must remain unspoken.”



i would say that's actually voynich, musicians are not that great upstairs



my reply



the one who knows this ounce of words

is more than a token
















comic, moon dog had a real non trivial life, who are you fooling by claiming some sort of identity with , you fake bunch of plastic?


i quite like his music, he was a real composer producing something, you can't even front up who you are?


yeah i am an autistic loser but buddha helps me when i don't turn away, happened so many times, my turning it makes me cry  : o (


no i don't get lonely cause i am the moon : o)
















zen 101, reality is upside down, since we are reality we are mostly upside down, there's real practical work on being more  “rightside up”


being rightside up is not rigidly excluding but being open and moving with the flow, very tai chi moving hands in fact ; o )


we are all offended, but can we move beyond that ?
















had to slit a wallabies throat the other night, just cut the vein on the side of the neck and they bleed to death quick enough, not a bad way to go, when i get old it might be an option : o )
















“maggot”,  being insane is an important part of the discovery of truth because only by being insane will you be in the area that truth is at home, ie outside normality


i love these nicks : o )
















i don't approve of drew hempel, he's making the classic advaita mistake, identifying conciousness with infinity, the same problem as “silent illumuation” and suburban/ordinary mind  zen


  jesus joko beck was a toxic bitch, really mean minded women in the maezumi lineage   : o )


they/he are missing the essential insight 


   however you lot won't be told will you  : o )
















narcissim is more a fundamental truth than “feel good” altruism because we are each entire universes and all else is illusion : o )
















narcissim is more a fundamental truth than “feel good” altruism because we are each entire universes to ourselves and all else is illusion : o )
















@andy


you write  “maybe that’s why zen is sometimes called the stupid way. like beckett’s “go on failing. go on. only next time, try to fail better. ” ”


yeah or succeed


why you lot are so benighted, is you run in the opposite direction to first base which is you cannot accept your own ignorance


i never had that issue when i started in zen, it was always questions that have taken decades to sort out


you disbelieve there is any resolution or zen is in fact about something totally unexpected

  : o )


i notice you are taking my being the 7th patriarch as some sort of  “put on”  by me, in fact it's not and really happened, until you can accept that then ..................


it's just not in your world view that such a thing can happen...................


that world view is your being locked-up...............


your views are like star trek, cadillacs and corporate dog bodies put in outer space : o )


ted you are a boring old fart and would you please keep moving in the opposite direction to first base : o)


seriously, you are so dull and grey there must be something wrong with your life? mismatched partner perhaps?


fred what did you have for breakfast : o )


comic brains, you have hurt me, new age indeed! : o )


actually i wonder if things have sort of divided, you all really have clearly stated that you have an adequate understanding, you are not claiming perfection, but some ability to sort right from wrong whereas i am saying you are actually impaired in that ability and you have to go back much further to some regrounding of a sense of what it's about and way better discrimination



am


i


going


i


don't


know


got


plenty


to


do


that's


for


sure


:


o


)
















@andy


posting on this board (ed. hczb) is the test for being on autistic spectrum and especially replying to me, most people can't cope and find the deconstruction too gruelling !


being able to handle this level of deconstruction or dissociation means that neurologically you are deconstructed and/or dissociated, maybe more dissociated than deconstructed, you in the arts at all?


what i mean by stupid is getting zen wrong when it could just as easily be got right, it's crazy stupid weird, but life is like that isn't it?


this is going to sound arrogant, but it is experience, that really i am some sort of freak genius and so far ahead that “constructive dialogue” usually has nothing to offer me the gap is so wide, tho actually these posts of ours are a constructive dialogue and making me think !


but you being able to handle what is being written in a reasonable fashion is unusual !


despite saying what i have said about genius, i do take your point about “locked-in, self-referential snap-shots of insight” and again experience teaches a fundamental equality between us, others have insights and approaches i learn from and certainly it is always instructive to see more generous behavior in others than we are personally capable of !


the tangible reality of infinity or buddha or the absolute is a tangible reality in our lives and it just stinks that zen has gotten so far off tracks and filled with creeps who can't speak without defecating out of their mouths


rigid, anti-creative, suppressing of dissident, what marks zen is a zombie hell and not the the voice and vision of the sages that history occasionally throws up  : o )
















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i am reminded of reading my sisters diary once, a distorted field of reality and impenetrable mindset : o )





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reply to andy on the hczb 



i can see clearly how people fool themselves and others about what they call zen, it's so absolutely malfunctional and unreal it just about makes me cry


the only reason you would want to not call these shits on it is if you don't see it


where the autistic spectrum (which you are also way on btw, you come across too clearly in posts to be neurotypical) comes in is that it gives some relief from social constructs of reality, that is socially received truths about how reality is supposed to be which are always malformed and misguided


yeah you are right about “deconstructive game ” forming my own ideas, it's really an exploration of reality, this is where the autism comes in, not having a neurological model of how people and social reality are i have to form one by experiment and experience, this board is good for that because the people are so stupid and extreme, sort of an ultra neurotypical that is so badly done, even i can see through it   : o )


i had to laugh at brad warners complaint about not being able to or interested in running a zen center, these little streaks of how autistic he really is flash through. you can actually pick it with him, he's not inclinded to take the socially transmitted version of reality, tho he has had made the mistake of picking up on buddhism to his detriment



birds of a feather flock together



dogen is interesting because he's not only extremely autistic but incredibly learning disabled or semantic-pragmatic disordered


you can see this by the way he scripts, just cludging stock phrases together, but sometimes he achieves something unique and through his life he became more able to express himself originally


all the inversions and doubling and then negating what he writes are in fact a clever giving of something sincere and original of one bound into the scripting of religious clichés
















this board (ed. hczb) is alike a roll call in cowardice, fred who can't manage to say wether he's a vegetarian or not, andy who will forever remain unknown (maybe his wife watches his web use? )


the endless people in zen vainly caught between being silently illuminated and unable to front up any real life presence ( maybe that wouldn't be silently illuminated then?)


masks, more masks and an endless stupidity about risk


frogs, mice and emaciated diseased lions



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so the basic spiritual search is to bring the mask into identity with your real self, that's where it starts, you have to be intelligent about it, a measured vulnerability which takes practice and experience, but basically it can be done without being too dangerous


i think this process modifies the real self as well in a more productive and functional way
















not much point in holding my breath is there?


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