this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of  the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed  !



music is a bad game to be in unless you are very very good !

this  good

i’ve listened to others but she’s a standout  virtuoso

who is dominating music these days, very talented young women, not tone deaf male pretenders !

music is a bad game to be in unless you are very very good !

music is a bad game to be in unless you are very very good

talent marches to its own drummer !

genius marches to many drums !

the mediocre and incompetent never march, they just posture !

talent marches to its own drummer !

genius marches to many drums !

talent marches to its own drummer !

talent marches to its own drummer

a really right decision can take years or decades to find out, so there’s that uncertainty !

i’m looking for a person committed to zen, with knowledge and hopefully wisdom as well.  my question is quite simple, it’s about what’s right and how to deal in this situation i’m currently in

be guided by the end results !

you are just interested in being some image

why be second rate at something ? 

can you go into more depth here ?  why do those substances  (ed.  lsd and pot)  give rigid stupidity ?

the issues with drugs are

1.  do they modify your view of the world in an unhelpful way

and

2.  do they cause any permanent brain damage !

when you drive in heavy traffic  (fine particulates and chemicals)  or go under a general anesthetic or head a ball in soccer you also get brain damage, so its not black and white at all but you get the drift  .  .

heavy users of lsd  (and likely other hallucinogens)  get permanent flashbacking so that is evidence of brain damage and rewiring of the brain  .  .

i dislike it because there is absolutely no point to taking it, people who do it regularly are always total arseholes and the use must be contributing to that, oversolipsist in the wrong way ?

pot damages the brain because all the real life users show that for sure, but also from a medical viewpoint, an absolutely tiny amount is  ‘ hormetic ’  for stroke which you may think is a good thing, but it means that an insignificant amount stresses the brain so much that it is somewhat protected against stroke so god knows what conventional use does, well actually three regular posters on r|zen come to mind, more idiot curmudgeons are hard to find  .  .

drugs do not give the sort of cognitive insight needed for zen and i have yet to see even one drug taker show any real zen  .  .

the other side of the story is people take drugs for some sort of self-medicating effect which is understandable but the wrong road

for instance lsd is supposed to help with migraine which i get, but magnesium taurate works wonders with me and helps the heart and circulation as well  .  .

a lot of people do pot to help with sleep, but again there are way better ways to approach the problem without the footprint of brain damage

but these people are so mentally lazy and stupid they will never  even read  what i write !

reddit zen, mentally lazy, talentless, drugged addled idiots !

zen attracts the untalented wannabes the way trout go for fishmeal !

look at this  video  judi dench is a great actress, her husband  (orsino), though a nice guy is just not in the same class !

unlike you and reddit zen posters he is not deluded about his lack of capacity !

calling a band zen won’t make up for a lack of talent !

ask brad warner !

a redditor writes

this advice is on the topic of relationships.  i was going through a rough patch with my girlfriend.  and then this came upon me

‘ it’s not so much what they say that screws you, but what they do not say ’

 anything human is a cot case  !

anything human is a cot case

evening falls

darkness descends

the sky flames

out

wisps ascend

somebody  replied

happy cakeday dude

my  reply

a cake

the day

a dude

doesn’t

end

evening falls

darkness descends

the sky flames

out

wisps ascend

evening falls

darkness descends

the sky flames

out

the wisps ascend

from my experience on r|zen lsd and pot are the ones that seem to fuck the brain most and make for the most rigid stupid net morons

not fucked enough to stop them writing unfortunately !

 anyway you can’t win there just like you can’t win in real life zen  .  .

drug users just burn your time like its of no account

basically the true dynamic of the r|zen subreddit is druggies using zen as some sort of life wallpaper !

all the buddhists are pretend because real life buddhism prohibits drug taking so all the druggies come to wank on r|zen

me, i don’t even drink coffee or tea !

you’ve just got a cognitive wall in there haven’t you !

you’ve just got a cognitive wall in there haven’t you

we’re a species of plagiarists  !

we’re a species of plagiarists  !

we’re a species of plagiarists !

cut and paste fills the time i guess !

cut and paste fills the time i guess

the problem with translations is you are never able to read the source document as though it is in one’s first language

a large part of its subtlety and beauty  (i am thinking of poems)  is lost forever except to readers of the same locality and time !

its also why you may take more from a good film or tv adaption like the bbc’s war and peace than reading any book !

i cannot believe how dumb you people are taking bad translations as gospel

ed.  r|zen

there’s just something wrong upstairs with you isn’t there ?

i was just thinking re celibacy  :  life is so much better without sex !

not the conventional viewpoint of course !

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i was just thinking re celibacy  :  life is so much better without sex !

not the conventional viewpoint of course !

 why religious people validate translations of text of unknown provenance i don’t know !

 why religious people validate translations of unknown provenance i don’t know !

why religious people validate translations of text of unknown provenance i don’t know

why religious people validate translations of unknown provenance i don’t know

i have been looking at some mary berry cooking videos, the english seem to use a lot of sugar in their dessert cooking !

doesn’t seem to have done her any harm, but for sure i could not tolerate that !

it took me a while to get this, its actually a lullaby, hypnotic and mystical, written by malvina reynolds and covered  here  by the seekers !

little  boxes

this is always the problem

“ people deliberately avoid information that threatens their happiness and wellbeing

while a simple failure to obtain information is the most clear-cut case of information avoidance, people have a wide range of other information-avoidance strategies at their disposal

they are also remarkably adept  at selectively directing  their attention to information that affirms what they believe or that reflects favourably upon them, and at forgetting information they wish were not true ”

buddha’s teachings are simple and elegant

 the road to hell is paved with intentions !

the buddha was obnoxious, ananda and the disciples were obnoxious, why anybody would want these people to be real i don’t know ! ?

buddha goes down in history as the world’s most tedious pontifical bore !

the buddha was obnoxious, ananda was obnoxious, why anybody would want these people to be real i don’t know ! ?

buddha goes down in history as the world’s most tedious pontifical bore !

infinity ,  number style  !

at some point you have to face the discrepancy between what people say and what they have done

at some point you have to face the discrepancy between what people say and what they do

jason  asks

why are people such retarded assholes ?

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i do think we spot it easier in others than ourselves !

like  the buddhists  on r|zen  gaumata  was a loser

  fascinating  !

thanks, darius, you are  great in my book !

this is an area wikipedia really shines, readily available high quality historical research !

behistun  video

any religious system is a fictitious value system which obviously doesn’t mesh with the real world  (even to their adherents)  so you have to create some sort of after death scenario where the books are balanced :  various afterlives or in the case of buddhism, rebirth based on merit  .  .

its interesting that scientology, being a very modern religious construct also has this book balancing with its very science fictiony reincarnation myth !

an afterlife is a central driver for state support of a religion, and persuading troops that to die for the objective of the support of their state and religion is rewarded by continuity after death is essential to counteract the natural human solipsism in looking after its own skin !

new zealanders in australia invariably get rather tasteless sheep jokes thrown at them and i was brought up on a sheep farm !

i had a revelation, the bodhisattva kannon appeared before me with flaming eyes and yellow teeth  (she had been on crack again)  and said

you have got r|zen wrong they are your enemies and not friends, let them moil in their turgid froth

when your enemies injure themselves you have only to leave them alone and smile  .  .  .

it was good advice so i gave her three blocks !

plus or minus, it doesn’t lead anywhere ?

+  or  -  it doesn’t lead anywhere

plus or minus, it doesn’t lead anywhere ?

+  or  -  it doesn’t lead anywhere

an  askreddit !

He wouldn’t take his career seriously and resented me for taking mine seriously.  Very smart guy but was 27 and still working in food  (like washing dishes, waiting tables, etc) ,  not because he had to but because he was too lazy to find something he could really apply himself to

Still lived with his parents .  That would be one thing if he were closer to my age at the time, but being 27 it was kind of offputting looking back.  It was also offputting that he was mad that I was going to college to major in information technology

this experience has taught me to be very offput by people who do not want to better themselves in any way

huang po like all zen masters was just pontificating illusions !

huang po like all zen masters was just pontificating illusions

life is like nothing so much as being the king and only black piece on a chess board full of white pieces

life is like nothing so much as being the king and only black piece on a chess board choked with agressive whites

sometimes i feel posting on r|zen is nothing but being a black king on a board full of white pieces

russian roulette does not look  random  !

snapping shut a revolver cylinder places quite a lot of unnecessary stress on the cylinder crane/yoke and will bend it out of shape, similarly, spinning the cylinder while closed causes excessive wear to the latches and flutes that are cut into the cylinder

if you keep doing this, the cylinder won’t lock properly and leave your cartridge out of battery

this 19 year old, also using a smith and wesson  shot himself  on the first fire !

Was Jesus a buddah ?

jesus was a judaic archangel who fought the devil and lost and was buried below the moon

buddha was a tree shrine god catapulted into prominence by the emperor ashoka

so

 no comparison really !

if you ask me what r|zen was, i would say a drug addled psychward !

if you ask me what r|zen was, i would say a drug addled psychward

african ivory  doomed  the norwegian settlers in greenland who depended on the very valuable walrus ivory for trade !

lucky for the walruses !

an available post history is one of the reasons reddit is so successful, it enforces some degree of personal consistency and also alerts people to the fact that whatever they write is in the public domain and may be recorded not just by reddit but spidered by google, other search engines and law enforcement and intelligence agencies

i strongly recommend searching the histories before making replies, the rank hypocrisy of most of the posters is absolutely flabbergasting !

also it enables you to make for targeted and in depth replies which utlimately suits the person being responded to more !

years ago some-one was making death threats to me, unfortunately for him i was able to track down on the web some of his personal history, his and father’s phone number and address, and the police station near where he lived in florida

he had a picture of himself with his girlfriend and waving a pistol around !

i didn’t take it any further, but it was reassuring to have that back-up !

dave/keysersozen, behaving like an arsehole but pretending the world is one dream of communal benefit  !

dave/keysersozen, behaving like an arsehole but pretending the world is one dream of communal benefit

zen patriarchs are always sorting out right from wrong !

patriarchs are always sorting out right from wrong !

zen patriarchs are always sorting out right from wrong

patriarchs are always sorting out right from wrong

if you want to understand women, they used to die in childbirth !

if you want to understand women, they used to die in childbirth

a quote by foyan from cleary’s translation of instant zen

one of my fellow students, one elder li, saw my late teacher for a year and a half; every time he went in for a personal interview, the teacher would just say to him, elder, have you distinguished black and white at all ?

my retranslation

elder, are you able to sort out right from wrong yet ?

elle king  sounds very like karen dalton !

we tend to treat translations as something someone said and its an illusion !

we tend to treat translations as something some-one said and its an illusion !

all women have a basic insane treachery

all women have a basic treachery

jason  writes

i’ve fucked up before

     and i’ll do it

            again

    and again

and     

     again

message boards, last refuge of the supremely untalented !

r|zen, last refuge of the supremely untalented !

message boards, last refuge of the supremely untalented

r|zen, last refuge of the supremely untalented

when thinking about exes, its tempting to wallow in self-righteousness

don’t do it !

when thinking about exes, its tempting to wallow in righteousness

don’t do it !

i travelled around australia in an old 4wd many years ago through the remote areas, its really quite a different world and now i think about it, changed me  .  .

yeah comfy suburban life !

Actually, we’re really struggling to make ends meet  (hence the utility of growing our own food)

If, as is possible in the near future, we end up moving further out into rural Victoria proper  (ed.  from the outskirts of Melbourne) ,  will that make me a more authentic person ?  A few kilometres to the west should do it, right ?

atherton tablelands, the kimberlies, ceduna, the nullabour, kalumburu, plenty highway

i travelled around australia in an old 4wd twenty-one years ago through the remote areas, its really quite a different world and now i think about it, changed me  .  .

you  (ed.  grass_skirt)  are assuming a continuity between being unenlightened and enlightened

that an unenlightened person might still have a reasonable idea of what enlightenment is

that however is not the case  which is why when dai kensho happens its so shocking

one’s views turn on their heads  .  .

zen has always said this, buddhism doesn’t, i think the belief in a continuity is a defining feature of the difference

since you are clearly buddhist, why are you posting here ?

whatever you do that discordance is always there and remains unexamined by you !

that’s what i mean by going in the opposite direction which is really taking the train of buddhism just further out into the endless waste of the desert !

of course there are other trains, buji, soto, rinzai, drugs

enlightenment knows buddha statues are the error just as its atheist opposite buji is error

it all stems from lack of acceptance of the discontinuity of enlightenment supposing it to be continuous !

i disbelieved in dia kenshos until they happened to me  .  .

buy a garden type buddha statue and take a sledge hammer to it

you’ll learn something

its just a statue !

 a jesus or virgin mary statue would do just as well !

as you overestimate yourself, it shouldn’t be surprising you overestimate me  !

as you overestimate yourself, it shouldn’t be surprising you overestimate me

i think the thing with celibacy is the reservoirs of attention and time it gives to pursue this matter of mystical understanding

i see its obverse a lot on r|zen

people may agree with you to a certain point and they might go with you further with endless attention and effort on my part, the reality is they want me to do the work for them and won’t lift a finger themselves

gets you a certain distance in life and no further i’d say !

you are my opponent but you keep bashing yourself  so i just sit back  !

you are my opponent but you keep bashing yourself  so i sit back !

you are my opponent but you keep bashing yourself so i sit back !

you are my  “ opponent ”  but you keep bashing yourself so i sit back !

zen was celibate up until the 1872 meiji edict

it’s not black and white, like for instance ikkyu was celibate up until about 30 as far as i can work out but later had a daughter with the blind singer mori

the history of zen is celibate, all the great masters were celibate

also catholicism’s most renowned celibates, john of the cross, teresa of avila and catherine of siena have written material on the subject

st. francis of assisi as well

its as simple as without spouse and children you have to make life meaningful in some other way

i think you have to have lived most of your life celibate as i have to understand what it is about

yeah, but you are pretending to an understanding you don’t have or even want actually !

you are pretending to an understanding you don’t have or even want actually !

these people on r|zen are so hubric they are not scared of anything, but for some reason only want to do the mental equivalent of wanking !

these people are so hubric they are not scared of anything, but for some reason only want to do the mental equivalent of wanking !

where zen fits in the scheme of things is half talented people taking a lifetime to sort out very rigorously what the real mechanisms of life are and being half talented, you need celibacy to make up the difference between that and full talent !

why r|buddhism is a mind fuck and r|zen is not is because r|buddhism, like all religions strongly censors anything that makes it look bad

religions cannot sustain themselves if open criticism is permitted

so a lot of the friction on r|zen is buddhists gagging on how toxic r|buddhism is, come to r|zen, but don’t understand that zen historically has permitted criticism of buddhism

what i found interested looking at videos of chinese hermits was the way they tailored what they said as daoist or buddhist depending on what they thought was most acceptable to the audience read cock sucking western buddhists doing the interviews

i suspect it has always been that way in china and actually those hermits were most comfortable with daoist terminiology

attempt to squelch ewk are just the censoring r|buddhism mindset

when you are truly enlightened which is what zen is about, verbal combat is like tai chi, you just go with the opponents flow and unseat them when they get off balance

too subtle for the censoring buddhists of course !

singlefinger  replies

read cock sucking western buddhists doing the interviews

i don’t care what you say about those dang buddhists but LEAVE THE COCKSUCKERS ALONE !

there ain’t a damn thing wrong with suckin’ a dick.

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zen has always been pretty homosexual like any monasticism, greek orthodox is of course notorious

what i mean is its just a  “ feel-good ”  paradigm

i’m not criticising homosexuality, many of histories greatest men have been homosexual, interesting how you never get it mentioned in the media how gay leonardo da vinci was  .  .

emily dickinson was definitely bisexual

gerard manley hopkins, a. e. houseman, w. h. auden and evelyn waugh were homosexual

but the problem with homosexuality in religion is the sexual segregation of monasticism can facilitate homosexuality ,  apparently the catholic church turned to being predominately homosexual about 1900, pope benedict was flagrant  “ queen ”  which was why he got the sack

my perspective is that of celibacy which is the only perspective zen makes sense from

i criticise both heterosexual and homosexual in religion as too distracting to permit any real perception  .  .

of course you can say celibacy is the ultimate promiscuity as it is all unconsumated  “ potential ”

go and get a gnome garden statue and a buddha garden statue and look at them and ask yourself what’s the difference ?

they are both kitschy garden plaster statues only you worship one !

i seem to have pricked grass_skirt’s thick hide for once and he replied

there better be a hidden layer to this comment

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how many layers to worshipping kitschy statues ?

how many layers to claiming to be teaching meditation when all you mean is worshipping the most complete mental junk ?

how many layers of failing to escape the childish ambit of, its my opinion, it must be right despite the cascades of evidence that it is just three thousand years of bullshit !

how many layers to posting on an uncensored reddit when to sustain the illusion of religious validity all history has shown you need to back up crap with real life force !

go and get a gnome garden statue and a buddha garden statue and look at them and ask yourself what’s the difference ?

they are both kitschy garden plaster statues only you worship one !

c r a z y no ?

good video  of a goose  swimming while its snowing, taken by jason

grass_skirt, next time you look up buddha’s arse see if you can find some brains !

next time you look up buddha’s arse see if you can find some brains !

your brain is a terminal shade of grey !

your brain is a terminal shade of grey

do you notice your borderline characteristic where your own opinion is sufficient and you never try to justify it ?

doesn’t matter which way you turn, you are always going to be heading out into the desert !

doesn’t matter which way you turn, you are always going to be heading out into the desert

elaborate on the tough and difficult road that you described

its always enough to travel on it !

elaborate on the tough and difficult road that you described

its always enough to travel it !

you must be enlightened, you are always backing wrong horses !

you must be enlightened, you are always backing wrong horses

two visions

fisherman and islamic stone carvings

do you do any meditation/contemplative work ?

its a prerequisite for understanding yourself !

do you do any meditation/contemplative work ?

do you do any meditation/contemplative work

life works very differently from movies !

life works very differently from movies

the true path of enlightenment is way too rough and difficult for most !

the true path of enlightenment is way too rough and difficult for most

I think fiction is awesome

well in terms of zen there’s  “ feelgood crap ”  and stuff which really cuts the ice

aladdin is feelgood crap, the  story  of the red mansions/story of the stone  is not !

its a very famous story in china and there are a few youtube  clips when you are the rejected block you know it !

films and cartoons are just scriptwriters and directors

films and cartoons are just scriptwriters

films are just scriptwriters

out with limits, infinitesimals make a comeback, dr. james grimes makes a good  explanation  !

“ Haha when I was in high school I memorized 400 digits of pi ”

well that’s an autistic savancy !

its one type of intelligence and not another ,  zen is about  “ the other ”

i know a guy on the net who speaks and writes about eight languages, that amount is also a savant skill, he, like you has trouble with more real world stuff !

you don’t have to be so aggressive and defensive, everybody has strengths and weaknesses, it just pays to be rational about them !

“ Nah man I just used the method of loci

Well I just don’t trust myself to make calls in daily life regarding other people.  At all.  So naturally I’m very poor at interpersonal communicating/idea sharing and intimate stuff in general.

But in my off time, when I’m not busy kicking Uruk ass in Shadow of Mordor,  I’m writing a program to increase the number of random digits I can memorize at a time.  The average is 5-9, and I tested myself and hit a solid 8.  But where I read about it, this number correlates well to the capacity for sequential processing in the brain, like the brain’s RAM.  People who tested at 13 digits, after training, performed exceptionally well in their areas of interest, due to the effect of sequential processing on brain function as a whole.  So if I get my own number to 13, I just hope it will let me process things better when it comes to other people so I can be less lonely.

I’m kicking ass at the program too man.  I’m like 70% of the way done ”

that’s interesting but is not the sort of work zen is about and frankly seems rather pointless to me !

ewk, one day you will look back and think

i wasted ten years on this shit

because that is what you are doing

the need for people to think shakespeare wrote shakespeare is boring mediocrities needing to think a boring mediocrity like themselves wrote works of genius  !

the need for people to think shakespeare wrote shakespeare is boring mediocrities needing to think a boring mediocrity like themselves wrote works of genius

basically all the translations of zen are buji or faux buddhism so what you read is massively distorted !

if you treat translations as anything else than something which may or may not bear some relation to what is said ,  you are a fool

we tend to treat translations as something some-one said and its an illusion !

you’re a wannabe philosophy academic without the right mix of brains and stupidity to get there

you come across as some obnoxious and stupid sort of thug

it won’t get you much in real life

and it won’t get you much here

you come across as some obnoxious and stupid sort of thug

it won’t get you much in real life

and it won’t get you much on r|zen

offended ?      outclassed?      wake up !

offended ?

outclassed?

wake up !

you clearly don’t understand what i wrote

you think you understand when you don’t understand

what can i say ?

you clearly don’t understand what i wrote

you think you understand when you don’t understand

religious people have no semiotic, just regurgitated junk !

buddhists have no semiotic, just regurgitated junk !

religious people have no semiotic, just regurgitated junk

buddhists have no semiotic, just regurgitated junk

I have a background in Chan  禪  that has taken many forms :  research, translation, meditation practice, meditation teaching, sangha involvement, blogging  .  .  . and of course participation in r|zen and r|buddhism

that has taken many forms

all of which take you in the wrong direction in terms of understanding what it is about

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all the stuff you think is valid is only valid by virtue of not being enlightened, what can i say ?

to understand the true dharma is why i am 7th patriarch

as nobody else seems to

to understand the true dharma is why i am 7th patriarch

as hardly anybody else seems to

you have a reading age problem

reading so called advanced books does not make you of necessity an advanced reader !

you have a reading age problem

reading so called advanced books does not make you an advanced reader !

a monk asked  :  what about it when the dust is wiped away and the buddha is seen ?

joshu relied  :  it is not that the dust has not been wiped away, but that the buddha is impossible to see

there is a buddha to see !

to understand it when you see it is wiping the dust away that is all !

Dust comes back in a different form as soon as you wipe it away.  Disagree

r u enlightened ?

its like infinitesimals versus limits, there’s a different perspective that works in the real world and is intuitive

a process of permanent increasing clarity provided your brain keeps up its health !

I don’t know what any of that means, but for myself i’d say that i’ve reached the end and now i have to go back, like in the mad max movie

Are you saying they should have kept going through the desert in the movie.  they didn’t see anything in that direction

yeah, the true path of enlightenment is way too rough and difficult for most !

doesn’t matter which way you turn, you are always going to be heading out into the desert !

very insightful comments by no-mans-land on drug and psychedelic use

Acid doesn’t show you anything real in the slightest.  I’ve done almost every psychedelic in the book once.  There’s nothing real about any of it and drug talk has zero place in this forum.

All imagination gone wild and contorting itself into wild and potentially plausible forms.  Its just your mind going nuts from the boost that the drug gives, the  “ could this all be real? ”  And the drug tells you a big hopeful  “ yes! ”  For a little while.  Its a mental tragedy played out in slow motion but somehow drug users want to write home about it.  It will just make you a better slave to your impulses

Psychedelics have been used throughout history as the  “ gate ”  to another world through cultural ritual, as part of the conceit by cultures that they can provide that gate to either god or the next world.

Two points  .  . using them in an environment of 0 context is a quick way to insanity or further confusion  (imo) ,  and a culture will never ever admit or even consider the idea that they might not be a gate to anything at all other than further extensions of themselves, an endless hall of mirrors type scenario

does posting on r|zen validate a lot of rather retarded drug users ?

yes

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 does !

yeah, i suppose being the seventh patriarch is a sort of reincarnation of the the zen patriarchs

that’s a valid sense of reincarnation and its literal !

 its easy not to be a part of a fiction, just don’t buy into it !

its easy not to be a part of a fiction, just don’t buy into it

Can Zen be Taught ?

its mostly that people won’t be taught !

a monk asked

for one who has gone beyond the world of desire, beyond the world of forms, and beyond the world of the formless   —   what is it like ?

joshu replied :  you cannot confine him

my  comment

joshu forks the monk, yes zen is not brute force but subtlety !

so the first branch of the fork is to take the questioners statement as true which joshu simply redescribes as  not confined

the second is to flip the questioners statement as untrue, that is its just the usual monk hypocrisy of  confining  while claiming to be unconfined

a suprisingly effective translation btw !

nobody owns r|zen because nobody owns the public semiotic, they can only contribute to it !

nobody owns r|zen because nobody owns the public semiotic, they can only contribute to it

by age 50 ,  half of the population has at least one thyroid nodule, and by age 90 ,  almost everyone does

the problem is most of the nodules will benign, but  medicine  can’t tell and the consequences of thyroid removal are disasterous !

what are the rules of zen ?

read  quality  outside zen, most of zen is garbled

get some solitary contemplative time

many people assume that of course, if there was a master of chan and zen, that their work was recorded

i think what is interesting about ch’an|zen is it is very developmental, you can be a great poet young, but to be a great zen master you have to live a long time, joshu is of course the best example of this !

so imo, its not so much a lack of recording but men and women dying young

zardoz ,  the final  scene

it had a big impact on me when i saw it so many years ago, looking at it now i can’t see why, maybe because it deals with a paradigm of eternal life versus decay ?

christians are crazy because they believe in an afterlife, buddhists are crazy because they believe in reincarnation and atheists are crazy because they believe they die !

christians are crazy because they believe in an afterlife, buddhists are crazy because they believe in reincarnation and atheists are crazy because they believe they die

the chinese are  a worry  !

even  more  of a worry  !

the occult hangs babies when it should be hanging the parents !

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occult as in  玄機 ?   (the arcane truth, nature’s mystery, something inexplicable)

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you know, midnight ceremonies with the egyptian book of the dead on the altar and a photo of aleister crowley on the wall alongside  “ a paedophiles guide to the universe ”

the occult hangs babies when it should be hanging the parents !

the occult hangs babies when it should be hanging the parents

ed.  there’s this  rather bizarre book  published in 1990

hanging refers to this  picture  and the lines  your parents have given you to us.  they know what is happening  which to be fair happens to children a lot in approved social contexts like schooling !

 reincarnation is just very boring people threatening the world with their continued existance !

reincarnation is just very boring people threatening the world with their continued existance

 taking lsd or mushrooms is not meditation, though god knows realms of idiots think it is !

taking lsd or mushrooms is not meditation, though god knows realms of idiots think it is

what i have got against rebirth, reincarnation and even eternal life is the people it recycles, or in the ghastly possibility of eternal life, keeps around for ever !

better for me not to be part of that, crap artists forever !

joko beck was schizophrenic, shunryu suzuki left a toxic legacy in the sfzc and philip kapleau made a lot of stuff up

in short zen is as crazy stupid as catholicsm !

of those toxic three, joko beck would be the most useful !

or you can plumb for sanity and actual enlightenment with  toni packer

i can imagine nothing more terrifying than to be stuck in the same universe as you continually recycle

i can imagine nothing more terrifying than to be stuck in the same universe as you forever recycle

rebirth is a sort of idiocy, only the mad would want perpetual recycling with these !

rebirth is a sort of idiocy, only the mad would want perpetual recycling with these

dull people in an insane universe

perpetual surcease

is all i want to gain permanent freedom from these

dull people in an insane universe

perpetual surcease

is all i want to gain freedom from these

dull people in an insane universe

perpetual surcease

is all i want from these

 where buddhism really falls apart is rebirth !

where buddhism really falls apart is rebirth

life is too hard if you have to work out everything for yourself

 yet that is what i have always had to do, perhaps because i am too different ?

anyway reading has helped a lot

life is too hard if you have to work out everything for yourself

ewk, why not let yourself go  .  .

let yourself go  .  .

let yourself go

i am synchronous with myself

the very acceptability of zen lies in its voynichated half truths

of course when we restate it as a full truth it causes upset !

the very acceptability of zen lies in its voynichated half truths

what is so tantalising about sappho is we only see a tiny fraction of her output, not to say the music lost  .  .

  this 5th and 6th century BCE superstar  .  .

look impartially at how a thing is rather than being blinded by self partiality and preference !

look impartially at how a thing is rather than being blinded by self partiality and preference

idiots make themselves and are not born that way

neither the deaths of  jane austen  or vincent van gogh were inevitable !

when you can’t reason with people, they’re insane !

when you can’t reason with people, they’re insane

grass_skirt, you have an unerring eye for boring tripe !

ed.  he admitted he was boring

my advice was for him not to run the file across the edge !

you have an unerring eye for boring tripe !

grass_skirt, you have an unerring eye for boring tripe

you have an unerring eye for boring tripe

when you read a poem by sappho she comes alive again !

when you read a poem by sappho she comes alive again

to read a poem by sappho is for sappho to be brought alive again !

to read a poem by sappho is for sappho to be brought alive again

What is voynich ! ?

nonsense designed to look like it makes sense

its well worth the time to research the very interesting voynich manuscript !

the same document with two different translators may be voynich with one and a thing of coherent beauty with another

people seem to have difficulty understanding the degree of independence a translation has from its source !

it must be so since the translator and original author are very different peole with different mindsets and often their cultures would appear alien and strange to each other

why diabetics get so many amputations is the high blood sugars damage the walls of the capillaries that nourish the nerves, especially in the legs

symptoms are nerve pain, numbness, a tingling or burning sensation that usually begins at the tips of the extremities  —  the toes or fingers  —  and gradually spreads upwards !

given the brain is a nerve mass no wonder alzheimers is called type 3 diabetes !

what i took from baizhang’s  (the original text is lost)  monastic regulations

1.  the incredible problems with skills shortages and poor attitudes to working ,  old monks well past retirement age were forced to continue supervising and working because of this

2.  anything not bolted down got stolen

3.  large monasteries were unstable and depleted surrounding areas of resources which was why they didn’t last

there is love in the wind by the singing rock

down the river by the ancient tree

love in kangaroo goanna and emu

love when spirits speak no human voice

at the sacred sites eyes unblemished

watch wedge tail eagle soar over hidden water

find the love

  from  ali cobby eckermann’s  yankunytjatjara love poems

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ewk writes  :  There is no building in Zen.

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yeah well that’s the  “ buji ”  viewpoint !

the real zen is actually reconstruction on top of deconstruction !

zen patriarchs teach that !

What makes a Zen Master a Zen Master ?

the ability to waste your life in poverty telling the dumb more dumb things !

Good, i never want to bring hate to a human’s heart because of a thought

you don’t think you are being a bit melodramatic ?

look at a  syrian war video , its conflict on a different scale !

“ if you want the truth to stand clear before you, never be for or against ”

this is from zen’s  most seminal text  which starts

the perfect way is only difficult for those who pick and choose

do not like, do not dislike; all will then be clear

make a hairbreadth difference, and heaven and earth are set apart

if you want the truth to stand clear before you, never be for or against

the struggle between for and against is the mind’s worst disease

while the deep meaning is misunderstood, it is useless to meditate on rest

why not think about it ?

does it say somewhere there that zen is  “ call of duty ”  ?

“ Be well ”

my being well is more to do with intelligent supplementation, i can’t believe what magnesium taurate has done for my  migraine !

the dalai lama is a very wealthy man because people will pay to be told rubbish !

the dalai lama is a very wealthy man because people will pay to be told rubbish

low reading age means  “ Unable to comprehend ”  what is written !

even in  “ game worlds ”  let alone the real world, it matters !

you are not to be able to read what i write, what can i say ?

you seem not to be able to read what i write, what can i say ?

the clothing and jewellery a woman wears says so much about her !

the clothing and jewellery a woman wears says so much about her

chintokkong’s translation of number 181 of the record of joshu

a monk asked  :  what does a person who understands matters perfectly do ?

joshu replied  :  proper great practice

the monk asked  :  it’s not clear if you still practice or not ?

joshu replied  :  wearing clothes, eating rice

the monk replied  :  wearing clothes and eating food are ordinary affairs.  its not clear if its practice or not ?

joshu replied  :  what do you think I’m doing every day ?

my  rework

the monk asks

what sort of work is involved in understanding ultimate reality ?

joshu  replies

teasing out thought and observation into ultra coherence !

do you do that? the monk queried

maybe replied joshu, i can’t really say !

what kills a translation is fitting it to an interpretative paradigm rather than trying to follow the author or internal semantic !

what kills a translation is fitting it to an interpretative paradigm rather than trying to follow the author or internal semantic

quality translation sings out, you know what that is ?

quality translation sings out, you know what that is

you can see what makes an inferior translator, after the intial freshness of translating new material they start to write their own thoughts over everything !

you can see what makes an inferior translator, after the intial freshness of translating new material they start to write their own thoughts over everything

ah, caught twice !

the catfish breaks the gourd

it has always been this way !

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i think caught twice refers to the priests having to write poems on the picture because the shogun told them to when they didn’t understand either the shogun’s quote or the picture in the first place !

i have never understood why people are so keen on fyodor dostoyevsky, maybe something is lost in the translation ?

but you can see the power of his writing in this bbc  adaption  of the  “ dream  of a ridiculous man ”

dostoyevsky is diseased by a voynich notion of god

to go back to neuroscience is crazy imo !

ed.  applying to do a Phd program

you don’t have the right cognitive style for academic work, just find something you can earn a reasonable living at !

you don’t have the right cognitive style for academic work, just find something you can earn a reasonable living at !

the publishing industry has collapsed if you haven’t noticed !

you are living in a world of ten years ago, its all changed  !

the publishing industry has collapsed if you haven’t noticed !

the publishing industry has collapsed if you haven’t noticed

in the context of zen ,  ‘ practice ’  is something you can leave and arrive at, which is obviously nonsensical

in the context of zen, practice is something you can leave and arrive at, which is obviously nonsensical

winning

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losing

and

losing

is

winning

winning

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losing

and

losing

is

winning

winning

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losing

and

losing

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winning

i never realised the reason  the seekers  stopped so suddenly after a shortish career was because  judith durham  went solo !

she walked away from so many million dollars but she sounds a very difficult person and quite autistic with various issues !

a world  of our own

a monk asked joshu  :  the ancient mirror is not polished, does it still reflect/illuminate or not ?

my  reply

how can it be polished ?

the increases in cancer risk for being  overweight  or adipose are surprisingly high !

The increase in the risk of developing cancer for every 5 kg/m2 increase in body mass index ranged from 9% for rectal cancer among men to 56% for biliary tract system cancer

The risk of postmenopausal breast cancer among women who have never used HRT increased by 11% for each 5 kg of weight gain in adulthood, and the risk of endometrial cancer increased by 21% for each 0.1 increase in waist to hip ratio

Five additional associations were supported by strong evidence when categorical measures of adiposity were included: weight gain with colorectal cancer; body mass index with gallbladder, gastric cardia, and ovarian cancer; and multiple myeloma mortality

who owns r|zen ?

the broad public semiotic of zen, alan watts, faux buddhists and druggies hanging wallpaper !

an unbeatable combination !

i read an interesting account by a survivor of jonestown, a woman, maybe his secretary or otherwise high up on the staff, she had a vision of little armed men on her body hacking away at her, when she complained they said,   “ you don’t understand the rules of war ”

she took that to mean just get out and don’t worry about anybody else !

so that’s what she did !

i don’t write on r|zen to help anybody or  “ missionize ”

i write to straighten out my own thoughts, improve my style and provide writing material for my blog/web pages !

amanda hocking  is making a reasonable living writing

niche audience and she writes well

well for that sort of rubbish !

the way technology works is when a better medium comes along, the old one collapses financially !

books on a paper are dead !

ewk is clearly insane in his denialism on the subject of dogen because dogen overturns ewk’s christian scripturalizing of the tang and song records !

since the background of 90% of those on r|zen is christian  (at a minimum at least in the cultural sense)  and that sort of scriptural approach, they don’t understand that zen is non scriptural and contemplation/meditation is an important part of that !

so they think copy and pasting of material that conforms to some imagined idea of a doctrine is zen, since that is the cultural model of religion they have been brought up with !

“ buji ”  is a doctrine btw !

if zen has a doctrine its about the process of contemplation !

you haven’t even looked at what you wrote !

basically you said that a bad and confused life does not invalidate what they say

“ jim jones had a lot of good stuff to say too

but it’s a moral imperative for me to point out his character as it goes directly to people’s ability to drink the kool aid or not ”

in my view you can’t pare a life away from its works like that

that card carrying nazi, heidegger is a good example !

mostly what he writes is rubbish and he knew it !

jacques derrida came to the conclusion you can’t separate the life from the works after getting burnt from being a fan of heidegger and jacques being jewish !

if you can’t trust somebody to be sure they are telling you the truth,  then you can be sure they are not telling the truth

if you can’t trust somebody to be sure they are telling you the truth ,  then you can be sure they are not telling the truth

if you can’t trust somebody  to tell you the truth ,  then you can be sure that they are not telling you the truth

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i’m  (ed.  female/transgender?)  extremely disciplined with my fitness, nutrition and sleep but find myself binge eating a few times of week things i exclude because i literally can’t find peace some days

that doesn’t add up and discipline is only part of the story, you will have a lot of what you think is right, wrong !

congrats on giving up drinking btw !

enlightenment is

you have to be very bruised by life

and see it !

enlightenment is

you have to be very bruised by life

and see it

i find it interesting that janna coleman blossomed as an actress in dr. who and victoria ,  she had been around as an actress quite a while before, but something happened with peter capaldi, she learnt something or filled out a gap in her skills and understanding. i don’t know what it was  .  .

maybe steven moffat was a benefical influence as well

 peter capaldi, jenna coleman, steven moffat

land of the platypus, devil, spotted quoll, tiger snake, wallaby, brush and ring tailed possum, tasmanian wedge-tailed eagle   .  .  .

its easy to see what an  outstanding actress  judi dench is, her real life husband  (michael williams)  as count orsino struggles  .  .

the director is john barton

fast forward  thirty four years

i am all the daughters of my fathers house, and all the brothers too, yet i know not  .  .

disney’s new  beauty and the beast

superb technically, live action, photoreal, but real princess valley !

the music is not quite up to it either !

sheer  hypnotism ,  what is the point of that shit ?

buddhism in china is just one big tourist industry and you will notice the youtube hermits there speak in terms of daoism rather than ch’an !

why is it so difficult to sit in seated meditation ?

you don’t actually have to sit in zazen, you can walk around, slouch in a chair, sit out on the woodpile or on a rounded rock in the paddock under the stars !

what is important is to not read or do anything !

at my age i would be scared to sit zazen because of the thrombosis risk and lack of circulation especially as i spend most of my day at a computer !

not to mention what zazen does to the joints !

i accidently ran over a tasmanian devil once, a big male in beautiful condition, unfortunately their instinct is to run into the lights !

reddit zen seems to go through a new missionizing  “ fad ”  every couple of days

it ought to be on the side bar

reddit zen ,  home of the world’s least successful and lowest paid missionizers !

life is full of ironies, you are happy to lose weight, i am happy to put it on !

well i’m about right now, i wasn’t eating enough before

all the research is showing huge health and metabolic problems with being overweight so it should be the focus if you are very overweight !

you can speed up the metabolism with   topical iodine

vitamin D also has an impact

there’s quite a bit you can do, but it takes a lot of work and finesse to be effective

chromium  is a great fat  “ burner ”

i can eat about 1/2 a liter of double cream a day.  might shock you that !

sugar is one of the big things to avoid !

i was thinking on my trip around australia 20 years ago i went right into the dream time  .  .

the dream time is not just aborginal, it is accessible to those it invites into it !

i was thinking on my trip around australia 20 years ago i went right into the dream time  .  .

now would be a good time to go to the flinders !

reddit zen only exists because a large portion of its posters are on drugs !

buddhism is a drug as well !

the flinders ranges is my drug, you take your choice  .  .

competence never lasts, it only goes to make a house that is ruined in the next generation or the generation after  !


competence never lasts, it only goes to make a house that is ruined in the next generation  !

competence never lasts, it only goes to make a house that is ruined in the next generation or the generation after

competence never lasts, it only goes to make a house that is ruined in the next generation

ah you are pyschedelic refuse !

Look man, I’ve also taken a good deal of psychedelics

alan watts has to be the primary formative influence on net zen !

his talks are basically junk, but as things go not too toxic, just missing the point of what zen is really about

he really suits the drug wallpaper the the net zen is so thick with which figures, him being an alcoholic and womaniser  .  .

there’s an inner semiotic core that is nothing to do with the history of zen or its formalites etc

once you know that inner core you can fit everything to it

lacking that core you are caught in the conflation between legend and reality  .  .

ed.  a reply to grass_skirt about his maladroit responses in  a dialogue  about puhua

i was stung yesterday on the middle finger by a bumble bee when putting out the washing, they seem attracted to the damp washing, maybe a combination of the colour and the scent from the canesten ?

anyway i knew it was an ancient remedy for something so i wonder what it was and it turns out to be   rheumatoid arthritis  !

well i now have a swollen finger and it seems to have a slight numbing effect on the whole arm, but i don’t have rheumatoid arthritis so i’d rather not have been stung !

name a zen master that wasn’t paid well

sex and adulation is the currency !

name a zen master that wasn’t paid well

sex and adulation is the usual currency !

zen is just the dumb following an illusion, there’s no shortage of the illusion, but occasionally you will also see the glorification of the dumb !

zen is just the dumb following some illusion, there’s no shortage of the illusion, but occasionally you will also see  the glorification  of the dumb !

is the attraction of gaming for autistics/hikikomori a world with unchanging rules ?

they can’t get hurt ?

is the attraction of gaming for autistics/hikikomori a world with unchanging rules

travelling gives you a new perspective !

travelling gives you a new perspective

go overseas, it will give you a new perspective !

go overseas, it will give you a new perspective


really zen is dead, endless fake kenshos, just full of bullshit

independent teachers have taken over enabled by web publishing, but really just more endless fields of fake

nicola amadora seems a bit different  her dai kensho  i can relate a bit though not entirely

its such a distinct thing, you know when it happened and its huge  .  .

guided meditation is pure nonsense  !

guided meditation is pure nonsense

so, please, help give my career a much needed boost

unsuccessful people gravitate to zen like water to a drainhole !

it always amazed me no-one ever assassinated ug krishnamurti, i wonder if there were any attempts ?

he was very hard on the hindus !

paradoxically i think he was regarded as a sort of quasi saint by them, maybe that’s what saved him?

it always amazed me no-one ever assassinated ug krishnamurti, i wonder if there were any attempts ?

it always amazed me no-one ever assassinated ug krishnamurti, i wonder if there were any attempts

its just r|zen all over ,  missionizing has been bullshit for free !

its just r|zen all over ,  missionizing has been bullshit for free

they, eh?  you must have some very reliable inside information on they

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  you want the goods on da free john ! :o)

the women he gave herpes too ?

yasutani being asked to leave japan because his extreme nationalist views were too embarassing to soto during the american occupation ?

maezumi screwing joko beck’s daughter ?

joshu sasaki and eido shimano are of course publicly disgraced sex maniacs

kodo sawaki working for either the japanese military or secret police during the war tasked with   “ converting ”  concientious objectors

its endless  .  .

a lot of it is there on the web, maybe you have rheumatoid arthritis in the fingers ?

so what’s your connection with some of these people ?

you were a kitchen slave on some ashram or other for a decade ?

all this stuff is gone with the wind, dated bullshit, why are you involved ?

words can lie, a life doesn’t lie !

words can lie, a life doesn’t lie

maybe you don’t know much about  “ rolls royce ”  osho ?

an easy search to make btw !

don’t you feel a sucker for promoting this pimp and fraud ?

at least he got money and sex out of it, what do you get out of it ?

words can lie, a life doesn’t lie

zen master rama was basically a prosperity cultist, zen of course is a poverty/personal disaster cult !

zen master rama was basically a prosperity cultist, zen of course is a poverty/personal disaster cult

osho/rajneesh was basically a well paid sex club manager  !

no-one disputes that osho was a brothel keeper, ug krishnmurti even called him that publically !

an r|zenner mentioned he knew a good looking woman who had sex several times with him, he was senstive about being bald !

this women also had sex with tibetan teachers and monks as some sort of payment !

this is why the pot stirs and the bullshit is  “ laid around ”  its all a cover !

osho/rajneesh was basically a well paid sex club manager  !

osho/rajneesh was basically a well paid sex club manager

understanding life is only solipsism, nothing more, nothing less  !

understanding life is only solipsism, nothing more, nothing less

zen is only solipsism, nothing more, nothing less  !

zen is only solipsism, nothing more, nothing less

help your ex to learn more about yourself, but keep an emotional distance !

help your ex to learn more about yourself, but keep an emotional distance

my  reworking  upset  xwolfhunter  who  wrote

you’re fucking bad at writing poetry.  nbd, most people are.  why should you cling to it ?  you’re shit.  stop posting them

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lots of people like my poetry, i’ve been writing for years and have an audience !

your problem is your reading age isn’t up to understanding what my poems say !

both those poems, the one by muuija and my reworking have to be read together, they are not really separate !

extend yourself and try to make sense of what is being said !

being deliberately uncultured and dumb like you are doesn’t get you very far in life !

reading and writing poetry is very zen  .  .  i would encourage everyone to manage what they can !

a collection  of some i wrote that i particularly like

poetry is the only mode what zen is about can be expressed in, prose just tangles enforcing wrong conclusions !

poetry also obviates philosophy !

xwolfhunter  replies

  haha who is your audience ?

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you for one, you don’t understand why you snagged on what i wrote !

but i have web writings ,  a  blog  and  health writings  !

i spend time on r|zen because it generates material !

if you really think there something wrong with that poem i quoted and its  “ reworking ”  then reply in a poem that captures what you think is the error

or like a football supporter who has never played, will you just slink away when invited onto the field ?

there’s a ball in play and a field and all you have to do is step up !

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you haven’t understood what i was doing which is why i said you have reading age problems

the original quoted poem is a sort of half right half wrong and heavily imbued with translator cloud

my reworking is designed to be read with the quoted poem and it rectifies it, however the reworking is not entirely critical of the original poem

so you get a new poem which is a combination of both

you have to read carefully the original poem and other poems by muuija, then read my rework and take it line by line and relate it !

this rework is very effective since it stressed someone as wrong minded as yourself  .  .

to start

you picked up it showed you up and you reacted  .  .

of course you are totally unable to reply in the same way yourself

you are so borderline expecting everyone to run around after your opinions and correct everything for you  .  .

you can’t understand it without abandoning some of your wrong ideas and gaining a perception of yourself being very mistaken  .  .

so you do what any thug does, you attack it !

you are very christian scriptural, what you think zen is, is a received body of work that you sit back and admire and defend but the true zen is to create these works yourself !

take the first line

framed by the lightless hall

what does that mean ?

how does it fit ?

its distressing to realise how short the period van gogh actually painted and drew over, about ten years amounting to half a painting or drawing a day, hugely intense and prolific and a sacrifice for what, the dealers after him who cashed in so well ?

i think actually the artwork was the tapping into an intensified and surreal world that kept him alive !

our   discovery  supports the idea that life emerged from hot, seafloor vents shortly after planet earth formed

is the reading age of  my poem  too high for you ?

you are shocked there is more than bullshit to  zen attainment  ?

like understanding something and being proficient in an art or writing ?

copy and pasting voynich and regurgitating clichés doesn’t cut the ice ?

is the reading age of my poem too high for you

jason  writes   (1/3/17)

i just got out of surgery like three hours ago, i’m feeling sore now but i’m home the surgery itself took 13 minutes, half an hour for the anesthesia to kick in but there weren’t any beds open for after the surgery so they just decided to put more drugs in me so i’d stay asleep for another hour, what the hell ?

they gave me percocets, i sort of want to try them but i don’t know if i should, they also gave ibuprofen  .  .  i’m not in so much pain but it’s getting worse

my  comment

that’s really bad they kept you under unnecesssarily !

general anesthesia is always damaging to the brain so be very careful of concussion and not over exerting for the next couple of weeks and take it really easy over the next couple of days !

bastards

i would avoid pain medication especially as you have had an extended anesthesia !

another problem with pain medications is since the injury no longer hurts, you may stress it unkowingly !

jason  replies

yeah they said they kept me under for  “ safety ” ,  it’s really  ‘ what the fuck ’

it was supposed to be light sedation or something but they said it was  “ heavy sedation ” ,  i don’t think it was general anesthesia ?

idk they put it in within 2 minutes and i didn’t remember anything for the next hour and a half

well i do remember talking about reading and writing and the farm, but i guess that was somewhere in that  “ dream ”  drug they gave me as they were waiting for a room

a redditor responded to this  video  (nsfw)

I once drove through the Rockies while dry powdery snow was falling

Two lanes in each direction, everyone was in the far right lane, doing about 25mph  (on Interstate 80,  except for six or seven semi tractor-trailers that zoomed past us at 60 or faster.

I thought ,  “ Wow, those guys must really know what they’re doing ! ”

Until, about five miles further, all six or seven were jackknifed on the side of the road.  I thought ,  “ Wow, those guys really didn’t know what they were doing ! ”

ewk, why do you not see through your  fight club  mentality ?

ewk, why not see through your  fight club  mentality ?

why do you not see through your  fight club  mentality ?

why not see through your  fight club  mentality ?

why not see through your  fight club  mentality

ewk, its not an endless fight except you make it so !

its not an endless fight except you make it so !

its not an endless fight except you make it so


this is a poem  [page 68]  by the korean monk muuija  (1178-1234)  posted in an OP titled a monk contemplating emptiness

staying at ilam

at the window of the darkened hall, there hangs the lonesome moon

as happy as when sleep is done, meeting a familiar friend

save for the early cockerel proclaiming the sound of dawn

i might have been a butterfly dreaming the balmy spring

sir bamboo and ample moon in chill encounter

elder pine and humming wind in simple friendship

such an experience is truly unworldly,

and shivers of joy run right through me

my reworking

framed by the lightless hall

the moon

through the window

as meeting a friend

the crowing rooster is dissonant

in this

winter

 i was a butterfly dreaming a balmier clime !

relationship is a machine designed to raise children !

without that context, things will always be falling apart

some couples are deliberately childless though and its an increasing social trend !

I held on to her  (ed.  his three month ex)  so tight and treated her the best I could, always going the extra mile

The girl I’m seeing, it’s totally different.  It's so much more easier.

She always meets me halfway

you won  the lottery ,  you just have to count the money !

there could have been an element of self injury in your relationship with your ex, worth thinking about !

joshu’s  personal function  is just giving advice, big deal !

only one in a thousand listens !

only one in a thousand listens !

only one in a thousand listens

religion is just living in a myth  !

religion is just living in a myth !

religion is just living in a myth

typical brad, selling a man giving life advice who drowned trying to save his daughter  (she drowned as well)  and avoided learning to swim all his life !

ed.  brad warner posting about kobun chino of steve jobs fame, another person he fucked up ?

not a single mention of it

like maezumi roshi’s drowning drunk in the bath and yasutani roshi being a rabid nationalist

seung sahn becoming diabetic from eating nothing except white rice and eggs

quiet flows the don apparently !

connie naka captures  rural japan  better than anybody else i know of !

a lot of the japanese zen is set in rural areas, i get much more of sense of what that was like from connie’s blog than any zen description actually !

growing crops and foraging was obviously a central activity, whether a hermit, monastic or householder

if you have the right thing to say it’s the only one you need

what is the right thing ?

jason  writes

take a seat on the long bench

have a think about your wife, girlfriend, children

your job

what you’ll do tomorrow

jason  writes

when i started to write a year or so ago i hoped that i wouldn’t end up going somewhere cuz it might make some good writing

nothing memorable comes out of going out and doing something, it usually just happens and i am the observer

if you read my OP’s and comments carefully over the last day or so you would see the way i am using the term  (ed.  insanity)  and how it relates to ewk is carefully thought out and really the result of two years interaction with him !

what i am doing is integrating the conventional /normative notion of insanity as some sort of mental illness with the  “ zen ”  notion of the world as insane or mentally ill !

that is you need a definition that covers both since both seem to be the case  .  .

ewk has volunteered himself as a case study, why shouldn’t i take advantage of it ?

target fixation can  be fatal  for sure !

milo yiannopoulos has a brain, not all countries disrespect intelligence like the USA !

milo yiannopoulos, sometimes i wonder if the jews have  better brains  ?

he is suave and intelligent !

the trouble with r|zen is the forum is  “ reverse censored ”

usually when i write a really good comment or make a good OP its 50/50 it gets deleted, you just can’t get past that sort of distortion, which actually is a deliberate dumbing down by the mods, that’s why ewk thrives, there’s not much context to make him look dumb !

thesolarian  asks

have you ever considered just not making threads about ewk, not posting in his threads, and not commenting on his comments ?

i mean, just a theory there

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all i can say practically i have never found that approach to work on any message board with anybody !

its too discontinuous in the terms of other people reading what you have blocked and removes you from the flow of the board !

i do mostly avoid him, but even if i do that he gets bored and pops up in a reply to me somewhere

mostly he has been an education in what insanity is, because he is clearly quite insane

he keeps hitting all these semiotic walls all the time and just goes around them like they weren’t there !

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ah well, insanity at its core isn’t shakeable

if you regard histories religious martyrs as insane and i would, painful death does not change them !

ewk, you are insane because  (i have seen you do this so many times)  when you strike something you don’t understand, you just glide over it pretending it doesn’t exist

you are insane because  (i have seen you do this so many times)  when you strike something you don’t understand, you just glide over it pretending it doesn’t exist

mental illness, vincent  van gogh ,  janet frame, virginia woolf, the construction of alternate worlds

mental illness, vincent van gogh, janet frame, virginia woolf, the construction of alternate worlds

mental illness, vincent van gogh, janet frame, virginia woolf, the construction of alternate worlds

btw its not at all certain vincent committed suicide, rather he was  accidently shot  in some alcohol clouded horseplay with several young parisian louts, one of whom in an interview in the last year of his life hinted as to the real state of affairs  .  .

whereas virgina woolf, an excellent swimmer had to weigh herself down with heavy stones in her coat pockets  .  .

i think she was a bit of a workaholic and would have been better to pay more attention to health and diet rather than the rely on the savage and ignorant treatment of the mental health profession of the time !

elbowpunch writes he totally failed his 30 day meditation challenge

I have no excuse and won’t post again until I complete the actual 30 day challenge.  I started out strong and petered out.  Ultimately, it has been one of the best months of understanding myself and has given me clarity.  Enough clarity to say I am totally full of shit.  Thanks for all the fish.

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you want to identify areas of authenticity in yourself or the process is too destructive !

to a large extent you are pushing the nonsense of others whereas your own workings out are much more adequate !

ewk claims to not be insane and a reasonable person and regards reasonableness as a contraindicator of insanity

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its not reasonable to be so invested in something you have no real life experience of !

you have bought into  “ translators cloud ”  zen which is some common attitudes, subculture even, attending the work of translating you find in the zen records; a varying blend of academia, buddhist, buji and oversimplification and mystifying of voynich  .  .

and the  “ rock of dogen ”  you continually crash upon, he’s not that translatable and biographically quite a bit is known about him so  “ translators cloud ”  sorta comes apart or precipitates so to speak  !  .  .

a  “ reasonable person ”  would be able to address what i say, but you won’t and therefore you are insane, the energy you put into it for no life functional purpose makes r|zen a psych ward for you !

ewk  replied

 I don’t know what you are talking about

Dogen was the L. Ron Hubbard of Japan.  There isn’t anything else going on with him

the film   ‘ loving vincent ’ 

trailer     behind the scenes

seon master daewon’s second song of enlightenment

the sun in the west and the moon in the east, lightly hang over the mountains

and the fields of gimje are filled with the autumn hue

even though the whole universe cannot be

people come and go on the road with the setting sun

my song of enlightenment

i have been enlightened before

the view is just the same

 god or dogen what’s the difference ?

 error accretes !

jason  wonders

saul bellow, sylvia plath, david foster wallace stayed  here

maybe i can go  here  one day

maybe they prefer shitty art

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who knows, they might be friendly and not up themselves !

jason  replies

i was looking through their group photos and it doesn’t seem like they take many young people

i don’t think i’ve written too much to show either

would be a good experience

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things won’t have changed since charles bukowski, places like that will be run by cliquey mediocrities who will throw their hands up aghast at anything  o r i g i n a l

and then crush down hard to promote bullshit !

publishing has also changed, the web is where its at, but these people will be self validating in university publishing !


cognitive style failures giving rise to persistent errors    that is insanity

cognitive style problems giving rise to persistent errors    that is insanity

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cognitive style failures giving rise to persistent errors, that is insanity

cognitive style problems giving rise to persistent errors, that is insanity

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there were strong negatives in their enforced incarceration for  virginia  woolf  and  janet  frame, particularly the electroshock /electroconvulsive treatment for janet

but all the same i wonder if the enforced  ‘ retreat ’  gave them a more contemplative cast as writers

the medication these days of course just freeze and discard any genius caught within the sytem  .  .

virginia woolf writes in the waves

but beauty must be broken daily to remain beautiful

my restating

but we must be broken daily to perceive the beautiful

making consistent cognitive mistakes that fly in the face of reality

that is insanity

making consistent cognitive mistakes that fly in the face of reality ,  that is insanity

making consistent cognitive mistakes that fly in the face of reality, that is insanity

an interesting comment by kurt schöffer on his experience of  employing people  on autistic spectrum !

i couldn’t believe such an intelligent perspective !

anna fedova  playing  in rachmaninoff’s piano concerto no.2 op.18

quite passable really !

i have gone back to taking  magnesium taurate  after dropping it for six months, i was getting very migrainey without it, its a life saver, i think !

also i am getting old enough to want the circulation benefits it gives !

i’m just getting back into janet frame a bit

she was obviously very influenced by the waves

“That is my face ” ,  said Rhoda ,  “ in the looking-glass behind Susan's shoulder  —  that is my face

But I will duck behind her to hide it, for I am not here

I have no face

Other people have faces; Susan and Jinny have faces; they are here

Their world is the real world.  The things they lift are heavy.  They say Yes, they say No; whereas I shift and change and am seen through in a second

If they meet a housemaid she looks at them without laughing

But she laughs at me

They know what to say if spoken to

They laugh really; they get angry really; while I have to look first and do what other people do when they have done it

this  is a bit painful to watch, i know much better now what is going on !

that was also the new zealand of my childhood  .  .

a good  quote

I have got to learn that I am alone for ever  .  .  .

I will never have anybody close to me

The rest of the world is miles away over desert and snowfield and sea.  Nobody knows how far away I am from everything

Looking at living, for me, is like looking mentally through the wrong end of opera glasses

there is a weird connection between virginia woolf, katherine mansfield and janet frame

virginia had met and was jealous of katherine mansfield’s ability as a writer and janet frame’s mother had worked as a housemaid for katherine mansfield’s family !

a 2nd rate intellect being 3rd rate

a second rate intellect being 3rd rate

a 2nd rate intellect being third rate

a second rate intellect being third rate

multivitamins are very poorly formulated and cause more problems than they solve !

i lost a stainless screw down the sink, thought it was lost forever or at least a lot of work opening the drain plug, but i had a magnetic pick up tool and it seemed to work

researching  to discover why, the cold forming process of making the thread imparts enough residual magnetism to the stainless steel to enable the screw to be pulled out by the probe !

a lot of people get meditation  very wrong  and go backwards

can’t say you seem to be going forwards  .  .

just read your reply, you can’t handle contradiction or any sort of  “ open looking ”

meditation is just wrapping you up tighter into an objectionable ball !

why ?

one of the primary effects of useful reading and meditation/contemplation is you will understand others much better from understanding yourself !

most people read and give credence to junk, all they can do is spin their brain default circuits in the town tip, the inevitable results are not surprising !

somethings you read about are almost so strange as to be unbearable

fritz haber’s  wife clara immerwahr shot herself through the heart the day before fritz left to oversee the first use of gas against the russians

an attractive intelligent woman  and pacifist  she complained about fritz’s occupation during the war as well as his overbearing dominance in the marriage  !

case 65 of the record of the 7th zen patriarch

the 7th patriarch made a suggestion to ewk

“ why not meditate and see yourself a bit better, you might stop raving ! ”

ewk told the 7th patriarch  “ i’m willing to make you choke on that suggestion ! ”

the patriarch pointed out he wasn’t choking

ewk  c h o k e d  but sadly it wasn’t fatal !

i told my son his takedown was terrible at wrestling practice in a  “ live ”  practice after he just lost.  made him cry.  still feel like shit

look for the positive and praise that, then you can go a bit further into what could be improved !

i would think twice about wrestling, too many contagious skin diseases around now

concussive sports like football are also out, the research is weighing so heavily against head trauma !

the  “ heart sutra ”  is such rubbish, i think it was a major factor in me leaving zen, apart from the arseholes in it !

the  “ heart sutra ”  is such rubbish, i think it was a major factor in me leaving zen, apart from the arseholes in it

do you notice how abrasive and aggressive you are, simply because you have been contradicted ?

do you notice how abrasive and aggressive you are, simply because you have been contradicted

the people i know with real tibetan buddhist experience have been to india and nepal for OBVIOUS reasons, not tibet !

the people i knew in zen with a very strong practical tibetan buddhist back ground never ever made the claim they were the same, tibetan buddhism is much more like catholicism, its a religion for the masses, basically entertainment  .  .

plus being a bit dumb because of the touch of the lack of iodine on the tibetan plateau

in japan zen is basically an undertaker’s school, you need to spend at least a year or so in some western korean or japanese lineage to get some understanding of what it is about

only a r|zen fantasist would claim tibetan buddhism and zen are the same

zen in china is a tourist industry

ewk, why not meditate and see yourself a bit better, you might stop raving !

why not meditate and see yourself a bit better, you might stop raving !

even the half lotus meditation position damages the hip and knees !

just sit in a chair or walk around or do seiza or kneeling on a vertical zafu, there’s nothing special about the position, korean zen doesn’t emphasize sitting the way the japanese fascists do, walking and standing is fine with them

the important thing is not to do any practice etc, it just makes for lunacy

really it is without any instruction, but if instruction is wanted, just observe the way your brain default circuit engraves and loops !

in terms of breathing its important to understand the difference between expansion of the belly versus the chest for drawing air into the lungs, for the purpose of meditation there is less chest movement and more belly expansion perhaps ?

there’s a buddhist end-time prophecy  written   (ed. chapter one)  not later than the 2nd century CE which runs like this

the greeks, sakas and parthains overrun northwest india destroying all things buddhist, but are eventually defeated by a buddhist king who then makes the catastrophic mistake of inviting all the world’s buddhist monks to a stupendous feast!

of course the only logical outcome of this is for all the monks in turn to kill each other !

this is the end of buddhism on earth !

somewhat less optimistic than the christian end time  “ legends ”  i think !

emmanuel levinas  is  interesting 

the world’s a crazy cesspot ,  sanity doesn’t go a long way   ̱   ̱  !

the world’s a crazy mess ,  sanity doesn’t go a long way   ̱   ̱  !

the world’s a crazy cesspot ,  sanity doesn’t go a long way   ̱   ̱ 

the world’s a crazy mess ,  sanity doesn’t go a long way   ̱   ̱ 

the adept moves at the shadow of the whip ,  for the whip to strike and him not feel it, he’s not  an adept !

the adept moves at the shadow of a whip ,  for a whip to strike and him not feel it, he’s not  an adept !

digestive problems ,  you spend your life learning how to eat  !

digestive problems ,  you spend your life learning how to eat

digestive problems, you spend your life learning how to eat

johm muir’s   clockwork desk

sister corita kent had a harsh satiric eye !

she certainly would have known about martin luther king’s womanising and orgies and  this artwork  can be read on several different levels

a very moving end to donna williams’ cousin and friend sandi’s  eulogy  of her !

I’m not going to say goodbye

I’ll wait for the waves from the ocean to cover my feet or watch the birds flutter up till they fly high in the sky

That’s when, my dear, I will say goodbye xxx

the manduca moth  imbibes  the human equivalent of 80 soda cans worth of sugar in a single meal and makes its own antioxidant to offset the free radical damage since nectar has no antioxidants !

when humans eat fruit they also get the antioxidants in fruit to offset the free radical damage !

you can see how the modern dietary high sugar without antioxidants inducts diabetes !

coffee is a major source of antioxidants though !

anna komnene wrote an excellent  history  of byzantium during the reign of her father and was certainly a remarkable woman  !

having quite a bit of tibetan buddhist experience i can say it

1.  is sexually deviant, the monastic environment was heavily paedophilic

2.  its plain retarded which i attribute to low iodine on the tibetan plateau

3.  its autistically colourful read kitschy

4.  the dali lama is a very wealthy man, estimated to be worth twenty million dollars ?

i really liked my time at the two tibetan centers i stayed at, liberal so to speak since there were no teachers there at the time thank god and anything is better than the fascism of mt. tremper zen

zen for all its faults at its best is a bit more intelligent than other forms of buddhism which are usually breeder factories in effect !

sometimes i wonder/think my time is spent simply trying to work out the way and forms in which the world occurs ?

sometimes i wonder/think my time is spent simply trying to work out the way and forms in which the world occurs

sometimes i wonder/think my time is spent simply trying to work out the way and forms the world occurs ?

sometimes i wonder/think my time is spent simply trying to work out the way and forms the world occurs


william blake  lambasting  mediocrity,   the island  of the moon !

jessica  is back  with her/his really brilliant sense of rhythm !

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rave for sure !

how odd, r|zen plumbs the depths from dementia to her genius !

however those lyrics are disturbingly crazy . .

what’s the point of arguing with schizophrenic’s ?

they are trapped in some internal labyrinth !

what’s the point of arguing with schizophrenia ?

they are trapped in some internal labyrinth !

what’s the point of arguing with schizophrenia ?

they are trapped in some internal labyrinth

do you read something, or does a template read it looking for fit !

you didn’t read it, some stupid template read it trying to get things to fit, and when they don’t, rejecting what is read  !

why deflect, why not look at the fact you don’t understand what this is about, yet you are impelled to make some idiot  “ know-all ”  comment !

you’re a pompous ass on reddit and you will be a pompous ass in life !

you’re a pompous ass on reddit and you will be a pompous ass in life

ed.  of an tibetan monk from india giving a lecture series of prolix voynich talks, then after the final lecture talking about his fun day spent on a whale watching cruise with  a listener  who had attended several of the series and asked him  “ how his day had been ”

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if he was enlightened he would have talked about the whales in his lecture and not tathagatagarbha rubbish !

enlightenment is not spilling psychosis !

there’s a million trillion miles of  “ spirituality ”  bullshit

you  (ed.  the listener)  and he are welcome to tread them down, you won’t pass ten, he and you knew whale watching was better value or did you since the talk was so toxic ?

its not that there is no self, but we are spinning,   threading loops  and we need to see what these loops are !

“ Every single  (meditation)  sitting was full of obsessive thoughts about what I should have done before, what I should do next, what I wish I’d said, what I wish I hadn’t said, and on and on and on.

ed.  on the period of brad warner’s divorce and death of his mother

I also got into weird ideas about developing super psychic powers like those yogis you read about in trashy paperbacks, then going out to Dallas, laying hands upon my mother, and magically healing her Huntington’s Disease

This stuff played over and over like a broken record.  It developed into a kind of looping pattern where the ideas would come in a sequence that would move through certain well-established stages before going back to the beginning and repeating

Any attempt I made to fight my own unwanted thoughts with logic or with positive thinking only seemed to make the initial thoughts even stronger ”

enlightenment is not spilling psychosis !

enlightenment is not spilling psychosis

carrie fisher is the nearest thing america has had to a real philosopher for a hundred years and she’s not half bad !

carrie fisher is the nearest thing america has had to a real philosopher for at least fifty years and she’s not half bad !

jason  writes

i went to go do a pre surgery check up today and i’m starting to think i’m too honest

they ask me what i do for a living, lol i tell them i’m a farmer because i think it’s actually a serious question

i get into the alpacas and how i’m gonna go shearing them and they’re either holding back their laughter or they’re actually interested

i think it’s a serious question at the time, the airforce recruiter also asked me about work and i told him about the alpacas, he said it was the best thing he heard all week and he was telling his family about it

well they ask me what i do for a living so i tell them, maybe i should tell them i’m a writer ? not that i make a living from that

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they’re probably interested

i never tell people i write, it crimps your freedom if people you know locally look at your webwritings

jason added  :  she asked what the future held for me, i told her i wish i could know

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that’s a fair answer, it seems to me you are handling it well !

you are better at this than me !

jason asks and states

handling what well ?

i was sweating out of the pits like crazy

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that means you are giving it the sort of attention it needs, an unfortunate fact of life for the autistic !

all religion is psychosis !

the  teotihuacan’ s  were just as crazy, there’s no escape !

all religion is psychosis !

all religion is psychosis

all the zen teachers  (or buddhist)  i met were severely schizophrenic and believe me, i have met a few   .  .

its not surprising considering the psychosis they spouted

the only one who wasn’t said she wasn’t a teacher  .  .

ed.  toni packer

an amusing   scene  from  ‘ kiss kiss bang bang ’

“ 8%, who taught you maths ”

most people to change an opinion, they are concrete walls and you are given a tennis ball to try and knock it down !

dealing with r|zen is like throwing a tennis ball against a concrete wall !

i think as a species, we are over-habituated to bullshit !

i think as a species, we are over habituated to bullshit !


i think as a species, we are over-habituated to bullshit

i think as a species, we are over habituated to bullshit

jon  writes

well I have seemed to picked up the habit of smoking marijuana cannabis again

therefore goodbye

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you might be self medicating with it to reduce systemic inflammation !

do you take vitamin D ?

if so, how much and how old is it ?

it is a strong anti-inflammatory, but it has a short self life without a preservative in !

there is something greater than human love, what is it ?

there is something greater than human love, what is it

may morris, sometime  lover  of george bernard shaw, daughter of jane morris née burden, that  startling  pre raphelite figure !

jane was of course, the model for eliza doolittle !

its a bit freaky to switch back between the  movie  character and  the real life jane ,  she was however a very intelligent woman noted for her beauty !

jason  writes

i’ve been seeing lately how people on r|zen are time wasters  !

jason  writes

i’ve been seeing lately how people on r|zen are time wasters  !

jason  writes

i’ve been seeing lately how people on r|zen are time wasters  !

jason  writes

i’ve been seeing lately how people on r|zen are time wasters

i have a strong sense of deja vu about your reply, whether you have written something the same  (or similar)  to me before or whether its some abstract generality that has occurred again to me, i don’t know !

i have a strong sense of deja vu about your reply, whether you have written something the same to me before or whether its some abstract generality that has occurred again to me, i don’t know !

deja vu is interesting , whether such an event or happening has occurred before or whether its some abstract generality that has occurred again !

deja vu is interesting , whether such an event or happening has occurred before or whether its some abstract generality that has occurred again

the old testament   was created  in part out of babylonian legend and records by judean scribes during the captivity !

the  ark tablet  !

genesis manages to give an impression of time immemorial but in fact its just a few thousand years if that of babylonian and assyrian history !

the korean zen master man gong was  a hikikomori  !

sasaki  “ roshi ”  ran what was effectively a sex club at mt. baldy, they had STD problems there of which he was a major contributor !

leonard cohen had a better understanding than him and the way he got gulled in is just amazing !

korean zen has a long history of paedophilia due to its involvement in raising orphans, they may well have died otherwise, these problems are not so black and white, family men have very little concern for other people’s children !

“ The babies less likely to initiate joint attention  (ed.  more autistic)  had strong connections between their brain’s visual and dorsal attention networks.  The dorsal attention network helps keep attention focused on something while still allowing the brain to respond to other potentially important sensory information.

The researchers also identified stronger functional connectivity between the visual and the default mode networks in babies who were more likely to initiate joint attention.  The default mode network is most active during quiet rest or daydreaming but generally shuts down while one is focused on a challenging task.

When an infant is engaged in initiating joint attention, the visual and default mode regions tend to work together while the visual and attention regions tend to decouple,   so in these scans  we’re seeing something like a fingerprint of how brain networks coordinate activity ”

one of the things i hate about the web is dealing with dissonant or objectionable comments, sort of what wells from a really thuggish, stupid and overly hubric space, you can’t make them go away short of leaving yourself and you have to deal with them !

sister corita kent’s  rules of work  !

its funny, but i just can’t relate to them at all !

now i’ve looked at her art, its extremely satiric, i would take those rules and perspective with a pinch of salt !

you know intelligent perception is nothing to do with race or background,   imbolo mbue  comes from cameroon, but she’s really all there in terms of the west !

after reading the history of yet another distasteful and unpleasant  “ not right in the head ”  on r|zen, i thought i don’t really want to be part of this and i asked myself, what should i do ?

the answer came quick and distinct  “ don’t reply ”  !

where am i  where am i going  what am i doing here ?

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most people push bullshit for a reason, on r|zen they push bullshit for no reason !

i’m still trying to figure it out !

: o (

when you are enlightened you might be able to play a winning card !

when you are enlightened you might be able to play a winning card

how useful is it to missionize something that you have no place in or can ever extract benefit from ?

how useful is it to missionize something that you have no place in or can ever extract benefit from 

 hotei the padeophile

‘ hotei the padeophile ’  statue at  the sudeksa temple , replete with paedophile symbolism the perverts !

shot a couple of wallabies two nights ago .  .  touches the hunter in me . .  : o)

the cats have just clean picked the carcasses and are slightly grateful, for the moment !

look fakes are fakes you  (ed.  dave)  have to get to first base, you are yet another casualty of r|zen, gone from the edge of being deranged to actually deranged !

in alaska, land of the autistic, does good buddhist practice mean   “ don’t think about shooting my neighbours too much ? ”

“ try not to kill so many bears ? ”

please reply !

yeah  its a pearl  that, she knew she gave the game away and deleted her nick, but i got it forever ! : o)

jason  replies

it actually didn’t come to my mind, i read that out loud to my friend rebecca once on our drive up to the monastery at mt. tremper, that was like two years ago i think

she told me once she’d adopt 10 orphans or some number even higher, she’s a good friend actually !

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yeah she’s a dreamer !

jason  replies

lol yeah that night we were walking around this town where the houses are half underground and there’s this big wall around the whole place with a large gate, it's called midgetville because people think only small people can live in the houses

she was saying she would be a doctor and adopt 10 kids and have some husband with a big house, it was a night for dreaming

does the movie  “ fight club ”  relate to zen at all ?

i don’t know much about zen, but from what i’ve read, i can see a lot of comparison, i’m totally open to any responses

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there’s something inherently violent in religion, the story i love best was a pitched battle between two different monasteries in early christian ireland over one side having sneaked out a copy of a hymn of the other side !

there were deaths in the battle and as a penance one of the monks responsible for the fracas  (i think he made the copy!)  had to go on missionary work to scotland, which was very heathen and life threatening at the time !

i think this monk later became a saint for his conversion work there !

so i think between suppression of dissent and conversion/missionizing there is an intrinsic underlying violence to religion and in fact the cognitive dissonance between so many varieties of crap on reddit zen imply an ongoing fight club !

sense and the ability to intelligently dialogue are lost skills there also, i think gaming has adversely affected this in today’s young men, really you can look at r|zen as some point scoring game, endless mindless testosterone !

ewk is running some literal gaming salon there !

where am i   what am i doing   where am i going ?

where am i  what am i doing  where am i going ?

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jason  writes

the views at tassajara are nice too

once i was walking a trail through the mountains and i ended up in this area where there weren’t trees immediately around, just a yellow grass that was flowing with the wind

i think at the moment i prefer mountains to the ocean, the ocean i grew up around on long island was not pretty !

the beaches i would go to were man made, overcrowded, and ugly

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green gulch is very different, a quite attractive ocean area and views

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the work at tassajara was the hardest i ever worked

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i think the sfzc is pretty slick at extracting the maximum labour from its residents !

until their joints break down anyway (green gulch) !

the problem is if you meditate without having a background of quality reading, you will deconstruct without rebuilding right and instead of a real life phoenix you just get some decayed monster which is the usual effect

you can’t tell them though, it always pays to remember how much they reject of what one says like dave for instance !

jesus a tiny amount of meditation is unhinging him, he might be better to stay away !

be careful of him, he’s a walking disaster !

ed.  elbowpunch

my brother and sister in law are having their first child in september !

a girl !

lol, they know the sex through ultrasound now !

they should minimise the ultrasounds, just what’s necessary to determine there are no deformities/abnormalites which is actually why they do it and is quite an advance, but the ultrasound itself is a stress on the fetus !

i was surprised with them knowing the sex, even though i think that ability has been around for a while

i think one of my high school teacher’s had an ultrasound and knew she was having a child with down syndrome

i think most people find shikantaza unbearable which explains a lot !

all the large flaky semantic structures become unstable with a little bit of self reflection !

i think most people find shikantaza unbearable which explains a lot !

all the flaky large semantic structures become unstable with a little bit of self reflection !

ewk, if some sort of  jibber jabber  is posted so what ?

 can you beat reddit zen, some new  “ nutbunker ”  in your words turns up every week !

you are sisyphus reincarnated into the modern world ?

why am i telling you this

   i am sisyphus reincarnated  .  .

  recursive  .  .

i think by schizophrenia i mean undue persistence with something that is quite wrong and a bit of work would uncover as wrong, ie something we all deal with in life on a daily basis !

if the world’s insane ,  why should my life be any less insane ?

if the world’s insane ,  why should my life be any less insane

if the world’s insane, why should my life be any less insane ?

if the world’s insane, why should my life be any less insane


jason writes of a cooking adventure

it was about 2pm and i had an hour until i was going to go do chores with the goats and alpacas, so i decided i could get the slow cooker going for dinner later on

first i put in this fat and gelatin from the goat i made several days, then a small tomato and some sunflower seed oil

half a long hot pepper, half a lemon’s juice and then a quarter of the squeezed rind  (taking it out later)

i grabbed green beans, rutabaga, radish and its greens out of the fridge along with about half a carton of beef broth

salt, pepper, there was probably a tiny amount of curry powder from the fat and gelatin

i let that slow cook for four and a half hours while i was working, then i got home and let it reduce for about forty minutes

the sauce was delicious and of course when cooked for that long it just infuses with the vegetables

restaurants just don’t step on that level

update :  my stomach is acting up, i think it’s partly due to the fact that i ate later than usual, ate too much, and i did top with a very decent helping of sour cream

i forgot to take a zyme prime digestive enzyme too !

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the stomach acting up is very significant and i will give you my thoughts as to why !

1.  its difficult to get some vegetables cooked the necessary amount when they are all bundled togeher, for instance i only ever find rutabaga is adequately cooked if done for a considerable while in a pressure cooker

so imo you want to at least precook the rutabuga so that it cooks to become quite soft in the slow cooking phase !

2.  gelatine/broth is always a bit tricky because it is a biofilm feeder, my latest theory is just to drink some away from meals !

3.  sour cream has a live bacterial culture in, so not knowing what that culture is and how free of ecoli and other  “ not wanteds ” it is, you really have to try different brands to see what is the least problematic, OR you can simply mix in the cream to the food in the slow cooker just before serving so that it reaches a parturization temperaure of about  68°C/155°F

4.  eating too late is a problem, particularly heavy food like a dinner and also taking vitamin D too late reduces immune response in the stomach overnight which is not what you want to happen !

5.  i cook and eat a lot of onion now and use chili peppers as my main spice !!

6.  for a meal like that i would have used the houston enzymes :  no fenol, zyme prime and the AFP-peptizyde

7.  in australia there is a very strong tendency for restaurants to undercook vegetables as somehow being healthier !


8.  i don’t know about adding oil either, i usually add some double cream, i may fry onions in olive oil, but i have poor bile flow and cope with fats and oils worse than most, double cream is a more easily digestible fat !

chromium  supplementation is very important with a high fat diet to reduce  the inducted  insulin resistance!

mumon’s verse to case twenty-two

question isn’t as intimate as answer

how many have grown veins in their eye over this

elder brother calls, younger brother answers, family secret is betrayed

not one of yin-yang thus it’s spring

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question opens the door to answer

stunned we lie dead in summer

walking through mountains and verdant pastures

 what family secret ?

you don’t take what i say seriously, not much point in arguing is there ?

you don’t take what i say seriously, not much point in arguing is there

shikantaza always seemed so natural to me, its a bit of an eye opener that most people cannot handle it and will follow any number of  “ meditation practices ”  and koans etc to avoid it !

so imo its not a given you can do shikantaza and may need some prep work like reading worthwhile poetry to get the mindset !

celibacy is not a secondary factor in the historical, non-meiji zen as is generally supposed !

celibacy is not a secondary factor in the historical, non-meiji zen as is generally supposed

ewk opines about eihei dogen  (he claims to be writing a book on the subject)

in his church he can be all the genius he wants, just like l. ron hubbard

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you saying something doesn’t make it so does it ?

or does it ?

you need a ewk_church not r|zen ! : o )

there is a general consensus that dogen was a philosopher and writer of genius !

you just can’t beat that, try with all your manic schizophrenic might you just can’t beat it

ron wrote crap that is the general consensus about ron hubbard, including ron hubbard who was surprised his stuff ever  “ took ”  !

why a family man like yourself with so many competing demands on his time could ever think he could presume to judge a dedicated celibate like dogen i don’t know !

you want to have your cake and eat it !

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ewk, can’t you see how every time you reply to me you get pwn’d ?

how lame what you write and do is ?

as your children get older, they become more  people you can relate to  and they will take you out of this toxic universe !

your saying something doesn’t make it so does it ?

or does it ?

you saying something doesn’t make it so does it ?

or does it ?

ewk, in ten years you will still be pounding on the rock of eihei dogen

he just doesn’t fit in your toxically crimped view of the universe !

for anyone with a real understanding he does !

ewk quotes from number 389 of the recorded sayings of zen master joshu

a monk asked :  what is your family custom ?

the master said :  having nothing inside, seeking for nothing outside

my  re-translation

a monk asked

what is zen about

joshu replies

there’s nobody to refer to !

ewk replies to me

spacing  (ed. my retranslation was well spaced)  is what people do who don’t have anything to say

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‘ the master said :  having nothing inside, seeking for nothing outside ’

lol you got pwn’d  !

be a good sport and admit it !

true meditation would be to break down schizophrenia, not reinforce it !

true meditation would be to break down schizophrenia, not reinforce it

you deal with the world endlessly without resolution, the only way it makes sense is   that  its insane

what is insanity ?

you need to see the detail of the cognitive insufficiency

you can deal with the world endlessly without resolution, the only way it makes sense is   that  its insane

what is insanity ?

you need to see the detail of the cognitive insufficiency

japanese electrolytic capacitors are basic to PSU quality, they will say if they use them !

i think a high colour temperature in the ambient light  (whiter)  makes for a more sharply defined circadian rhythm, conversely a lower colour temperature  (more yellowly)  makes for a less highly defined daily rhythm !

ed.  of reddit zenners

lol, uncommissioned salesmen of junk ?

since it costs why not make what we do of quality and authenticity, not bleary slaves of the human bullshit of millennia !

you’re an unpaid missionary for what ?

your own tragedy ?

you’re an unpaid missionary for what ?

your own disaster area ?

how many living zen masters are there ? anyone know ?

be a hundred and fifty at least, you have the various schools and their demonic progeny

sad ,  failed grey people   usually   always

pathetic frauds caught in the meiji paradox of trying to be something they are not !

fame opens some useful doors to you and other doors you wish had never been opened !

fame opens some useful doors to you and other doors you wish had never been opened

what i say on reading is read quality and not pap/junk

and in addition i can only repeat johann goethe’s famous advice

one look into a book and two into life !

that seems a bit hyperlexic, maybe ten into life and yourself would be better !

: o)

enlightenment is simply thinking things for your self and sorting things out for yourself

when you start to do that and you have started, you will be amazed to see no-one else does this and you are treated like a pariah

i feel that the more i become aware of myself, the more space there is for others.  who would treat you like a pariah ? 

just give me some credit for having done this for a lifetime much longer than yours !

you are trying fill a lack of experience with reasoning and a not very acute observation of life

“ only don’t know ”  was a slogan zen master seung sahn used to bandy about, but there is something to it !

its always a lifetime’s work whether you know it or not !

i wasn’t aware credit was due

my question was sincere and my described experience is of the current, where did i try to fill any lack ?

ok that’s an interesting first line !

if someone has a lot of real life experience in an area i listen even if i can’t understand or see the reason for what they do !

there’s always something underneath i am not privy with !

of course it took me quite a while to learn that !

until you can see and act on that you are self-hobbled !

what i have noticed with people like you over the years, you are not self-starting enough and the spring just clamps back like you never had any involvement at all !

you want everything explained to you and every little or large difference coated over with sugar to make it palatable to you, well the world is not going to do that !

it takes time and getting hurt to  “ wake us up ”

enlightenment is simply thinking things for your self and sorting things out for yourself

when you start to do that and you have started, you will be amazed to see no-one else does this and you are treated like a pariah

jason asks

in what ways was your girlfriend unfaithful ?

how did you two first meet ?

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lol, at a meeting for parents with children on autistic spectrum !

if only i had known enough to read the writing all over the walls of that meeting room then !

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she has a high sex drive and i was not giving her an adequate sex life

but the thing i have really learnt is about there being too much autism under one one roof so to speak, even though we lived apart !

women need a large amount of sex simply from hormones and a health view i think  .  .  .

ewk quotes dogen followed by his usual rant  (ed.  the rant is not shown here)

if you remain for a long period forgetful of objects, you will naturally become unified

this is the essential art of zazen  [prayer-meditation]

zazen  [prayer-meditation] is the dharma gate of great ease and joy

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more haranguing in hyde park ?

what he means is get  “ some critical introspection ”  into your life !

why not look at your insane  soapboxism  ewk ?

talk to a family member or ask some-one’s advice you value  (?)  about what you are doing !

it is a fundamental error to take zen from reading only which seems to be the zen net norm !

you could read norm zen books and not norm zen books!

its absolutely basic that intelligent reading while helpful doesn’t cut the ice, you need real life

isn’t zen about infinity ?

doesn’t infinity cover way more than reading ?

it is a fundamental error to take zen from reading only which seems to be the zen net norm !

it is a fundamental error to take zen from reading only which seems to be the zen net norm !

it is a fundamental error to take zen from reading only which seems to be the zen net norm

do you notice your aggressive response to what was a reasonable comment ?

your OP is just dripping hubris, can’t you see that ! ?

what meditation should start to show you is your cognitive style problems, really you having nothing in place to help you work out things !

what meditation should start to show you is your cognitive style problems, really you having nothing in place to help you work out things !

henry brocken  is walter de la mare’s best book, but the events and imagery in it are built around other well known literature, so you need to research as you read !

sepehr  writes

also, when i was younger, i experienced the world much like inga moore’s illustrations

the way she uses cross-hatching in the luminescent backgrounds really adds to the atmosphere, creating a kind of boundlessness

she does a very good job with depicting diffusing and light in the skyscape permeating the scenery with a kind of mysterious awe.

she uses light as a way to subtly hint at limitless possibilities, and it thereby comes to penetrate the entire scenery

in a way, her artwork reminds me of a quote of yours   ‘ a mysterious irradiance that permeates everything ’  ,  i experienced life like this as a child, and i feel inga moore conveys this perfectly

the fact you were able to notice this really is starting to make me more sure about you being the  7thzenpatriarch

i have searched a lot for children’s artwork that could capture the way i experienced the world as a child, conveying the sense of boundless i felt when looking at light in the forests i explored or the way it came into my room’s window

after so much of searching, i found it with inga moore.  i think she’s my favorite illustrator now

i like maxfield parrish and kay nielson also, but i think inga moore is my personal favorite

her artwork helped me understand my own childhood experience and your quote on a deeper level

 inga moore painting for 'the secret garden'

more art

only fakes think there are reclining buddhas, just the usual  “ put one over voynich ” 

i really find  the wall  very meaningful, you can’t cross it to get to other people, its always there, they are not you and can be very anti-you in fact !

i watched it not sure how long back, a year or two and didn’t want to watch the end where she shoots the man who kills her calf and dog, but i really get it now, i really do !

marien  haushofer   nowhere ending sky

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the narcissism of people

walter de la mare has a strongly visual style, the stories are combination of hyperreal and fantasy with a sense of horror !

when they built a temple like this, they must have thought they were doing something, not making a monument to  waste of time voynich !

article

i wonder if personality disorder is something not quite extreme enough to be called insane, but in fact is insane ?

i wonder if personality disorder is something not quite extreme enough to be called insane, but in fact is insane

a fascinatingly  competent  nero !

it just shows you how biased and distorted historical information can get !

i have had a needed insight regarding zen, r|zen and my posting there, its that at the cost of a lot of effort and trauma, you can make meaningful continual criticism that sort of  “ rights ”  things  . .

but in the end it is too wearing and exhausting and what you do is in fact just added to the armoury of the bastards !

let them damage, kill and fight each other, one needs to separate from them for one’s own safety and that is what i think the 6th to 7th patriarch transmission is about, a start afresh without the burden of trying to correct endless idiocy !

its really hard to  ‘ get the why ’  of the intense energy put into defending/missionizing nonsense that maybe twenty or thirty hours of contemplative work would show to be completely dull and turgid fantasy that is better in a psych ward !

years ago i worked for a company whose managing director’s wife had sponsored a group of cambodian refugees to live in new zealand, a brother and sister worked at the company, he had been a police chief and was a really nice guy, there was also a young man, he had come out with the sister and had been made to walk ahead through the mine fields as a condition of being brought out

madeleine thien gives an interesting  perspective  as to why the khmer rouge were able to do what they did


jason  writes

i started to get these strand like black/dark floaters in my vision

from what i’ve heard it has to do with high iron

a remedy for high iron is to donate blood, went 3 or 4 times and the dark floaters disappeared

when i went for my first blood donation my iron was very high so it sort of proves the theory right

my friend had dark floaters, he donated blood as well and the floaters went away

i have really learnt that if you read writing you need to look at the life of the writer

looking at a  video  of virgina woolf recently just opened up her book  the waves  to me, one of the protagonists is in fact partly modelled on a son of vita sackville-west

jacques derrida said the same thing, no doubt the extent of the nazi sympathies of heidegger must have been painful to him, a jew !

lol, i just had a phone call from  “ zurich switzerland ”  lol indeed, he had a strong accent so i asked if he was german, well that proved wrong, he had a spanish father and bulgarian mother, we had a civil discussion on central europe and where bulgaria was and when he tried to push further i told him he was wasting his time and i knew what the game was and wished him good luck with australia and catching his prey as these sort of scams catch victims all the time !

i have learnt to take these things more calmly, there is a better space to handle them and i think i am there, he’s just earning a living  .  .

cool  stunt , but what a  disaster area

when you wife dies, i suppose life  just goes on


i am distressed

there is no-one to comfort me

that’s celibacy

there is no comfort in the first place

i am distressed

there is no-one to comfort me

that’s celibacy

there was no comfort in the first place

d. t. suzuki really has some responsibility for the enablement of japanese war criminality in WW2  !

read brian victoria’s  essays  !

i have read some of suzuki’s writings, he’s just the usual populist crap artist with a nasty bent for having others kill others in the name of military glory

zen’s reputation in recent years has been badly hurt by the constant sex scandals and brian victoria’s revelations

you have a lot of opinions for one not past first base !

you have a lot of opinions for one not past first base

zen is about nothing except the reflective or contemplative mode !

the self has to be unpinned and discovered, this cannot be done by trying to conform the world to an ideology on reddit !

everything you do is proxy proxy, all what others say !

everything you do is proxy proxy, all what others say

brad warner is being hounded on his own facebook page

because his nephew is a  tabloid  pro trump journalist  !

brad’s readership is overwhelmingly buddhist democrat and his neutral stance on politics is costing him !

i must admit the sums ben goldman is making are staggering and the approach he has to take to get the reader interest is  eye opening  !

you can’t beat a man who, when his king is knocked over and all his pieces are in the gutter, thinks he has won !

you can’t beat a man who when his king is knocked over and all his pieces are in the gutter thinks he has won !

you can’t beat a man who when his king is knocked over and all his pieces are in the gutter thinks he has won

what’s interesting about chinese ch’an now is they still have to conform to a communist ideological benefit of  “ social utility ” 

they are not out of the umbrella of state control !

the more mystical solipsist side might well be deemed subversive, i notice in videos of temple monks that they are at pains to avoid that side !

it pays to remember that china has a very vigorous secret police  !

he should trade in his voice for something not so repulsive !

pure snail slime !

he should trade in his voice for something not so repulsive !

he should trade in his voice for something not so repulsive

without zazen, buddhism is a total lie

with zazen buddhism is a total lie !

without zazen, buddhism is a total lie

with zazen buddhism is a total lie

isaac newton’s  religious writings  are that of an eccentric and slightly wrong minded parson on steriods !

i think his basic problem is taking so much from the bible as fact and not the corrupted voynichy document it is, any destination he arrived at stemming from such a crazy source, was also crazy !

what worked for his science, ie taking the world as fact that coherent simpler explanations could be derived for, certainly did not work with such man made collegial documents as the bible and religious tracts !

he was obviously hyperlexic !

the sheer uneveness of isaac newton’s intellectual life is breathtaking !

people are not endlessly persistent with what doesn’t work, except the utterly insane

those who persist of course are utterly insane !

people are not endlessly persistent with what doesn’t work, except the utterly insane

i am simplicity and complexity streaked through each other

you can’t see one without the other !

i am simplicity and complexity streaked through each other

where am i going with this ?

where is there to go ?

zen teachers are wannabe patriarchs, they’ll never get there !

zen teachers are wannabe patriarchs, they’ll never get there

the problem with training is success implies breaking or riding the edge between context and non context,

training is rule ridden, so never breaks context !

only failures train !

only failures train

i think the modern understanding of the book of revelations is it has a quite literal symbolic content readily apparent to the readers of the time it was written !

its hard to understand how sir isaac newton fell into such a trap of projection but he did !

shiqi xinyue  sermonized

before the border gate lifts, fluid layers and interleaving movement obscure

after the myriad doors are opened, piercing and penetrating in all dimensions

but how is it before the myriad doors open ?

after a long silence, he said

i knew the mountains and rivers were all obstructing you

your comings and goings take place inside an atom of dust

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but how is it before the myriad doors open ?

its not that you don’t enter and exit but you need to carry back what is inside with you when you return !

the point of a religion is the belief in their way of doing things and the wrongness of anything else !

the point of a religion is the belief in their way of doing things and the wrongness of anything else

sepehr  asks

which artists would you say are the most visionary  out of these ?

my  reply

  kay nielsen ,  hanns binder, roberto innocenti, inga moore

a real zen patriarch tells you how it is and even a zen master might be able to say why

ewk just throws fuseless grenades !

honestly, on balance i don’t think seung sahn was enlightened, he’s just spilling buddhist tropes !

the semiotic of zen

which is basically its use in the english language has come to mean cool, serene with an underlying profundity

so its lost its roots as a description of a religion or path of mystical endeavour and now is a rather blank and slightly senile semiotic canvas of approval !

you can’t beat language use, whatever interpretation you try to impose on that small collection of phonemes, the crushing weight of contemporary use will always sink it !

you must be the longest living case of rabies on record !

its all the foam bubbles spilling from your mouth !

its all the foam bubbles spilling from your mouth !

its all the foam bubbles spilling from your mouth

i think a basic issue is people are way too definite in their opinions in the absence of having any real life experience

such a situation should always give pause for thought and if its not there what can you do?

r|zen is in fact a range of semiotic fantasies about zen, it varies from faux buddhist to a gaming approach to the tang and song records !

transcripts are always to some extent literary works,  so you can’t guarantee what was written actually happened in 100% synchronous detail

i’ve never been into computer games at all, having made a deliberate decision many years ago that they were time wasters, but having looked more closely recently at them, they impose an aggressive, fast paced and antagonistic mode of dealing with things and i wondered if in fact the dialogue manner in reddit zen was being driven by people’s learning experience from games

whereas zen requires an open, slow paced discursive style of  ‘ inquiry ’  not really possible to maintain in the face of an aggressive  “ my way or the highway ”  onslaught ?

maybe ewk is the most extreme example of the gaming mentality ?

though he doesn’t seem to be short of jousting partners ?

to be upset by politics is to be encapsulated in too narrow a band of time

an interest and the study of history dissolves this band !

the student bowed and said, “thank you very much”

in my years of zen i never saw that once !

when you read that in the records you know its a piece of crock for sure !

jason  writes and asks

one of the first questions you asked me, or thought aloud, was what is autism ?

did you ever come up with a suitable answer yourself ?

i was thinking earlier ultimately you’re ahead of the writers on your booklist

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autism is a low theory of mind condition, that is,   “ normative reality ”  humans are neurobiologically blinded to project a certain way of looking at the world that is optimized for breeding

so that’s high theory of mind about reality that doesn’t match well the way things occur

so religious mysticism and zen is the development from low theory of mind to a truer perception of reality  .   .

without supplements i would have been a dead duck, with them i just race ahead so fast i can’t keep up with myself !

can even feel an improvement from my blood donation four days ago !

jason  states and asks

most of the r|zen posters think they’re already so enlightened, so what can you do ?

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you have to use them to straighten yourself out, posting there is a form of self injury, there needs to be strong benefits extracted  .  .

i honestly don’t care a fig for anyone else’s enlightenment, that’s their business

zakaj got the boot not because he’s a borderline arsehole, but because i have done christianity, his stupidity has nothing to offer me  .  .  .

i notice on brad warner’s facebook page he is running into huge problems with the retarded borderline nature of people attending his retreats and weekly meditations, in part his reading audience too

i think this has got worse over the last couple of decades, a growing sense of entitlement in the younger generation, just stupid aggressive like r|zen . .

jason  replies

criticism is not something taken lightly in my generation


why religious mysticism has to be celibate is you are turning over stuff so fruitlessly and for so many years  (read decades) ,  that to be so unproductive with wife and family would be to hurt them too severely !

childless couples i am more open to the possibility of this work, but really the partner involved in this  ‘ inquiry ’  needs to become more solipsistic, some have managed it, even with children !

ewk  writes

you claim to have had hallucinations that you brag give you religious authority.

i encourage you to consult a mental health professional, because that is straight up crazy.

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what i have learnt with you ewk, you are so borderline and toxic that you don’t care what you use against people, just as long as it hurts them and the more the better !

you are missing the target here, but outside your blinkered world, people can grasp the difference between  ‘ vision ’  and hallucination !

since you are  “ borderline ”  between psychosis and neurosis, i wonder if your aversion to  ‘ visionary experience ’  is you were actually referred to dialectical behavior therapy and because you found it so confronting, anything to do with marsha m. linehan causes a strong reaction in you ?

“ marsha m. linehan developed dialectical behavior therapy as a result of her own mental illness  (ed. suicidal self injury)

in 1967, while she prayed in a small catholic chapel in chicago she experienced a vision of which she says

one night i was kneeling in there, looking up at the cross, and the whole place became gold  —  and suddenly i felt something coming toward me  .  .  .  it was this shimmering experience, and i just ran back to my room and said i love myself

it was the first time i remembered talking to myself in the first person

i felt transformed ” 

ewk, if you had any real life zen experience, you would know it has strong positive associations with mystical catholicism !

you protect yourself from change or indeed even getting anything right by simply not reading what is posted to you don’t you !

there’s a big dose of schizophrenia as well as the aspergers/autism and borderline isn’t there ?

quoting you

the sentence structure  “ ${obj} is zen ”  is entirely devoid of meaning

that’s buji zen, good example of it

 try  ‘ zen has a lot of meaning what is it ? ’

ewk  writes

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since you keep making that suggestion to one almost at retirement age with no history of mental illness at all and that’s literally about the 400th time you make that then i have to conclude you are insane and its really coming home to me that you are !

my first stop with mental illness with be the encroaching dementia and memory loss of aging i am afraid !

i have had friends and relatives with difficulties in the mental health area and can’t believe how deliberately offensive you try to be about an arena full of heartbreak !

you’re just bullshitting about what you have no real life experience of a total fantasy nerd

tell us about your real life zen and meditation experience !

you’re an expert of zero aren’t you !

you’re just bullshitting about what you have no real life experience of a total fantasy nerd

ewk, you are not harmless, your major impulse seems to be to try to fuck others up !

you are not harmless, your major impulse seems to be to try to fuck others up !

ewk, you are not harmless, your major impulse seems to be to try to fuck others up

you are not harmless, your major impulse seems to be to try to fuck others up

you sit down to meditate and try to cut off thinking.  right ?

sounds like an intention and specific effort to me.

what’s wrong with intention and specific effort, its the understanding of the machine that we are that matters !

intention perceives intention and specific efforts perceive specific effort and the mutations and changes that follow are so out of our control !

ewk, you are reading with your eyes closed again ?

reading with your eyes closed again ?

ewk, you are reading with your eyes closed again

reading with your eyes closed again

elbowpunch writes as part of his 30 day zazen challenge

I have missed one sitting and I could actually feel the difference.  It took me a while longer to get focused and concentrated.  A lot of emotions are coming up and having a safe space to sit with those.  What really surprises me that memories from childhood, really obscure ones come up.  For example, I vividly remembering in my Jr High class my teacher Mrs. Parker explaining a bunch of torture methods.  This all came out at once and had no idea I was holding this stuff with me.

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you are doing well, that’s shikantaza basically !

after a while you will see these things are not held within a container of  “ you ” ,  but the imagined container is in fact a moving field or construct of these memories and similar !

this is why the endless aggression and copy and pasting of voynich quotes on r|zen is such a waste of time and contrary direction !

once you understand what  “ you ”  are experientially then you become more open !

a three part  series  with quite a sympathetic look at virginia woolf and her life

i don’t know wether you can say its sad or not  .  .

the cruelty of seeing beyond the mortal realm where the only balm lies in the beyond  .  .

her crucifixion by a very distraught neurobiology  .  .