this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed  !



tattoos in the long term cause health problems, the art is always ghastly and the owners are always oblivious to the first two mentions

also in some countries its tantamount to advertising yourself as a gang member or criminal !

tattoos in the long term cause health problems, the art is always ghastly and the owners are always oblivious to the first two mentions

also in some countries its tantamount to advertising yourself as a criminal or gang member !

tattoos in the long term cause health problems, the art is always ghastly and the owners are always oblivious to the first two mentions

tattoos in the long term cause health problems, the art is always ghastly and the owners are always oblivious to the first two items

endless the sea of wisdom, not so endless that the dirty foam spittlebugs donʼt cast their vanishing nonsense everywhere

both ludwig wittgenstein and martin heidegger conceded that philosophy was superceded by poetry and jacques derrida became downright mystical in his later years !

i already am where these three gentlemen aspire

both ludwig wittgenstein and martin heidegger conceded that philosophy was superceded by poetry and jacques derrida became downright mystical in his later years !

i already am where these three gentlemen aspire to !

both ludwig wittgenstein and martin heidegger conceded that philosophy was superceded by poetry and jacques derrida became downright mystical in his later years !

i already am where these gentlemen aspire to !

it is a sign of great inner insecurity to be hostile to the unfamiliar

anais nin

magical realism is actual realism  !

magical realism is actual realism


zen is based on quality investigative reading and questioning and solitary contemplation to step into another reality, once you have been there and remembered it, nothing is the same !

its the stepping into that other reality that is convincing, nothing else cuts it

it can happen spontaneously in children, iʼm pretty sure it canʼt happen that way as an adult hence the work needed

its a wisdom born of pain and dysfunction

let the babbling fools froth their bloody bubbles  f o r e v e r

limiting your horizons doesnʼt make it zen  !

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limiting your horizons doesnʼt make it zen  !

limiting your horizons doesnʼt make it zen

zen is phoney, zen masters are phoney, this patriarch alone is real !

: o)

zen is phoney, zen masters are phoney ,  this   patriarch  alone is real !

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zen is phoney, zen masters are phoney, this patriarch alone is real !

in the alice stories  (and also sylvie and bruno!)  we tend to treat the fact its a dream as secondary, but its not, its the solipsism

its the solpisist underpining

in the alice stories  (and also sylvie and bruno!)  we tend to treat the fact its a dream as secondary, but its not, its the solpisist underpining

in the alice stories  (and also sylvie and bruno!)  we tend to treat the fact its a dream as secondary, but its not, its the solipsism


the brain is a machine in a dream  !

the brain is a machine in a dream  !

the brain is a machine in a dream

writing is a machine i canʼt stop  !

writing is a machine i canʼt stop

writing is a machine, i canʼt stop  !

writing is a machine, i canʼt stop

writing is a machine  !

writing is a machine

writing is a machine, i canʼt stop  !

writing is a machine, i canʼt stop

writing is a machine i canʼt stop  !

writing is a machine i canʼt stop

writing is a machine  !

writing is a machine

life failure and not success is enlightenment !

life failure and not success is enlightenment

failure and not success is enlightenment !

failure and not success is enlightenment

life failure is enlightenment !

life failure is enlightenment

failure is enlightenment !

failure is enlightenment

life is crazy enough without adding your stupidity to mine !

life is crazy enough without adding your stupidity to mine

life is difficult enough without adding your stupidity to mine !

life is difficult enough without adding your stupidity to mine

schizophrenic    —    OCD    —    autistic

these things make a great zen master of course, only you  ( ed.  ewk )  fill them in the wrong way !

schizophrenic    —    OCD    —    autistic

these things make a great zen master of course, only you  (ed.  ewk)  fill them in the wrong way !

ewk ,  letʼs say   “ enlightenment ”  is a certain competence

you canʼt see what of the zen records are screwed up and what arenʼt

that doesnʼt make for competence !

you have no original expression of your own and if the zen records and stories donʼt tell you thatʼs of the utmost importance ,  again

that doesnʼt make for competence !

ewk, youʼre not enlightened, so why pretend ?

get some enlightenment and stop dribbling the same shit everyday, you are schizophrenic, shouldnʼt that worry you ?

“ practicing shikantaza is like being a young boy in an antique shop with my mother :  ‘ look but donʼt touch!! ’ 

but itʼs so hard not to . . . ”

what touches is also what is touched, do you see the problem, the 7th zen patriarch calls shikantaza   “ instructionless ”  meditation !

i get sick of people expecting me to validate their brainless stupid shit and then use me for entertainment  —

G  O

A  W  A  Y

i get sick of people expecting me to validate their brainless stupid shit and then use me for entertainment  —

G  O

A  W  A  Y

i get sick of people expecting me to validate their brainless stupid shit and then use me for entertainment  —

i get sick of people expecting me to validate their brainless stupid shit and then use me for entertainment

Brad Warner made several bad mistakes with the way he ran the comments section of the/his hardcore zen blog

the first and biggest was banning me as he doesnʼt understand zen and i do and if he cared to let me run he would have had a lot of very good advice available to him on tap   ̲   ̱   ̱

the second was you need to reply to at least half the posts and where necessary knock people back and if they are completely obdurate and just abusively using you, remove them   ̱   ̱  .

i used to think that he knew what he was doing with his almost completely hands off approach but really his touch was totally maladroit as the commenters simply used his reputation and attracting readers with his  op ed  style writings/posts to validate their stupid poisonous shit and it took several really offensive posts to one of the rare women commenters for him to see there was a major issue

it doesnʼt seem there are any easy rules for managing the blog comments section ,  there is a necessity of micromangement, so its labour intensive  ̲   ̱    ̱    you need to get a return on your time for your efforts

harriet chino gave you good  advice  from the inside of zen!

topic for a debate  :   metaphysical solipsism is most likely true

is truth a context for metaphysical solipsism or

is

metaphysical solipsism

a

context

for

truth ?

napoleon lost at waterloo because of severe errors of judgement, his generalship ability obviously was gone through health and neurocognitive issues before the russian campaign

in fact it was never necessary for the allies to fight waterloo !

why should i voluntarily talk to idiots  !

why should i voluntarily talk to idiots ? !

why should i voluntarily talk to idiots ?

why should i voluntarily talk to idiots

i think zen masters are a fiction, thereʼs only a zen  patriarch  and thatʼs me  !

i think zen masters are a fiction, thereʼs only a zen patriarch and thatʼs me  !

i think zen masters are a fiction, thereʼs only a zen patriarch and thatʼs me

ewk, many years ago, when blood still ran in your veins and not tea you must have had a sense of humor !

go looking for it !

many years ago, when blood still ran in your veins and not tea you must have had a sense of humor !

go looking for it !

reddit zen

what do we do ?  we  f i g h t

but carefully choreographed of course, the technological underpinnings are just  amazing  !

human simplicity, men fight, women fight and dollars are handed over to pollute the mind with rubbish !

seeing things without distortion is being taught  !

seeing things without distortion is being taught  !

seeing things without distortion is being taught

it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere  !

it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere  !

it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere

yeah, it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere  !

yeah, it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere  !

yeah, it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere

“ when you come home after  euthanizing  a pet, there is a brief sense of shock when you realize there’s no longer anyone to fret over.  you can put the IV stand with its bag of intravenous fluids away, wash the dish that had held the syringes full of medicine, and tidy up the sloven corners where your now-dead pet had been accustomed to nap ”

drips for cats?  thatʼs like future shock !

ewk, do me a favour ,  put me on your  ʻignoreʼ  list !

or do i bite too hard, my jaw has a power you canʼt ignore ?

ewk, do me a favour, put me on your  ʻignoreʼ  list !

or do i bite too hard, my jaw has a power you canʼt ignore ?

ewk, do me a favour, put me on your  ʻignoreʼ  list !

or do i bite too hard, my jaw has a power you canʼt ignore


i woke up this morning quite late  (11am)  after waking earlier then going back to sleep, and it was out of an incredibly vivid dream, so intense as to be like out of a maxfield parrish painting, visionary

a man was with two women in a town, one of whom he had broken up with six months ago after a long relationship, the other a lover from a brief relationship many years previous and just previous to the recent ex, he appeared to be travelling with them, this town were they were was a stop on their trip, maybe the association was looser, he wasnʼt travelling with them but for all, this stop in the town was temporary  . .

the two women hitchhiked to go further and got picked up by a truck driver, the man somehow saw or knew this

however the town was very beautiful and the man wandered around in it admiring the beautiful trees ,  gardens and locality generally

then the women came back and the man knew that the recent ex had had sex with the truck driver  (the man had a low opinion of the woman in that respect, she knew how to be hurtful)

now he more than suspected that his recent ex had been unfaithful possibly a handful of times to him over the course of the relationship but he had never asked and indeed doubted he would get a truthful answer

knowing about her liaison with the truck driver he for some reason took the opportunity to ask about her faithfulness during the relationship which in the blurred manner of dreams and visions may still have been a current relationship, a ex in real life and in relationship in the dream . .

in reply she flashed a series of picture cards of images from the time during their relationship that were happy events and this he took and told her, since she did not answer his question directly, to be an admission of the unfaithfulness !

now back out of the dream to much later in the day, it occurred to me that there were two sides to this, that the relationship did have some real times of depth and happiness or interest and that was valid . .

she may well have loved him in an uneven way and that didnʼt change nor did those times together

he was actually happier by himself and his time wandering around that strange beautiful town had an extraordinary intensity, on a par with the interview and flashing cards . . perhaps brighter . .

in the dream the man had turned to the lover from the brief relationship many years previously for advice, still have to work that one out . .

“ iʼm  afraid  this is just not your day my friend ”

dota2nub follows me around, using my phrases and then when he posts all he can do is tell me how wrong i am ,  donʼt be like that !

dota2nub follows me around, using my phrases and then when he posts all he can do is tell me how wrong i am ,  donʼt be like that

ewk, why would anyone prefer zen obfuscated  “ tardism ”  to philip larkin ! ?

he eats zen masters alive

only the extremely unimaginative and blinkered could think such a thing !

ed.  ewk  claiming  that a wumen poem would mess with an english literature teacher familiar with philip larkin

yeah, you are a  “ silent illumination ”   heretic ,  its not entirely invalid, but you are just in a hubric snarl !

“ I sit lots ”

yeah but you canʼt see yourself !

it always puzzles me how you people who  "meditate"  have a sort of fractured lack of self awareness but the neurobiological underpinnings of the brain  "default circuit"  does it explain it in terms of tracking too deep in existing mental patterns and ruts of thinking !

youʼve been caught and canʼt see it, but what kills is reading nonsense like alan watts and the endless middling zen bullshit like shunryu suzuki !

plainly if you are replying to me and have difficulty with what i am saying, you are not  "accepting life as it is" . .

me i certainly donʼt accept life as it is, never have and wonʼt till my last breath !

the effect of the default circuit entrainment like you suffer from, ewk has the same problem, you wonʼt ever lift out unfortunately, as likely as ewk  "seeing the light" lol

your approach is very  "soto" ,  i can see brad warnerʼs issues with default circuitry entrainment and really hakuinʼs approach was developed in the context of his experience and awareness of the problems, which from his vendective sound like a zen cultural malaise !

i would love for your view of the world to be the case, life would just be some easy dream !

oh the misfortune that its not !

hakuinʼs criticisms have been validated in modern neurobiology !

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basically sitting or solitary contemplation needs to be tempered with quality reading so you donʼt get stuck in ruts !

hakuinʼs koan system was an attempt to get monks minds re-engaged in some sort of philosophical or problem solving process, but it itself became just another victim of rigidity !

“ teachers ”  and  “ students ”  are an illusion !

its like a false problem that only arises if you think  “ understand ”  is a structured plateau that has embedded buildings that can be viewed and recovered in some objective unchanging form !

this is religion

the true zen that the great masters point to is  “ process ” 

this reply is like that, itself is process talking about process, there is no fixed position !

sepehr  a s k s

could you further clarify on what you mean by solipsism ?

do you mean metaphysical, epistemological, or methodological solipsism ?

i have a hard time accepting metaphysical solipsism, but you claim its possible because of parallel realities ?

my

r e p l y

below is a good  quote  off the web

in respect of metaphysical solipsism, everything is part of the constituents of mind  (the synchronic entirety of the constituents of conscious experience) ,  even the idea that  “ this ”  mind may not be all there is

that leaves open the logically possible scenarios that  “ this ”  mind is  “ all there is ” ,  and that  “ this ”  mind isnʼt  “ all there is ”

how can this be judged given only the constituents of  “ this ”  mind ?

sepehr  c o m m e n t s

  what a koan . . .

my

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 yeah, it goes nowhere because it goes somewhere  !

urine colour is a lot to do with how the fluid intake is varying versus fluid loss by sweating !

urine colour is a lot to do with how the fluid intake is varying versus fluid loss by sweating

the whole problem of zen is it is a polished system of bullshit !

the whole problem of zen is it is a polished system of bullshit

  “ would asking for teaching here on r/zen be inappropriate ? ”

thereʼs no agreement on a uniform  ‘ what zen is ʼ ,  it can be  “ there is nothing to teach ” ,  ie  “ buji zen ”  or a complex accretion of ceremonies, hierarchies and methodologies like koans and zazen !

in other words there is a range of approaches each denying the validity of the others, religion in microcosm in fact ! :o)

my experience is that what zen is really about is self taught and in that context i take teaching from anyone, including ewk ! :o)

a respondent comments   :  i appreciate your perspective on this.  iʼm becoming convinced a carnival mirror may be one of my best teachers

my reply  :  to see things without the distortion is being taught  !

enlightenment is a modification of schizophrenia, so it makes sense you are going to see the other form in zen, rank or unmodified !

enlightenment is a mutation of schizophrenia, so it makes sense you are going to see the other form in zen, rank or unmodified !

“ what do you make of the  sweating horses of the past ? ”

be a sweating horse of the present ?

my re-translation of the opening verse of the faith mind sutra !

the way of understanding is attainable, one must be objective and fair !

donʼt be biased and you will naturally arrive there

“ just avoid picking and choosing ”

the way of understanding is attainable, one must be objective and fair !

donʼt be biased and you will naturally arrive there

“ yeah, but how can you cease bias? ”

when you put in solitary contemplative time you start to understand yourself and destructive biases !

how what we think is  “ good ”  is an unconcious reflex almost, then after a while you somewhat see when you are doing it !

basically its a more overall view and an understanding that what you get comes as a whole and it doesnʼt make sense to pick it apart and try and extract what suits one in most cases

reddit zen suits me because it provides me material to work on and ewk, muju, dot2nub, healthspin, tostono and  hubricity  are all a part of that and i myself am not excluded !

what is apparently negative can also be a positive !

“ is it wise to still say good, bad, positive and negative?  if we swap them often enough, is that the same as just washing dishes?  iʼd like to try it.  interested to hear your thoughts ”

its not really like washing the dishes, you just put more thought into it, weigh things and look forward to the next stage in the process of understanding something

“ just avoid picking and choosing ”

the way of understanding is attainable, one must be objective and fair !

donʼt be biased and you will naturally arrive there

the way of understanding is attainable, one must be objective and fair !

donʼt be biased and you will naturally arrive there

 when you fight on-line you create the whiny ass bitch ? 

i think the problem is people donʼt understand their subject !

when you donʼt understand your subject you are going to spend all your time fighting because you donʼt know how to discuss !

this has always been the story of religion !

what zen master was passive-aggressive ?

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what zen master was passive-aggressive ?

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what zen master was passive-aggressive ?

what zen master was passive-aggressive

the core activities of 7th patriarch zen are quality  reading  and getting some contemplative solitary time and actually getting out in natural beauty when its feasible

attention to diet and in my view drug experiences are not helpful and carry the risk of brain damage

i have a  blog  you are welcome to discuss this on

“ on reddit, whoever has the time and the obsession can prolong fights forever ! ”

while their health holds up, when it doesnʼt they drop out and swirl out of existance like what they did there never happened !

very zen but really the wrong way for those claiming some sort of mastery !

“ on reddit, whoever has the time and the obsession can prolong fights forever ! ”

while their health holds up, when it doesnʼt they drop out and swirl out existance like what they did there never happened !

very zen but really the wrong way for those claiming some sort of mastery !

when you fight, you create the enemy  !

when you fight, you create the enemy  !

when you fight, you create the enemy !

when you fight, you create the enemy

“ are you telling me iʼll never be enlightened and should just crawl back to a mundane life of real life? ”

you can see it on this subreddit, everyone thinks iʼm crazy and a fair portion want me gone

the viewpoint is too different ,  you are a social outcast . .

the consequences of enlightenment are too frightening for you . .

i never have recommended it . .

what people call zen and what they do is some sort of proxy system like ceremonies or comfy alan watts bullshit that they can act in or waffle on without ever engaging anything real . .

ewk, one day you wonʼt post on reddit zen and who apart from you will care if you can even think that clearly about your situation or arenʼt dead?

muju will outlast you, proof of there being no justice !

one day you wonʼt post on reddit zen and who apart from you will care if you can even think that clearly about your situation or arenʼt dead?

ewk, why not stop posting and confront your life ?

 take your own advice if you wonʼt take mine 

 i always do when i post like that, i think  “ yeah ”

why not stop posting and confront your life ?

 take your own advice if you wonʼt take mine 

 i always do when i post like that, i think  “ yeah ”

why not stop posting and confront your life ?

why not stop posting and confront your life

“ you donʼt think meditation is about stopping thinking ? ”

well thatʼs the  “ silent illumination ”  heresy isnʼt it, strongly criticized in authentic quarters over the many centuries, hakuinʼs vendective against it is illuminating and vicious !

“ you donʼt think meditation is about stopping thinking ? ”

well thatʼs the  “ silent illumination ”  heresy isnʼt it, strongly criticized in authentic quarters over the centuries, hakuinʼs vendective against it is illuminating and vicious !

the word  meditation is like  zen  or  god ,  they are in the public domain and mean whatever the culture and person ascribe to it !

if i were to take the word i would say it means a sort of solitary contemplative mode . .

iʼd rather not explain what  communal objectivity  means, its very dependent on a certain context, something to  meditate  on !

the word  meditation is like  zen  or  god ,  they are in the public domain and mean whatever the culture and person ascribe to it !

if i was to take the word i would say it means a sort of solitary contemplative mode . .

iʼd rather not explain what  communal objectivity  means, its very dependent on a certain context, something to  meditate  on !

is alzheimers insanity ?

is alzheimers insanity

is dementia insanity ?

is dementia insanity

what the school system does is tragic !

its an indoctrination system of idioacy

it also has a contrary effect on its supposed aim, making children employable and successful in later life !

it takes twenty years from leaving the school system to get some of the worst misinformation out of your head !

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you donʼt really think for yourself and actually a lot of what is taught is not a  “ fair representation ”  of  “ current scientific understanding ”

i have met people who have had a quality private or home schooling and the difference is obvious, like day and night !

what the school system does is tragic !


the truth of  “ sudden enlightenment ” is its visionary ,  if its not visionary ,  it doesnʼt impact enough and you will end up like ewk and his buji ilk, some dull flat and literally empty version of zen, puling humanism/atheism/slack arse thinking . .

a questioner asks  “ visionary ? ”

this is why people are so sceptical and indeed i never believed in the possibility, it just happened, obviously one has to work at the sort of questions that give rise to what happens

zen if it is a doctrine and i guess it is, is a doctrine of both sudden and gradual enlightenment because that's the road . .

the world like you is sceptical and disbelieving . .

but it only ever means anything to yourself, thatʼs your surety and the flip flapping morons just mill and buzz around like ill dysfunctional bees . .

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its just like any other form of problem solving, you are trying to work life out and fortunately for me i had been interested and doing this process for years before coming across zen

this was through quality reading of literature, mystics and poetry

where zen really helps was some of the more useful records and weekly meditation and a yearly retreat  (sesshin)

the one thing that was really poisonous which i have spent decades now undoing is  “ getting ”  that most zen is voynich crap and 99% of zen teachers are asinine fools, fooling themselves and me because they pick up a sophisticated  “ patterning ”  tool kit designed over thousands of years to pull the wool over your eyes

unless you are celibate and zen was a celibate tradition you just can't give it enough intensity and i advise a different more  ‘ wisdom literature ’  approach for  “ married with kids ”

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thereʼs a lot of very good new scientific research on the web, its hard slog but the scientific viewpoint i have now is very different from what is taught in school, multiple universes for example, obviously  F = MA  in the newtonian context doesnʼt change !

of interest is how far medicine lags behind current research, i have seen it said it takes 20 years for a new understanding to get taught in the medical schools !

science is one of the modern wonders, when you see what people used to think about how the world works

but from the mystical and  “ enlightenment ”  point of view, great mystics like heraclitus and john of the cross had what are to our eyes quite crazy world views in some respects, but their grasp of what they were doing is untouched !

the very success of science has created a social belief in material reality as being all there is . .

in fact its just a subset, albeit a very well worked out one !

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i quite like george bowman and joko beck is ok in parts, though she certainly can be very schizophrenic

one teacher i thought was head and shoulders above the rest and i did travel to stay at the springwater center when she was there, is toni packer

i used to listen to her taped talks endlessly

then i sort of  “ outgrew ”  her, which is how it should be . .

lol AMA territory ! : o)

ho ewk !

but if you read the zen records with the right eye you can see that true understanding is very rare, maybe once in a generation, its that sort of scarcity !

for instance huang-po and ta-hui were not fully enlightened in my view but joshu is !

thatʼs another thing, joshsuʼs zen takes a long life, so that sort of understanding is necessarily not there for everyone, no matter how hard they work or what natural facility they have !

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the true zen and mysticism is basically solipsism with a dash of communal objectivity !

accurate descriptions of how the world works are helpful but not essential !

does that make sense ?

its quite illuminating to look at the world views of different historical cultures

chinese taoism and their mania for gambling, the truly loony egyptian book of the dead

the half right half wrong of the ancient greeks . .

and our diamond of modern science

but thereʼs nothing except solipsism, you'll never understand that without visionary experiences because the vision places a new  “ supernatural ”  reality over all !

this   “ supernatural ’  reality is the ultimate reality, without the visionary it will never seem that way . .

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zen is interesting and of course it starts with the sixth patriarch, because its basically a tradition of  “ illiterate ”  teachers . .

so you are dealing with transcriptions, memories and perhaps hundreds of years before it all comes out as part of the lamp records or whatever

this is the big glaring mistake just about everyone in zen makes, is they jump in with their christian   “absolutist”  scriptural biases and plant a foundation based on these   “ records ” ,  well the reality is they are pretty loose sand . .

so its the work of decades to sort things out and as i have said before, without the  “ inner vision ”  you just canʼt do it, you have to make a fit between what was said or recorded and what the inner vision matches . .

text  Q & A  on reddit zen

the truth of  “ sudden enlightenment ”

is its visionary, if its not visionary, it doesnʼt impact enough and you will end up like ewk and his buji ilk, some dull flat and literally empty version of zen, puling humanism/atheism/slack arse thinking . .

the truth of  “ sudden enlightenment ”

is its visionary, if its not visionary, it doesnʼt impact enough and you will end up like ewk and his buji ilk, some dull flat and literally empty version of zen, puling humanism/atheism/slack arse thinking .

ewk posting the same thing 20 to 40 times a day for more than four years in the same forum is a   “mental health”  problem

basically its diagnostic of schizophrenia because you donʼt listen

zen master ji kwang spews some pompous crap

“ if even one being is still entangled in their difficulties and suffering, then we must put on our robe and practice Zen together ”

“ a blah blah blah does not blah blah blah ”

a  “crap artist”  does not answer  “directly”  ?

a  “crap artist”  does not answer  “directly”  ?

a crap artist does not answer directly ?

a crap artist does not answer directly

some idiot  pontificating  on you tube

completely repulsive, how can one be so repulsive and vacuous?

tell us your secret ?

read shit and regurgitate it ?

humans, passive aggressive

stupid

nobody

in circumstances

they

like

humans, passive aggressive

stupid

nobody

in circumstances

they

like

humans, passive aggressive, stupid, nobody in circumstances they like

humans, passive aggressive, stupid

i am no stranger to pain ,  all my life i have had   thump your head   migraine  !

i am no stranger to pain ,  all my life i have had   thump your head   migraine  !

i am no stranger to pain ,  all my life i have had   thump your head   migraine !

i am no stranger to pain ,  all my life i have had   thump your head   migraine

 what is the non-essence of essential ? 

what is the essential of non-essential ?

a

a paper

moon ?

 what is the non-essence of essential ? 

what is the essence of non-essential ?

a

a paper

moon ?

 what is the non-essence of essential ? 

what is the essential of non-essence ?

a

a paper

moon ?

the stuff i write is rough because it is designed to take you outside the bounds of conventional social reality

the stuff i write is rough because its designed to take you outside the bounds of conventional social reality


one day you wake up and

zen is full of retarded idiots saying  “ pointing at the moon ” .  .  pointing at the moon saying  “ pointing at.. the  ” .  .  moon

 and guess what

 they are pointing at a paper lantern !

“ oh thatʼs the moon for sure . . ”

maybe iʼve got better things to do than tease the mentally ill, maybe i donʼt  !  :  o ( )

maybe iʼve got better things to do than tease the mentally ill, maybe i donʼt  !  :  o()

maybe iʼve got better things to do than tease the mentally ill, maybe i donʼt ! : o()

maybe iʼve got better things to do than tease the mentally ill, maybe i donʼt !

maybe iʼve got better things to do than tease the mentally ill, maybe i donʼt

kobun & maya  (maya was kobun chinoʼs daughter with his second wife , katrin)  were drowned in 2002 when kobun attempted to come to her aid after she fell into a swimming pool !


harriet chinoʼs  advice  on zen to brad warner

I donʼt think most Zen students  (or teachers)  are that perceptive or intelligent, though,  and so I would not solicit just a slew of opinions (ed.  the comments section on bradʼs blog which he had just closed)

Most Zen students are, as described in one of your books, simply followers who have an intense need to give up responsibility for their own lives and become dependent/submissive in relation to some   “ Zen teacher or master ”

Really, Brad, you might want to consider getting out of the Zen business

if you are just going to just give bossy dictates and have no ability to dialogue even slightly what then ?

brad warner has closed the comments section on his blog, they are such dull poisonous stupids they actually cost him reputation but brad is also a bit stupid and no doubt will open it up again

i know for myself how much work the comments sections of blogs are, really three or four posting is about the right number in terms of what can be managed and is fruitful !

jason   w r i t e s

castrated some piglets this morning, had four testicles after and definitely felt a testosterone increase later on

could be trouble, i was about to start wishing for a woman

from the lamp records

zhaozhou/joshu asked nanquan/nasen  :   what is the way ?

nanquan replied  :   the normal mind is the way

zhaozhou asked  :   can it be approached deliberately ?

nanquan pontificated  :   if you try to aim for it, you thereby turn away from it

zhaozhou asked  :   if one does not try, how can one know it is the way ?

nanquan replied  :   the way is not in the province of knowledge, yet not in the province of unknowing.  knowledge is false consciousness, unknowing is indifference.  if you really arrive at the inimitable way, it is like space, empty and open; how can you insist in affirmation and denial ?

at these words, zhaozhou was suddenly enlightened

my

c o m m e n t

god this is toxic perverted shit, no worse than the retards who lap it up and pretend retardation is intelligence i suppose

a corrupt twisting distortion of the cardinal error ,  communal objectivism  !

i'm rewriting it to bring some solipsistic sanity back into this filth and its purveyors !

zhaozhou/joshu asked nanquan/nasen  :   what is the way ?

nanquan replied  :   still posting your bullshit on reddit zen ?

zhaozhou asked  :   can it be approached deliberately ?

nanquan asked/replied  :   approach what deliberately ?  who approaches ?

zhaozhou asked  :   if one does not try, how can one know it is the way ?

nanquan replied  :   looking ahead, there is no way, you can only see where you have been !

at these words, zhaozhou was suddenly enlightened

actually its sorta funny to look at my version as a reddit zen dialogue with zhaozhou posting on reddit, must have wifi ! :o)

ewk and tostono, its good to see two madmen arguing with each other !

leave them and reddit zen to it, i say !

: o)

“ all the teachings are within you ”  —  a yuanwu quote !

in actual fact the so called zen records are mostly so garbled and nonsensical your only recourse is get enlightened so you have the   interior vision   to make sense of them  .  .

so you need to look at the wide range of other quality mystical and wisdom literature and poetry

otherwise you will just end up as bleating sheep on a message board called r/zen ! :o)

jason   asks

 was your dia kensho experiences sudden ?

 were you praying ?

  what led to them ?

my

r e p l y

theyʼre just something that happens, you may not even work out they are significant until decades later !

theyʼre actually a bit stressful, i think i prefer life without them but they are also beauty and truth and in a celibate life, thatʼs all there is !


i have been thinking lately about this :  “ one is all, all is one ”

life needs death and death needs life

my

r e p l y

all ainʼt one and

one

ainʼt

all

life is death and death is life

puzzle this out

you

mangy

fife !

all ainʼt one and one ainʼt all

life is death and death is life

puzzle this out

you mangy

fife !

“ what are your interests ? ”

 iʼm not going to save you from being boring !

“ sincere effort counts for a lot ”

iʼm not sure there is such a thing as sincere effort and actually only results matter

the problem is the misplaced time that sincere but futile effort results in !

otherwise the wanking on reddit zen would be ok since by the lights of most who post there they are being sincere, but since the result is them just digging themselves deeper in a ditch  (tostono!)  all thatʼs happened is they dwell in a cesspool catchment when they could be doing other, far more life productive things !

“ iʼm not so sure, iʼm retired, so maybe its just me, but i'm not so concerned about results.  i do appreciate sincerity and consistent effort.  to each his own ”

yeah thatʼs a conventional  “ married with kids view ”  and why celibate zen is different

sincere, insincere, its all grist to the zen celibate mill, thereʼs only you that can get damaged !

years ago when i first starting sitting with a weekly zen group, the de fatco leader of the group never seemed to make any progress or having any real understanding of zen

he was a musician and had a very good ear and it wasnʼt until many years later and having heard the abysmal chanting of other groups that made me realise how good our very small group was on the musical side

once i met his family, a wife and two daughters and they were the most wonderful gracious people and i thought ,  jim you have hit the jackpot with your family, no wonder your zen is a mess !

you canʼt do two life essential things well !

“ so you recommend people donʼt supplement with MSM ? ”

thereʼs some depends like whether you have mercury amalgam fillings and how much large fish you eat  (ie  you have high mercury levels  —  in which case msm ala nac etc is very destructive)

i have taken  small  doses occasionally which may have been beneficial, but i have never had any mercury fillings!

i did take small doses every day and it made my tendons too loose, my legs got a touch  “floppy”

yeah i think small occasional doses of MSM have their place

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i have seen a lot of people damaged by chelation !

“ hmm...how come sources say MSM is as safe as water and you can't overdose ? ” 

the health scene on the net is full of wrong minded crazies

 endlessly circling the same point with people  (arguing)  may indicate that we are both simply attatched to different points of view 

my own experience of the  “circling”  is that is will what happen unless enough work is put into the issue of concern

because zen is so demanding in terms of the necessary work, everyone ends up  “circling”  of which r/zen is some sort of pastiche/exemplar

the reality of the great zen masters is they were all celibate  (i know ikkyu is held up as an example of celibacy not being necessary, but in fact he was basically celibate until thirty and while good, heʼs not quite in the top rank like joshu !)

family and kids requires a different approach, the freedom of celibacy allows one to damage or be damaged in ways conducive for zen inquiry, no sane man would do that to those he loves !

the norwegian writer karl ove knausgård who is currently having some commercial success talks about this problem of his writing being hurtful and the process itself being hurtful to his family . . the money now coming in of course remedies the situation, but it wasnʼt always like that !

sepehr  asks

what is your favorite childrenʼs picture book ?

my  reply

maxfield parrish is my favourite artist and for stories, and poems, lewis carroll/charles dodgson

sepehr i know you think i am an idiot but maxfield parrish did childrenʼs book illustrations and is the best i have seen !

do a google image search, you can see the paintings that obviously are done for childrenʼs stories !

i think he only  illustrated  and didnʼt write the stories

heʼs very well known and there is heaps of info about him on the web !

an idea might be to take a painting of his, eg daybreak and write a sort of wang wei  “ peach blossom ”  story around it, children stumbling into a  “ peach blossom/daybreak world ”  their adventures then then losing their way and that world, coming back to their own time and space and the memory gently fading becoming more unreal as their lives progress, perhaps with hints of strange synchronicities to their previous adventures . .

you can stick anything you like in that world, mani, kibir, al-maʼarri, the thing is you have it on the visual backgound of the paintings

what good does it do to complain about the past ?

you canʼt change it and as time goes along its relevance disappears

what good does it do to complain about the past ?

you canʼt change it and as time goes along its relevance fades

what good does it do to complain about the past ?

you canʼt change it and as time goes along its relevance changes

what good does it do to complain about the past ?

you canʼt change it and as time goes along its relevance fades/changes/disappears

the point of arguing is to sort your own thoughts out, if the other person comes along as well, all well and good, if they donʼt you still have benefited and its their loss !

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“ what thoughts are there to sort out though ? ”

 what did you just write ?

the point of arguing is to sort your own thoughts out, if the other person comes along as well, all well and good, if they donʼt you still have benefited and its their loss !

hello ewk and tostono, ye of the  never come along  :o)

the point of arguing is to sort your own thoughts out, if the other person comes along as well, all well and good, if they donʼt you still have benefited and its their loss !

i think ewkʼs got a touch of early dementia or something like that, apparently heʼs quite overweight so could be on the road to diabetes which does affect the brain ?

i think heʼs got a touch of early dementia or something like that, apparently heʼs quite overweight so could be on the road to diabetes which does affect the brain ?

i think heʼs got a touch of early dementia or something like that, apparently heʼs quite overweight so could be on the road to diabetes which does affect the brain

age makes silly fools of us all !

: o (

age makes silly fools of us all !

age makes silly fools of us all

have you ever heard of  chelation  ?

sulphur is like the basic biochemical glue so if you supplement it in any form, you have to be careful of mobilizing heavy metals ,  particularly mercury !

so having seen a lot of people permanently damaged by it, i warn about it !

methylsulfonylmethane  (MSM)  while not a chelator is quite a bit of sulphur in medium or large doses !

there are two views of  translation ,  one of which is that you have a book or work somewhat relating to the original author, but is in fact a new work by the real author, the translator !

the other view is to translate the work as the original which is impossible !

enough said ! :o)

there are two views of translation, one of which is that you have a book or work somewhat relating to the original author, but is in fact a new work by the real author, the translator !

the other view is to translate the work as the original which is impossible !

enough said ! :o)

pasting clichéd zen bullshit is not really being courteous, you have shitty attitude to others !

“ except words do not suffice ”

  your words donʼt suffice but mine do ! :o)

reason and dialogue go a long way, butch  “donʼt touch iodine”  attitudes are just the mark of someone who doesnʼt want to think !

your close female relatives are those who think they can tell you what to do !

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your close female relatives are those who think they can tell you what to do !

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your close female relatives are those who think they can tell you what to do !

your close female relatives are those who think they can tell you what to do

 show me your  powers  ”

same as joshuʼs ,  the ability to turn arseholes and dharma rats on their head and not much else

“ then  vie  with it ? ”

i was reading up on german fighter aces in world war 2 and those that survived and most didnʼt, were still stuck in thinking their efforts were valid, all that went wrong was they lost the war !

“ a text buddha passes through text ”

  thatʼs like a secret, how do you do that ?

you do it by constantly writing to improve your knowledge and understanding, not writing to reinforce whatever ideological view you hold of zen

this is what the degenerate form reddit zen is /has become

just a bunch of half wits reinforcing their position

its not being the half witted thatʼs the problem, its writing themselves into concrete statues with text

“ a text buddha does not pass through text ”

throwing mud pies donʼt do nothing ,  throwing a spiked steel ball  does  !

throwing mud pies donʼt do nothing, throwing a spiked steel ball does !

 wassup zadar 

write more than two words or even four if you have something to say

surely you think and have more on your mind than  “ wassup zaddar ”  !

however poor our own thoughts and expression, surely its better than malhandled prodding for who knows what reason !

culinary experience from jason

the back fat I used for lard came with some skin on it, I left it on while it was cooking and separated after and was debating whether or not to throw it away by tasting it, itʼs very good and it reminded me that my parents used to make a refuse gelatin stew that was probably common growing up in poverty in portugal

jason  writes

when i was in portugal some time maybe 10 years ago a very skinny dog came walking by my grandmotherʼs home, which is a bit odd because itʼs not near any other homes besides my godparentʼs

i went to the fridge as he was sitting at the bottom of the stairs, i gave him as much as i thought i could without getting in trouble, i went inside but i expected him to come back the next days but he never did

i replied to ewkʼs  post ,  but it was removed

back to scripting huh ?

I encourage you to talk to a mental health professional about your multiple co-morbid conditions attenuated psychosis syndrome - schizophrenia - autistic spectrum disorder - dissociative personality disorder - ptsd - dissociative subtype of ptsd

dsm v approved ! :o)

what zen master kowtowed to mental health professionals ?

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so first i should say thanks to nahmsayin  (owner of  ewkontherecord )  who doesnʼt censor

thatʼs the  true zen spirit

thatʼs what i had previously, removal of posts and then the downvoting brigades kick in, why reddit zen is so bad is this censorship . . its what they want i guess !

ah well, go back and same pattern emerges, its a bit hard to believe, but they  (the moderators)  really are quite protective of ewk . .

an excellent  interview  of larissa volokhonsky and richard pevear on their translation of fyodor dostoevskyʼs book ,  ‘ the brothers karamazov ’

russian does not map well to english, i notice how poor the translations of osip mandelstam are

there’s a whole extra dimension in there that needs to be tapped

more and more i am coming to appreciate how attenuated and bowdlerised the zen records are . .

what is off-putting are the endless fools promoting this part voynich !

sepehr on his  play

I found Mani and Kartirʼs opposition towards each other interesting because Mani derives his   “deontological ethics”  from a transcendent force whereas Kartir bases his  “virtue ethics ”  on the community, you could call it  “biopolitical”  in some sense.  I show how both are insufficient

So you get me, the five themes my play dealt with are these :

1)   Derridean interpretation of Nietzschean affirmation: the breakdown of communal paradigm to solipsism

2)   The insufficiency of crystalline ethical structures.  Neither Mani nor Kartir understood meaning is a fluid.  It was only after Mani came to terms with his solitude that he came to apprehend how meaning is a fluid at the end, Infinity

3)   How process is fundamental, not essence

4)   The recursion of real and unreal & meaning and meaninglessness involved in enlightenment   —   their quasi-border too

5)   I wanted to convey Persian culture and such.  A lot of people canʼt tell it apart from Arabic culture

youʼve been blathering for years

turning in

the

same dead

circle and

calling it

 zen !

 : o (

misogi !

now thatʼs what schopenhauer did to improve his circulation !

a good  video  on how to make lard  !

when pouring the liquid into plastic containers, it wouldnʼt want to be above about 50°C imo !

they   “cook”  the fat at 107°C  !

wumen huikai wasnʼt enlightened, joshu, linji, yunmen wenyan, foyan and nansen were  !

the  true  story of macbeth

youʼre not enlightened ewk, some dull hack posting on reddit zen for years god knows why !

a reddit zen  q u e s t i o n

is enlightenment scary ?

i never thought i had any real type of enlightenment experience until i realized that iʼm just thoughts perceiving more perceptions.  i totally lost myself, and it felt dissociative and scary.  is that normal?

my

r e p l y

iʼm enlightened and i can tell you its not worth it !

well maybe it not being worth it is not quite true but sometimes i feel its better not to have gone this route, but perhaps i would not have survived any other way ? !

i havenʼt seen anyone else posting here who is enlightened, the idiots just downvote me and blather foolishness ! :o)

the experience itself which is actually several over a lifetime is not scary, in fact wonderful, its the aftermaths that are frightening because you see the world in such a different way and what everyone else holds of value is mostly fake and its very disorienting !

you uproot your life and its dangerous, financially stressful and what  “normality”  would call mentally unstable

it also happens to be true in contradistinction to the normatively received falseness of conventional social values

you actually are not on the right track.  it needs to be a joy to follow through and the sense of what it is always drives it, otherwise it wouldn't be worthwhile and one would just end up blathering on reddit zen . . : o)

you havenʼt put the ground work in, sort of  “oversoto”  so to speak, so the pieces can never fall together right . .

muju, why donʼt you tackle ewk where he is most vulnerable, that is his various factual errors, the most glaring of which is saying eihei dogen never went to china and is a compulsive liar, i donʼt see that is the case at all !

he doesnʼt like dogen for the same reason he doesnʼt like me, we both elevate the visionary and that doesnʼt fit with his dull psychiatric pseudo scientific view of the universe !

sir henry neville said that plays should be entertaining as well as instructive, which is something to bear in mind and any play needs strong female roles to keep the other half of the audience interested !

donʼt write dry as dust philosophical plays that stay on a shelf, people should want to see them because they entertain !

plays should be seen and not read and that means expense and the only way to cover the expense is for them to be interesting to a wide range of people which is pretty much what goethe said on the subject !

napoleon said

donʼt interrupt your enemy when heʼs making a mistake

my

c o m m e n t

it can also be

donʼt interrupt your enemies when they are making a mistake !

donʼt interrupt your enemies when they are making mistakes !

“ hey guys.  iʼm diagnosed mild aspergers.  iʼm wanting to do some workshops for boys age 13 or so.  i was wondering what you guys think would be good to tell them ”

example speaks, try listening to them and not telling them !

sepehr  w r i t e s

thatʼs what my play shows.  itʼs a breakdown of communal objectivism  (or intersubjectivity and ethos)  into the solipsism

i think there is no ethos out there that is impervious to being subverted and upended, but there is something about a solipsistic realization that cannot be taken away.  when mani  (in my play)  awoke to the stupidity of religion and the communal paradigm, he understood something kartir could not take away, but the same is not true when he was into the communal way of things.  of course, my play is fiction and loosely based on historical facts

my

r e p l y

the most successful plays in my view are sir henry nevilleʼs twelfth night, chekhovʼs uncle vanya, satreʼs huis clos and beckettʼs waiting for godot

they are all based in fictional contexts, your use of a literal historical context and creating what doesnʼt match what can be inferred of the character of mani historically makes for a discordance in the play that dooms it !

what is taught as philosophy now in england is a combination of linguistics, philosophy and logic, iʼm not that interested in it

neither am i interested in language because we are using that and the use subsumes analysis !

the side effects  multiply ,  they donʼt add, thereʼs a huge population out there on multiple pyschiatric medications not understanding in the slightest their many and increasing health problems are due to this multiplication and creation of new side effects

you see it endlessly on reddit askdocs and medical, iʼm taking x,y,z and c and i have these problems and i donʼt know why my health is getting so bad

well if you look at the known side effects of those medications plus extras for interactions

“ switch off ” 

limited life span is the prognosis !

thereʼs sorta three paradigms floating around, the religious, the philosophical and the artistic/solipsist, you are really wanting the intersection of those . .

i think what jacques derrida does is  explode  the communal objectivist viewpoint that philosophy tries to drive to, its a process rather than an action so thereʼs always that undercurrent with him

i have written about that   here ,  i say its part of a continuum, whether one gets to a semantically correct solipsism is a different matter !

so this is basically the tension and play of philosophy and religion, the metamorphosis of communal objectivism into semantically correct solipsism which you can also call 7th patriarch zen !

sepehr ,  i donʼt actually disagree with nietzschean  affirmation 

i would go further and say thatʼs what 7th patriarch zen is about and there are if not many, at least some multitude of such moments or transitions in identity in life !

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that recitation conveyed the sense much better than what i could get reading the passage !

makes me wonder about nietzsche as an auditory poet actually !

ewk, you think huang-po was enlightened, i donʼt, thats a pretty big gap !

sepehr, i really donʼt want to get involved further with your play, its not my business as to whether its good or bad and thatʼs not really a judgement i would make anyway

its peripheral to the purpose of the 7th patriarch blog, a way of looking at it is  al-marri  is interesting and mani is not

if there was endless time we could go back and forth on this sort of thing forever, but as it is i am really pressed for time and i would suggest you find your own audience . . .

you are lucky, i think you edit and revise well, but really there will be people out there interested in it, there are people on the web interested in mani and manichaeism . .

zhaozhou  (ed.  joshu)  taught with three turning phrases

a clay buddha does not pass through water

a gold buddha does not pass through a furnace

a wood buddha does not pass through fire

my  fourth phrase

a text buddha passes through text

zhaozhou  (ed.  joshu)  taught with three turning phrases

a clay buddha does not pass through water

a gold buddha does not pass through a furnace

a wood buddha does not pass through fire

my  fourth phrase

a text buddha does not pass through text

minerals ingested from food are bound to proteins, for example magnesium taurate is magnesium bound to the amino acid taurine and there is quite a bit of this form of magnesium in the heart !

also magnesium taurate has quite a different effect from say magnesium glycinate, i way prefer the douglas labs magnesium taurate as the best and most useful form of magnesium

now these are bulky and expensive so supplement makers tend to push inorganic or  “garden fertilizer”  forms like magnesium citrate, but they as i say are  “garden fertilizer”  and not bound to proteins and they feed bad microbiome in the gut . .


i feel like iʼm a burning

c

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n

d

l

e

and now the end is in sight

i can see the wax base

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i can see the wax base

 i am required to burn faster !

 it sucks !

i feel like i am a burning candle

and now the end is in sight

i can see the wax base

 i am required to burn faster !

i feel like i am a burning candle

and now the end is in sight

 i am required to burn faster !

 it sucks !

i feel like i am a burning candle

and now the end is in sight

 i am required to burn faster !

sepehr, i think you were thinking that when you write something ,  (ed.  a play)  you can create an imaginary space that will transcend the deficits in your life experience and reading

you canʼt ,  what you write is just going to reflect that and it did !

you piggy backed into a philosophical and theological context to disguise the issues i have just raised and it doesnʼt work !

jon   w r i t e s

the saddest face ever.

fuck it, Iʼm not a mystic.

of course that doesnʼt mean shit.

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i donʼt think it makes any sense for anyone to say they are or arenʼt a mystic !

its the wrong perspective, i keep saying this again and again, but they trot off with iʼm this and iʼm that  . . !

conversely  true mysticism  is a perspective from which life can be made sense of, that is the making sense of life could be called philosophy, but in actual fact the vast majority of philosophy falls short of the mark because it lacks that intrusion of personal identity !

go  f i g u r e

askreddit

this is too late but i need to tell it.

i was a patient in the ER on a busy night.  concussion for those interested.

on a gurney in the hall was a guy screaming and hollering for a nurse.  you could tell he had been there for a while. there was a small cooler hanging off the bed.  every once in a nurse would come by to shush him and change out his sheet.

turns out he had his dick bit off by the girl he was raping.  it was in the cooler waiting to be reattached.  they were in no hurry.

“ why the hostility on reddit zen ? ”

yeah a war for sure !

i address this issue  here

and have other posts on the subject on  ewkontherecord

i feel that part of the problem is the complete lack of any real life zen experience means that people can post for years on r/zen and still be clueless as to how zen really works !

its extremely authoritarian often with clueless teachers but it does have a strong   ‘ instructionless ’  meditative component and emphasis on retreats . .

a certain social and cognitive sophistication comes with this that is entirely missing from reddit zen which in reality is some sort of zen that comes from reading and taking on board fakes

the wuppertal suspension railway,   about  1910,  october 2013

reddit zen is basically talentless shits, then i was thinking, they are talentless because they are shits !

reddit zen is basically talentless shits, then i was thinking, they are talentless because they are shits


dark and wet, the front door was open as i had brought in more firewood and my back was turned to write up the homily just below, when i turned around three feral cats including one quite small totally black kitten were arrayed around the wood heater !

i have ruined their lives, they have glimpsed an unattainable heaven, no wonder they mewl around my door !

the world that forms in  childhood  is the world we take through life  !

the world that forms in childhood is the world we take through life  !

the world that forms in childhood is the world we take through life


religion is communally objective, the real zen is a mix of solipsism and communal objectivism and poetry is pretty much entirely solipsistic

this is the real meaning of the middle way !

so reddit zen is basically a tension between different forms of communal objectivism, namely, buji and a sort of pseudo religious zen buddhism, more buji than buddhist in reality !


religion is communally objective, the real zen is a mix of solipsism and communal objectivism and poetry is pretty much entirely solipsistic

this is the real meaning of the middle way !

religion is communally objective, the real zen is a mix of solipsism and communal objectivism and poetry is pretty much entirely solipsistic

this is the real meaning of the middle way

religion is communally objective, the real zen is a mix of solipsism and communal objectivism and poetry is pretty much entirely solipsistic


is all iodine the same or are some brands better than others ?

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it has a large range of chemical forms and concentrations in addition to the brand question

for instance because i get migraine, i find the form that suits me best is the betadine  “ sore throat gargle ” which contains 10mg/ml povidine iodine which is equivalent to 1mg/ml available iodine

once every four or five days i put some on my toes and toenails because this is the furthest distance on the body from the thyroid and i want the thyroid to be the last  “ port of call ”  for the iodine, it seems to have some beneficial thinning effect on the blood which really helps with migraine

a friend who doesnʼt get migraine but has low thyroid function puts a drop or two of iodine tincture  (which is a mixture of ethanol, water, iodine at 25mg/ml and potassium iodide at 25mg/ml)  on her gums, it seems to help her and possibly goes straight to the thyroid !

thereʼs no one answer for iodine supplementation !

the usa has high selenium soil levels, but in countries with low selenium in the diet you also need to  supplement  that, selenium is very involved in thyroid  metabolism !

zakaj knows too many languages, its  fucked  his brain

used it all up and pulled it apart in too many directions, no wonder heʼs settling for some guru crap artist !

zakaj knows too many languages, its  fucked  his brain

zakaj knows too many languages, its  fucked  his brain

my godfatherʼs father, major robert adams wilson fought in the last two years of world war one in france as a major in the artillery and his observation on the failure of the 1918 german spring offensive was interesting

ed.  pages 106 and 107 of  “ a two years interlude ”

his view was that the biggest mistake germany made was the their retreat in 1917 to the hindenburg line and that is, had they held their 1917 positions, then they would have not had to get their supplies and troops through on the only passable routes forward which were roads extremely exposed to allied aerial bombing

germany was short of aviation fuel at this point so this marks a turning point in the strategic value of air power, a lesson the germans learnt apparently !

major wilsonʼs view was that had the germans held their 1917 postions, they could have moved forward into passable open country and  “ the history of the war might have been changed ”

i must say that the german strategic command at the highest level was devastatingly incompetent

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another interesting point he made was that new zealand officer appointments were made on senority which led to a certain incompetence in direction !

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my fathers comment is   ‘ major bob ’  was such a matter of fact person and very practical !

a wound canʼt heal if you are constantly recutting it open again

thatʼs what  “ no contact ”  allows, stops the recutting !

why be jealous when he did you a favour ?

why be jealous when he did you a favour

scriptures  versus  enlightenment

i think if you have to explain something in terms of references to scriptures or records and not your own terms, you are not enlightened

the problem people have is that explaining it in their own terms seems threadbare crap which it is

so they seek to bolster their positions by referring to the records as some sort of certainty

they donʼt understand that zen is about enlightened people teaching . .

its not a scriptural based religion where the masses in their misunderstanding are dominant . .

its about people actually interested in resolving their understanding to something more coherent in terms of what actually occurs in life . .

listening to those who have worked their way somewhat successfully through these issues

of course the final state is depressed so better to be blind i say . .

some light relief

without ewk or muju or me and no zen or non-zen

zion

wonderful  photos  that capture the suburban insanity, all looks wonderful but they are on the brink of and propelling fast into the holocast of world war I  !

  people just  thoughtlessly  take my time from me . .

“ iʼm just a regular retard ”

  yeah thereʼs a million billion of you, all rubbing my nose in their shit like i am of no account and there for their purposes . .

i was thinking that the poetry i write comes  ‘ pre built ’  compared to the poetry that most people write and especially prose

is this an advantage or disadvantage ?

i was thinking that the poetry i write comes  ‘ pre built ’  compared to the poetry that most people write and especially prose

is this a disadvantage or advantage ?

when you make a word up /coin and youʼre the only person that uses it, you get a google  search  to yourself  ! : o)

i guess thatʼs fame of a sort !

:o)

joshu  191 ,  god i was telling muju two years ago he has  PTSD  problems  !

“ diary of a madman ”  is one of the best short stories ever

you may find that bovine thryoid hormone is not as good as porcine

muju, youʼre just dancing on an illusion

youʼre just dancing on an illusion

the term  “ zen ”  is in the public domain, there's nothing you   or  i   or anyone else can do about it !

reddit zen and ewkontherecord are just a continuation of the conflict of people claiming ownership of what has to be an illusion ,  the  exclusive  public domain use of   zen 

restaurant and hair salon owners would agree ! : o )

when i eat wallaby brains the words and thoughts just seem to flow !

: o )

when i eat wallaby brains the words and thoughts just seem to flow !

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when i eat wallaby brains the words and thoughts just seem to flow !

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when i eat wallaby brains the words and thoughts just seem to flow !

when i eat wallaby brains the words and thoughts just seem to flow

god, i have this sense of grief for me and the world !

god, i have this sense of grief for me and the world

god i have this sense of grief for me and the world

i think iʼm gifted, considerably so, iʼve gone through life with everyone telling me i donʼt know what i am on about and its made me way too tolerant of adverse situations  is the problem !

the truth is fiction

and the fiction true

this phrase is from the introduction to  ‘ the dream of red mansions ’  or  ‘ the story of the stone ’

it has stuck with me for decades but in hindsight never seemed quite right ,  so just now sorta spontaneously i came up with a corrected version   ̱   ̱   ͟

very illustrative of the problems of translations i might say, one is always dealing with something slightly skewed or worse  (distorted!)

the real is voynichated

and the fiction de-voynichated

if thereʼs one thing i have learnt over the years, its that you need to read on a daily basis some-one who knows . .

jason is reading goetheʼs  ‘ travels in italy ’  at the moment and i think its helping keep him adjusted

if you just keep to the crap promulgated by the current generation, its endless hubric charlatans spilling their excrement everywhere

you will go go quite mad and they do, the religions, acadamies, wealthy, poor ,  drug addicts and alcoholics, e n d l e ss t h e r u i n s  of  h um a n i t y . .

its interesting to compare  al-maʼarri  and mani, al-maʼarri is the much more interesting person and hugely insightful, i really donʼt see what mani has to recommend him except schizophrenic religious constructs 

i think religion in general is this grouping of very untalented mediocre people enaged in some farcical and when given the power, brutal masking of the fact !

so reddit zen is an agreement amongst a lot of unintelligent hubric idiots that they understand something !

so reddit zen is an agreement amongst a lot of unintelligent hubric idiots that they understand something

“ i am not successful ”

“ its all ok ”

“ its not all ok, that is the nature of being unsuccessful ”

“ i am not successful ”

“ its all ok ”

“ its not all ok, that is the nature of unsuccessful ”

if the enemy is too strong, withdraw  !

if the enemy is too strong, withdraw

this  is not so far fetched, but based on a famous incident in flavius josephusʼs life  !

“ the supreme art of war is to subdue the enemy without fighting ”

quote from sun tzu, the  art  of war

in the case of reddit zen ,  its just to walk away and let them machinegun themselves, of course zombies rise from the dead . .

my OPs and posts used to get removed on r/zen to, thatʼs when i started to figure it was all crap, one of the best rules i made is never post to those hypocritical bastards again !

reddit is full of shit behavior like that, the only sane way out is to use them to your advantage . .

in the context of reddit zen and the hardcore zen blog that is just to read what is worthwhile which is basically good quotes from the records in the case of r/zen and not much at all on the hardcore zen blog, that way they work for you and punish themselves, sit back, relax and enjoy ewk and the rest fucking their brains with ill-informed nonsense !

napoleon said, when you enemy is making a mistake donʼt stop him, of course the czar of russia, alexander I, did that to him by drawing him in deeper into russia to fully meet  “ general winter ”  : o)

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muju, you criticize ewk for being wrong, why donʼt you criticize yourself for being wrong ?

muju, you criticize ewk for being wrong, why donʼt you criticize yourself for being wrong

how could writing turn out well ?

its a form of suicide !

how could writing turn out well ?

its a form of suicide

R.I.P.

he posted a lot  ?

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R.I.P.

he posted a lot  ?

R.I.P.

he posted a lot !

R.I.P.

he posted a lot

reddit is intrinsically ptsd because of anonymous downvoting and alts

that is, if you are going to post ,  you are going to get a degree of ptsd from it !

on the other side you get a huge array of compressed experience not possible to get in any other way  ?

reddit is intrinsically ptsd because of anonymous downvoting and alts

that is, if you are going to post ,  you are going to get a degree of ptsd from it !

on the other side you get a huge array of compressed experience not possible to get in any other way ?

its interesting that art of otto dix  ( war  cripples, skat  players )  was proscribed by the naziʼs as ʻdegenerateʼ despite him having fought in world war one as a machine gunner and being wounded several times

the art is in fact a form of cultural learning and transmits information from one generation to the next  .  ͟   ͟

it took another war for its realities to sink in    ̱    ̱    ̱

“ The second step in vitamin D  bioactivation ,  the formation of 1α,25-dihydroxyvitamin D  [1,25-(OH)2D]  from 25-hydroxyvitamin D, occurs under physiological conditions, mainly in the kidney ”

“ I am an LKD  (living kidney donor) ,  of two and a half years

I have been  struggling  with fatigue issues since the donation.

I am now under the care of an endocrinologist.  One of the first things she put me on was Vitamin D and B12 because, as she said  (and my bloodwork backed it up)  ‘ All LKDs are short of these vitamins ’  I mustʼve looked at her like she grew another head because she asked me, did I not know this ? . . . . . NO

Nobody ever told me, in work-up or post-donation care, that I would need to take extra vitamins that I had not needed before ”

muju, your shattered brain screams in pain

walking  ptsd  that grows as it runs towards the ever elusive what ?

muju, your shattered brain screams in pain

walking ptsd that grows as it runs towards the ever elusive what ?

recitation and not discussion  !

discussion and not recitation  !

recitation and not discussion  !

discussion and not recitation  !

recitation and not discussion !

discussion and not recitation !

recitation and not discussion

discussion and not recitation

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop oneʼs understanding

the lesson of reddit itself is that the posts flip away into nothing anyway !

at the end of the day, what are you left with ?

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop oneʼs understanding

ʼnuff said !

the lesson of reddit itself is that the posts flip away into nothing anyway !

at the end of the day, what are you left with ?

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop understanding

ʼnuff said !

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop understanding

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop oneʼs understanding

ʼnuff said !

one can argue to prove one is right or one can argue to develop oneʼs understanding

i think poems have a sense of internal placement rather like the construction and design of the german  pavilion  !

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i literally saw that poem as complete with all the spacing and the repeated verse in my mindʼs eye like a photo, from what i read, just writing the complete poem like i do is unusual . .

when you cry, no-one hears  you   e x c e p t   i n f i n i t y

when you cry, no-one hears you e x c e p t  i n f i n i t y

when you cry, no-one hears you except  i n f i n i t y

when you cry, no-one hears you except infinity

anton chekhov had chronic issues with being a selfless volunteer, a problem i share so the character of uncle  vanya  really bites !

why  “being present”  doesnʼt work is you are locked into this necessity of correction, the fools who are  “present”  are just non functional  goldfish clones . .

normality is madmen  !

what is worse is the madmen being normal  !

normality is madmen  !

what is worse is the madmen being normal  !

normality is madmen  !

what is worse is the madmen being normal

normality is madmen  !

normality is madmen  !

normality is madmen

when they have sex with some-one else, their feelings and attachments change

when you understand that, you will save yourself a lot of grief  !

when they have sex with some-one else, their feelings and attachments change

when you understand that, you will save yourself a lot of grief

when they have sex with some-one else, their feelings and attachments change

if you understand that, you will save yourself a lot of grief  !

when they have sex with some-one else, their feelings and attachments change

if you understand that, you will save yourself a lot of grief

when they have sex with some-one else, their feelings and attachments change


years and years ago  (1880)  after morning fishing a hermit named meloy rowed across lake hemlock to his hut on the west shore and was  attacked  by a bear as he neared the shore !

since he obviously lived to tell the tale he survived

the bear swamped the boat but what meloy did was repeatedly hit it over the head with an oar   ̱   ̱    ͟

he must have knocked it unconcious into the water since it drowned

he won the day and had a meat supply for several months !

of course if bears could write it would be told differently

you great  -  -  great grandmother/father was attached villainously by one of those scaby humans who intruded on his/her territory . .

he/she defended herself valiantly against a monster swinging a branch . .  how good it would have felt to have oneʼs claws rake through such puny flesh and spilling its innards into the lake where they could bleed and spill out their digesting interiors

but it was not to be and the lake has a somber mood from the injustice that blights it

donʼt you get disillusioned with it, people, the dull endlessness of it ?

donʼt you get disillusioned with it, people, the dull endlessness of it

runestones were the important memorial system in sweden and scandinavia because so many died far from home, well  travelled  is putting it mildly !

what the actor brings to the table is an integral part of the play, they are not just exchangeable ciphers, they build the play into reality  !

what the actor brings to the table is an integral part of the play, they are not just exchangeable ciphers, they build the play into reality !

what the actor brings to the table is an integral part of the play, they are not just exchangeable ciphers, they build the play into reality

plays never read well, they need to be seen as a play with actors performing !

plays never read well, they need to be seen !

arguing with muju is like a cat playing with a mouse, he goes in one direction and i swat it back in another

i take a bite occasionally but as this is a zombie mouse it doesnʼt make any difference !

ALA  (alpha-lipoic acid)  is a surprisingly chemically active substance !

it is used in several chelation protocols, perhaps the best known one is andy cutlers  “ frequent dose ”  !

having a long familiarity with  chelation  and chelators i can assure you its an unrecoverable disaster area !

the worst thing is thereʼs a lot of them hanging around on the net preaching how wonderful what they do is, only when you check back their posting over time you can see they have gone quite mad and deceitful

most likely there will be one or two here who will downvote my post because of what i had said, its that sort of mentality !

if you want to understand women, look at a womenʼs magazine  !

the next step is to believe what you see !

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if you want to understand women, look at a womenʼs magazine  !

the next step is to believe what you see !

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if you want to understand women, look at a womenʼs magazine  !

the next step is to believe what you see !

if you want to understand women, look at a womenʼs magazine !

if you want to understand women, look at a womenʼs magazine

muju  subtly  opines

iʼve just about finished reading the complete tales of chekhov, ecco edition, 13 volumes.  what have you done with your life lately ?  idiot.

my   r e p l y

iʼm not a fan of constance garnett  (ed.  the translator of the ecco edition)  !

13 volumes of her is 13 volumes of suffering so i guess you have that half of buddhism right ! : o)

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a translator is all in terms of reading the author, iʼm not jeering at her, but think her work falls way short !

she was in an area she had no talent for, happens all the time

Marcus Geduld  writes

I had an artistic Epiphany :   at the time, I was studying theatre in college.  But I kept thinking about quitting.  I knew I wanted to tell stories, but why in the theatre ?  I couldn't figure out what theatre had to offer that was special.  It seemed like a less-powerful form of film.

People would tell me that the special thing about theatre was that it involved live actors  —  that there was this give-and-take between actor and audience.  True, and maybe fulfilling to an actor, but I wanted to be a director.  I wouldn't get to partake in this communion, and so it didn't seem special enough.  I began to think seriously about becoming a movie director.

Then I saw Andre Gregory's production of  ‘ Uncle Vanya ’  (which eventually became the film,  ‘ Vanya on 42nd Street ’ )   He had been rehearsing it for five years when I saw it, and it was amazing.  It was the best Vanya Iʼd ever seen, even though he produced it as a rehearsal (actors just wearing their street clothes, beat-up furniture for sets, etc.).  The actors seemed to completely become their characters and their relationships felt more real than real life.

You had to be invited to attend, and it had been a total fluke that Iʼd gotten to see it at all  ( a friend of a friend had been invited and got sick  —  I wound up taking her place .)  But I went back the next night and begged to be allowed to see it again.  Andre Gregory took pity on me and let me in.  And what I saw changed my life.

The show was utterly different.  The actors were so comfortable in their roles that they were improvising like crazy.  They werenʼt changing the script, but they were emphasizing totally different words, giving their lines new meanings.  And they were moving to different places at different times.

One moment I'll never forget :   in the play, Sonya begs Astrov to quit drinking. He agrees and swears he will never drink again.  And, the first night I saw it, he kept his word.  At the very end of the play, Chekhov has him drink a small glass of Vodka, but up until that point, he didn't touch a drop.  The second night I saw it, he promised her he'd quit drinking and then  —  about three minutes later  —  while they were still talking, he reached for the bottle and casually poured himself another drink.  The actress playing Sonya saw it, reacted to it  ( not with lines  —  there were no lines in the play for her to use for this  —  but with her face ) ,  and it coloured their relationship for the rest of the play.   I realized that both of these interpretations were true to Chekhov's story.   The actors knew the story so well that they could slip from one true version to another.

Now I knew the difference between theatre and film.  As obvious as it is, I realized that once something has been filmed, it is always the same.  But in the theatre, a story can change every night.

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zen is one interpretation, chekhovʼs  play  is another, emily dickinson is another

what makes reddit zenners blind fools is their obsession with just zen, because of their lack of real life zen experience they have built it up into some sort of fantasy castle . .

the best protection against that sort of nuttiness is to read widely and get some decompression in solitude instead of endless posting on reddit . .

actually thatʼs what i would say to ewk and muju, like you both have been running in the same groove here for many years, at a certain point you have slipped into a rather dreary and useless insanity . .

thereʼs a young mother cat  (two kittens !)  outside the front door going meow, meow

i finally figured what she is saying

“more”    “more”

its a funny thing, but i donʼt think you need writing skills to write a poem, but it takes 20 to 30 years to learn how to write prose !

a poem

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i know people on reddit supplements like  “now foods”  but i really havenʼt liked any of their products iʼve tried !

the fillers and manufacturing quality are hugely important, i think ʻnowʼ buys the cheapest and some of their fillers make for digestive problems, and basically their stuff seemed to have  bad edges

people have different opinions, iʼm just giving my experience !

jason  w r i t e s

i guess thereʼs no real conversation on reddit zen

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to make progress in zen you have to step outside what you know into what you really donʼt know, this is way too traumatic for most !

s o   p e o p l e   j u s t   b a b b l e

jason  w r i t e s

i guess thereʼs no real conversation on reddit zen

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to make progress in zen you have to step outside what you know into what you really donʼt know, this is way too traumatic for most !

s o  p e o p l e  j u s t  b a b b l e

jason  w r i t e s

i guess thereʼs no real conversation on reddit zen

my

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to make progress in zen you have to step outside what you know into what you really donʼt know, this is way too traumatic for most !

s o p e o p l e j u s t b a b b l e

to make progress in zen you have to step outside what you know into what you really donʼt know, this is way too traumatic for most !

reddit zen is quite strongly censored, they complain about bickering but thatʼs all they permit, if you start to write sense you get hounded  !

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reddit zen is quite strongly censored, they complain about bickering but thatʼs all they permit, if you start to write sense you get hounded  !

reddit zen is quite strongly censored, they complain about bickering but thatʼs all they permit, if you start to write sense you get hounded

i posted a comment on nahm sayinʼs video  AMA

i couldnʼt write that on reddit zen, iʼd be hounded or otherwise censored

reddit zen sort of filters out any sense and all that bickering they have and complain about, well its all they really permit , the stupids !

the comment is as follows

the problem with being a monk is you will be under the discipline for most of your life by people who are clueless about zen and when you make  “ the other side ”  i.e.  are some sort of boss in the system, then you continue the same sort of farce !

i know reddit zen doesnʼt want to hear what i am saying but in terms of the  “ real zen ”  of joshu you are just wasting your time !

you can yak with people in terms of the  “ communal objective  paradigm ”  for the rest of your life and thatʼs precisely what you do !

what is the depth of life ?

the huge deep

of which

we

never

talk

we

never

walk.

what is the depth of life ?

the huge deep

of which

we

never

talk

where

we

never

walk.

what is the depth of life ?

the huge deep

of which

we

never

talk

wherein

we

walk !

what is the depth of life ?

the huge deep

of which

we

never

talk

wherein

we

walk

we are adrift forever ,  travellers on unseen tides


we are adrift ,  travellers forever on unseen tides

we are adrift forever, travellers on unseen tides

we are adrift, travellers forever on unseen tides

a reference to the high thermal conductivity of silver by titus lucretius carus !

heat seeps through silver ,  so does piercing cold

the curse of the small flies

back and forth, back and forth

day and night

 and you canʼt swat them !

: o (

the curse of the small flies

back and forth, back and forth

day and night

 and you canʼt swat them !


the ocean rolls

a wave hits the bluff

splattering homunculi everywhere

perverse turtlings they climb up the beach

noxious cartoons determined to spread themselves everywhere . .

a good  page  on the norwegian poet ,  olav håkonson hauge

i want to maintain no contact but i think if my ex doesn't reach out to me iʼll spiral

its only been four days since we broke up but it's been the longest weʼve gone without talking since we met

iʼm doing pretty well with not messaging him but i have this feeling that if he doesnʼt message me in the next month any progress i make will be gone

any tips on how to get away from this idea that he will for sure miss me/message me ?

my

r e p l y

he could have already slept with some-one else, that is the divide in the absence of children !!

our brains are designed to work a certain way, ignore at your peril !

he/she could have already slept with some-one else, that is the divide

our brains are designed to work a certain way, ignore at your peril !

he/she could have already slept with some-one else, that is the divide in the absence of children !!

he/she could have already slept with some-one else, that is the divide

space is free on the net, it doesnʼt hurt to put plenty in !

space is free on the net, it doesnʼt hurt to put plenty in

space is free on the net, doesnʼt hurt to put plenty in !

space is free on the net, doesnʼt hurt to put plenty in


solipsism versus objective communalism

solipsism says that oneself is all, objective communalism argues that there is some some true objective reality common to everybody

so reddit zen is just this endless argument as to what this objective reality is

but patriarch zen disputes the communal paradigm, i wonʼt say its totally invalid but basically reality is solipsistic !

this explains how religions and forums like reddit zen can produce what they do, contrary results from activities claiming to do otherwise . .

they reinforce an incorrect paradigm . .

the real zen is partriarch zen, but the fact is 99% of what is around is the communal conceptual paradigms

its no mystery why the world is the way it is then is it ! : o(

when i read what you wrote, its obvious the whole business was hugely traumatic and i have been in similar situations and they neednʼt be necessarily romantic ,  can be work or family or   anything   something else

but the upshot is one has been too burnt and no contact is the only way to heal !

i read your post and something ticked over in my brain, but i didnʼt have an   immediate   reply

i had to think long and hard for this reply to come  up !  :  o  )

 i wonder if  the negativity from what you describe and other   situations   significantly gone wrong life situations is so searing and without remedy it only seems like the wreckage of our lives that has to be cut away, no wonder it is so  painful

i have seen posted several times here on ex-no-contact that its the bad relationships that have ongoing trauma after breakup !

 at some point   there has been a strong rejection and invalidation of who you are !

there is an ongoing invalidation of who you really are !

its a solipsist perspective i guess   and actually doesnʼt have a lot to say about the other person being at fault !  

there is no such thing as  ‘ perfect ’  in a relationship !

: o (

and actually thereʼs no such thing as perfect  !   : o )

there is no such thing as  ‘ perfect ’  in a relationship !

: o )

and actually thereʼs no such thing as perfect  !   : o (

there is no such thing as  ‘perfect’  in a relationship !

and actually thereʼs no such thing as perfect  !   : o (

there is no such thing as  ‘perfect’  in a relationship

and actually thereʼs no such thing as perfect

there is no such thing as  ‘ perfect ’  in a relationship !

: o (

there is no such thing as  ‘ perfect ’  in a relationship !

: o )

there is no such thing as  ‘perfect’  in a relationship !

there is no such thing as  ‘perfect’  in a relationship

perfect is an illusion !

: o )(

perfect is an illusion !

perfect is an illusion

sheʼs not faithful and sheʼs a lot of work, its not a hard decision is it ?   : o ()

sheʼs not faithful and sheʼs a lot of work, its not a hard decision is it ?   : o )(

if youʼre king you get to talk to handel  A N D  even eventually have a  painting  made !

jason asks

how do you protect yourself from the sun ?

my   reply

i donʼt like the chemicals ,  just use clothing  e.g.  long sleeved shirts and hats

some sun exposure is essential for cardiovascular, anti-inflammatory and vitamin D functions so its a question of balance !

jason   replies

i know i think i've been getting too much, been going without a hat recently

while i was in the sun today, which was strong, i was exhausted

i felt much better later in the day when the sun wasnʼt as strong


alisa sadikova at age seven playing the  harp  concerto in b flat major ,  hwv 294  by george frideric handel

you can clearly hear the conceptual basis of the music, that is it is played the way the composer thought of it . .

it is handel come alive !

bento de spinoza on his   excommunication

today i am no longer a jew, how am i harmed ?


anïas nin on ewk and all of  reddit  zen actually

her words spill the anti sophisms of true zen and its masters

“ when we blindly adopt a religion, a political system, a literary dogma, we become automatons

we cease to grow ”

and for your information the literary dogma you adopt is vesting complete authenticity to doubtful or uncertain provenance of a verbal record of such and such a person and failing to disconnect the poverty of the translation from a possible full wealth of the original record ,  ie the true polysemy which is never attainable in translation !

that is people approach zen as a proxy source, real dealing is not wanted, is it muju, gonna down vote this ?

pissed your life away in proxy-ism and spit and froth in wasted energy here ?

in my view  they  have the number of stars with potentially life habitable planets at far too high a proportion

the planets need to be rocky and not gas, have a protective magnetosphere, sufficient atmospheric pressure and the other factors required to enable the  “ biosculpting ”  that has happened to create earth !

one in a million ?

when you recrunch with that number there is almost no possibility of any other technologically advanced civilization having arisen or likely to arise in the milky way, but the occurrence is a certainty in the full universe

a premise of science fiction is that technologically advanced civilizations persist, but it seems quite reasonable to suppose they will run into some sort of recursive issue like oversuccessful biological warfare that means they do not !

the number of potentially habitable planets in the milky way is the number of stars which is a hundred billion divided by one million which equals 100,000

now one hundred thousand potentially technologically advanced civilization hosting planets looks like a real number to me, that is there might be say one technologically advanced civilization occurring and of course one has occurred !

obviously what is marginally possible/probable in the milky way will be many times certain in the full universe !

burn fast, die young !

burn slow, die all the time !

: o (  ) . . .  !

burn fast, die young !

burn slow, die all the time !

: o )

burn fast, die young !

burn slow, die all the time !

burn fast, die young !

burn fast, die young

reddit  is a mimic war  consuming all your energy and for what ?

reddit  is a mimic war  consuming all your energy and for what

reddit is a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what ?

reddit is a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what

reddit becomes a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what ?

reddit becomes a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what

reddit can become a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what ?

reddit can become a mimic war consuming all your energy and for what

i think if you go into the public domain, you are always in for a fight, some-one conflicted by you and wishes you harm . .

“ being fit is a  wonderful  thing

before i turned ninety, i got severe colds every november, but now theyʼve completely stopped  —  iʼve had two in six years ”

muju, its really off-putting to have the person replying to you downvoting you ?

would you care to give an explanation of why you do it ?

so you were one of the usual three downvotes i got when posting at the end of my time of reddit zen ?

you hate ewk, but i think he was another of the downvoters as when he temporarily left the board in a huff, the downing of my posts dropped drastically !

any consistent downvoter can drive someone off a subreddit, at this point i take it that you feel discomforted by me and want me gone, is there any other conclusion ?

youʼre an ideologue, you want to impose your ideology but thatʼs certainly not what zen is about ,  real life closed and doctrinal ,  whatever you claim ,  its not going to be believed !

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muju ,  you are being evasive ,  some-one is downvoting me here and you havenʼt really denied it

i guess this is my last post here, exactly the same problem as reddit zen and its not just you and ewk by any means, even if i survive initially thereʼs always morons who have no interest in reddit zen while i'm not posting, buzz back like stupid flys to hassle me when i turn up, would happen here on ewkontherecord as well !

its just old ground i'm going through a g a i n  . .

religion, why would anybody argue over some misaligned words ?

religion, why would anybody argue over some misaligned words

why would anybody argue over some misaligned words ?

why would anybody argue over some misaligned words

why would anybody be arguing over some misaligned words ?

why would anybody be arguing over some misaligned words

no poem, nothing to write up ,  a holiday  !

: o )

no poem, nothing to write up ,  a holiday !

: o )

no poem, nothing to write up ,  a holiday  !

no poem, nothing to write up ,  a holiday !

no poem, nothing to write up ,  a holiday

yeras ago i tried to tell brad he should work in advertising, he has a talent for it and he certainly didnʼt understand zen

now heʼs done quite a good  video  to sell his new book and it all looks good

until he reads that quote from the back, its just plastic bullshit !

the marketing is much better than the writing  . .

that cover is  vintage  jonathan bergeron ! : o )

chromium burns fat, but divide the dose down, normally way too high

nutrition is such a difficult field that the best you ever get imo is one or two pieces of good advice from any one person !

you will also get bad advice !

university nutritional schools often have very misguided advice !

homeopaths are a nightmare, i honestly think the human species has mental filters to keep out effective health advice and to stop people looking straight at their own health !

supplements and diet are a very  difficult  problem and the degree of difficulty is hugely underrated !

i won the war except i  lost

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i won the war except i lost ?

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i won the war except i lost ?

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i won the war except i lost ?

i won the war except i lost


faustina, marcellus aureliusʼs wife, falsely supposing him to be on his death bed in germany suggested to avidius cassius  (in effective command of the eastern empire and a friend of marcellus and presumably marcellusʼs family)  that he assume the mantle of emperor, this suggestion avidius took up to his detriment as marcellus recovered and though he offered avidus an out, avidius couldnʼt back down and was assassinated !

aurelius had the discomfort of having his friendʼs head delivered to him in germany, he refused to look at it !

i was thinking how susceptible men are to female suggestion, often to their detriment ! : o(


why talk about painful ?

does nothing

advances nothing

except digging an

unpleasant

hole

deeper

grievances  that

never

can

be

repaired

c

r

y

o

u

t

!

why talk about painful ?

does nothing

advances nothing

except digging an

unpleasant

hole

deeper

grievances that

never

can

be

repaired

c

r

y

o

u

t

!

muju  a s k s

letʼs get out of the relative sphere of bickering and talk about the absolute

what exactly in your view is the difference between us ?

my

r e p l y

youʼve never come into contact with real zen except me, what can i say ?

you need to go to the space of your own original expression !

i would not be involved with zen at this point if not for having direct transmission from the 6th patriarch and also i have come to appreciate joshu much more who matches what is happening to me as i get older .  . celibacy, frail, the usual . .  : o)

the other thing about joshu is he was very long lived and there is this aspect of the slow development of long lived celibate zen i seem to be on track for . .

there is this different class of understanding which takes consistent work over a very long time for which one bottom line is you have to live a long time, say, unlike dogen . .

i am invited into zen as the patriarch and from that point of view thereʼs nothing more to say !

why are you involved with zen ?

no feeling for it, no invitation . .

i can walk away from zen tomorrow and it simply comes with me as no burden . .

muju  replies

why not stop there, drop all your crazed gibberish, and try to wake up to the amazing clear reality ?

my

r e p l y

why argue with some-one who speaks to your mind  “ crazed gibberish ”

oh of course you both do that and argue with ewk so iʼm guessing i am wasting my fingers : o)

see in the end we all make our own calls as to whether we are right or wrong

your problem and evidence that you are very insecure in your  “call”  is the way you feel a need to argue another viewpoint down

my   OP ,  why did you reply, like the world is going to be changed by your disagreement ?

like ewk you have a lack of original non-clichéd understanding and thatʼs where you remain, unable to move out of it !

muju, you wank before breakfast and call that raping three monks ?

all bluster, no brains !

a bitter diatribe, well its just the way i feel !

the stupidity of these people claiming to translate zen just makes one weep !

in this case brad warner had the real meaning delivered to him by a female acquaintance who spoke chinese as a first language

so the story goes gensa leaves sepphoʼs hermitage looking to find another teacher who will explain things better to him, but badly stubs his toe a little while after leaving . .

this incident makes him realise that reality is essentially solipsist . .

i.e. that he is all that is and this is the version that bradʼs chinese friend gave him

“ i am myself, no matter what other people say; they canʼt change who i am ”

which is actually a pretty good translation   ( page 84 of bradʼs  book )

bradʼs translation dripping with the usual hubric zen narcissism is   “ in the end my problem is i canʼt be fooled ”

brad makes the usual mistake perverting into the usual hagiographical way the toxic twits pervert things by implying a super smart understanding that one gains entry to and lo and behold, people like bradʼs wastrel existance is justified, they have  “the knowledge”

well brad if you know so much why did you let your publisher get away with not bearing any marketing costs, all the effort and cost being shouldered by yourself ?

not to mention your pursuing a failed and dated financial and publishing paradigm, but i digress, your ears have always been blocked, how much is your zen worth when you are so malfunctional !

like charles bukowski with wine, the big benefit is you haven't committed suicide yet !

you wonʼt even know what i talking about will you ?

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so i basically think that this so called zen that is current in the west is the continuing perversion of japanese zen ,  some sort of supposed  “esoteric”  knowledge that is cribbed to and makes one a superior person with all lifeʼs answers  ( they typically gaslight by claiming   “ imperfection ” ,  but this is the usual way of religious and actually female bullshit, throw out glitter to deflect the radar )

lapped up by dull  m o r o n s

you can test your thyroid function by putting a dab of iodine tincture or betadine/povidine on the underside of the wrist, it should give a bit of an energy boost about 6 hours later

how to describe reddit zen simply ?

its zen in the public domain coming with two built in fault lines ,  “buji”  or   ‘ do nothing zen ’  and religious or buddhist zen, both of which are proxies for the real zen !

so the way it operates is tantamount to any brethren or baptist  “schism”  endless arguments, but because reddit zen is a net operation it never moves further into the real world stage of ostracism and a new church being set up  ( rather against the spirit of  “doing nothing”  zen too ) !

thereʼs some need for it to exist so i think thereʼs no reason for it not to continue forever, endless old  “ wasted their time ”  and young hubric  “ alan watts is the one ”  ! . .

the dust is rising on reddit zen

who is going to crack first, ewk or muju ?

its like superbowl, two mongols hitting each other with sticks to the crowdʼs applause !

sorta a danteʼs hell, two fakes condemned to a hell they donʼt even know they are in, t h e  f o o l s  .  .

james  carson ,  spread too thin and not particularly talented, this is the sort of thing that charles bukowski complained about with the mass of wannabe writers . .

the piano is an outdated machine, that one would focus on it is indicative of some sort of neural miasma

huh-oh  “ survived a near-fatal car accident in siberia ”

what he does well is travel, but not an artist imo !

he's a product of university arts education, which turns out people who were only ever designed as consumers of music and writing, they come out in the case of writing courses having learnt to only like and read bad literature . .

in the case of music, they are taught to produce anti-lyrical and stuff hard on the ear . .

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he likely has a traumatic brain injury, it really fucks with things, i donʼt think george bowman ever fully recovered from his accident, he really would be the most prominent and best known zen teacher at the moment and heʼs not !

“  . . while Iʼm more or less ostracised from my own friends ”

well that can work both ways ,  distance yourself a bit, observe more and interact less . .

ed.  the tender violet deleted his  ‘exnocontact’  post, basically he was in daily contact with his ex at university, they had been broken up for five months and she has had a new boyfriend for a month but the tender violet was acting or expecting the old level of intimate dealing in public, a bit tricky for sure . .  that reversion to normal social distance necessary . .

  “ But now . . .  now things have just turned sour, I thought not being friends still meant being civil and nice when we had to see each other in uni

Sheʼs cold now . . like treats me like I'm completely invisible, doesn't look at me or talk unless I initiate . . .  and even then only curt replies if not worse . . . ”

sheʼs the one showing some sense, enforcing an appropriate social distance, i think if you give it more consideration you will develop more respect for her judgment

how many discussions revert to a subtext of one person being better than another ? !

how many discussions revert to a subtext of one person being better than another ! ?

how many discussions revert to a subtext of one person being better than another ?

how many discussions revert to a subtext of one person being better than another

to the person who is consistently and obsessively downvoting me regardless of what i post ,  have the courage of your convictions and post else not violate reddiquette about using downvotes  !

you are trying to punish me for my comment that one of the problems with health boards is that some people whose supplementation is an ill informed disaster seem to do nothing but hang on the net all day pushing their viewpoints making boards like   this  a hazard  !

donʼt you think you are proving my point ?

what good does it do you ?

knowledge, effective experience and experimenting is where its at, not downvoting contrary opinions !

my brain doth deceive me in dreams  !

my brain doth deceive me in dreams

time travel, six traditional songs from syria performed by youssef tage in a series of   recordings  believed to be made in the late 1930s through early 1940s

i was thinking  ‘ backspace and delete are a pair ’  ! : o)


i think the thing about sepehr is he never accepted that the 7th zen patriarch  blog  was for real ,  it was some sort of literary device ,  but in fact i am serious about being the 7th zen patriarch, i have had transmission which also gives permission and maybe some obligation to pick up the patriarch tab, i donʼt have to pick up the tab, the transmission has occurred for whatever reason but i guess one doesnʼt have to take the zen line further, but its something i do through the blog

the literary side, writings and poetry i donʼt care whether others like it or not, i write for myself . .

but zen involves dealing with people and hence the blog . .

one of the core notions of zen is whether you approve of someone else, like i approved of toni packer, but sepehr walked right in and assumed i approved of him which i donʼt so he never got to square one and just charged off like i viewed him as an equal . .

thereʼs an old zen saying  “ theoretically the point of a needle canʼt get past the border, in practice horses and coach drive through ”

thereʼs sort of an analogish situation in physics and astrophysics ,  “singularity”  is in fact a philosophical idea that does not represent physical reality, its simply a situation where the theory is inadequate, but the fact a situation exists implies there is some make up of horses and coaches that drive through !

the mistake of the likes of ewk and buji zen is to suppose the truth of the first part of that old zen saying and because they are not enlightened and have never done any real zen work, they imagine the 2nd part to be nonsense ! : o)(

the hard part to get is that these lazy blightened morons are the norm of life ! :o(

of course the other side of the coin is that the religious zen and buddhism build fake horses and coaches that just sit on blocks and donʼt go anywhere, easy meat for buji zen to point out !

the real horses and coaches are reviled by both sides of course !  o )

i took azithromycin just once or twice and my gut took a full month to recover, its an azilyde and not a  quinolone ,  but for sure not as benign as tetracycline !

i think i am taking the view that the  amber room  was destroyed by fire or artillery in königsberg castle at the end of world war II

we shall see !

these  polacks  and their hidden underground nazi treasures ! : o)

the problem is that the people burying/hiding the treasure know its value, they are not going to just let it rest there !

neither brains nor individuality . . .  with only their outward shape to distinguish them from sheep

lucian  describing followers of a particularly stupid cult, how like neo-advaita, zen, nonduality and actually any religion !

interestingly he was born in south east turkey  (the region of commagene in the greek and roman periods)  in the fortified town of  samosata  on the west bank of the upper euphrates  !

ewk/muju get owned by the 7th patriarch

this is like a chimerical figure, a monk who is half ewk, half muju, a form of hell for both ?

whether its half and half or how mixed up i canʼt say ! : o)

anyway, its the redoing of the joshu dialogue in the section below, i was thinking how joshu is really a poet and has that density and the translations donʼt really capture the multi layer meanings so i have re-translated it . .

the people who post on reddit zen are completely without this sensitivity and just look for literal factoids and not the moving flux that is the true zen .  .

ewk/muju ask the 7th patriarch

what is the limit ?

the 7th zen patriarch replies

hubricity is the limit

the ewk/muju chimera questions/ replies

hubricity ! ?

the 7th zen patriarch replies

yes, you never go beyond yourself

the original dialogue

a monk asked :  what is the very limit ?

joshu replied :  the very limit

the monk asked :  which very limit is it ?

joshu replied :  it is i.  you do not know how to ask

the monk said :  i am asking, arenʼt i ?

joshu replied :  where is the very limit ?

my re-translation

a monk asked  :   what is the limit ?

joshu replied  :   hubricity is the limit

the monk asked/stated/exclaimed  :   hubricity ! ?

joshu replied  :   yes, you never go beyond yourself


the madness of the amber room

don quixoteʼs imagination

it

doesnʼt

leave  much

room

for us !

the madness of the amber room

don quixoteʼs imagination

it

doesnʼt

leave  much

room

for us

i've noticed that the first night in a strange bed makes for a  restless  sleep . .

myz  a zen teacher in the new york area is claiming a significant degree of recovery from a chronic fatigue condition and is planning an active zen teaching schedule ! :o)

you canʼt tell people but she is going the route again that most likely caused the condition, shared breath with a group extremely selective for subtle health conditions and stealth viruses, not just in terms of constant immune stress but actual contagious illnesses

she hasnʼt a death wish, it would be more rational ! :o(

reddit advice can often be twisted by people in the position of dependents, really really bad advice from fuckwits who screw their lives with misperceptions !


jon  a s k s

do you think all of occult and esoteric literature to be bullshit ?

i think thereʼs some good in them it's just that theyʼre so imbibed in bullshit that maybe they're just not worth looking into

well actually i think theyʼre worth it but there's other sources more clear on the matter without all the religious jargon

iʼm sorting through it but itʼs pretty easy to tell what is shit and what isnʼt now

my

r e p l y

thatʼs a good post with intelligent questions !

“ theyʼre so imbibed in bullshit that maybe they're just not worth looking into ”

thatʼs right

johann goethe again

“ we do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds  —  our planet is the mental institution of the universe ”

occult is sorta  “normalized”  bullshit and a toxic waste of time and is where sepehr seems to have moved perhaps not so recently

the esoteric is the product of brains too fragmented to make sense of anything

before i ever got into zen, i had become familiar with  valentinus  and gnosticism, but really valentinus who is the most coherent of the gnostics is still too  “dogen like”  just a little bit  ʻsomething missingʼ  though able to offer insights

the gospel of thomas stands head and shoulders above the other gnostic bullshit

the big problem is there is so much material avaliable on the net, why waste you time working out that esoteric is confused nonsense when you can read  goethe , anna akhmatova, osip mandelstam and the 7th zen patriarch

i am glad zakaj and sepehr have both got some sort of message about where they stand and how different their approach is and finally shut up !

yeah i think you have to look at everything otherwise you make mistakes, personally i have spent quite a bit of time on gnosticism and now mani thanks to sepehr and really you are seeing the detail of what is a complete waste of time  (with the exception of the gospel of thomas)

on reddit zen they donʼt look outside zen into christian mysticism and sufi so they think zen is a  ‘be all and end all’  and not merely a quality equivalent of a problem that has taxed the best minds over the ages . .

so actually i think thatʼs where sepehr and zakaj are at, got too immersed in rubbish and they have to withdraw and turn out of that and its quite weird really, i was looking back at some earlier posts of them and they were making a lot more sense, so what i have figured is they have both deliberately tunred aside so they can proxy into these various nonsenses to avoid the change that comes to oneself with true self-enquiry

well they are welcome to do that but so far have seemed to want to burden me and my time with their requirements to be entertained and give meaning as well !

i think the goethe quote says it all and the trap is one can get caught in some sort of therapeutic role to the pyschward inmates and also in an intellectual sorting of esoteric junk ! : o ) (

if you deal with me, you are going to be written about ,  i write, what do you expect  ? !

if you deal with me, you are going to be written about ,  i write, what do you expect


common existances come into being ,  flicker ,  have some sort of intensity and then fade and disappear forever  .   ̱    ͟      all life is like this !

common existances come into being ,  flicker ,  have some sort of intensity and then fade and disappear forever  .   ̱    ͟      all life is like this

real life  prophets”  are scarce on the ground but mani and lafayette ron hubbard fit the bill

they seem to come from an extreme semantic pragmatic disorder space and really from a   “ spiritual ”  viewpoint are of no or anti-interest except as an example /to illustrate the insanity of the world !

sepehr, your interest in mani comes from your also being in that space, god help you  !  : o (

xyz ,  you may have hurt me ,  but you are such a disaster area to yourself, what can i say ?

anything you care for is going to be similarly murdered !

our brain predisposes us for everything that happens ,  failure ,  success ,  sometimes disaster after disaster !  : o (

xyz ,  you may have hurt me ,  but you are such a disaster area to yourself, what can i say ?

anything you care for is going to be similarly murdered !

where do people go wrong in zen ?

i think its because they donʼt understand the need for continual rapid progress, for which literally   “ divine help ”  is needed and fix their sights on some supposedly high plateau that once they get to, they can then rest in its benign environ, an inconsistent illusion at best  . .

the food offends the fledglings beak

johann  goethe

“ your  SO  has suffered a traumatic brain injury, their personality is changed

at what point do you say  this isn't the person i fell in love with  and break up with them ? ”

when it becomes apparent they are too different and things are not going to improve


my new reddit life pro tip, my previous one got rejected because a moderator didnʼt understand it, what i said was to find something, stop looking for it and wait until you accidently come across it ! : o )

 use a red led headlamp for after bedtime dark

it doesnʼt disrupt the circadian rhythm because the brain sees red light as dark in terms of the circadian rhythm

great for insomnia and working late as well !

also the problem with programs like f.lux is getting screens with enough only red which tends to also make the screens unreadable, it doesnʼt take much white or blue light to trigger the brain response !

f.lux has a darkroom  mode  which looks better

i almost totally avoid using the computer or any screen after a certain time at night !

if i have to use white light late at night or in the early morning hours it doesn't take long to feel really  “jangled”  by it

i have noticed lots of subtle dishonesties with brad warner and the people on his blog are bad news toxic idiots !

its the people that are drawn to him that are the most off putting  . .  !

he's working  hard  and for what ?

i can relate to that !

all the same it is depressing reading ! : o (

years ago i bought a model  6.4  solarmeter   i use it daily ! : o)

midsummer the reading here can go as high as 100iu per minute with the right clouds, which is pretty high by any standard !

what i found is that the uv is almost entirely dependent on the sun angle and clouds when acting as reflectors give up to a 20% boost ! !

the uv index is a pretty good indicator of the strength of the uv rays of interest, i favour short exposures of strong rays !

people seem to develop possibly permanent gut problems with soil based organisms as a probiotic

i have no direct experience with them, but made observations from being on health message boards for many years and seeing people talk about using them

quite a few years ago it was all the rage, but it fizzled and what i noticed was those who found benefit were those with the severest issues, but they got some benefit but never moved beyond that, still mired in chronic problems !

i think there is some research on some of those organisms being problematic, have a look and let me know if you find anything !

people seem to develop possibilty permanent gut problems with soil based probiotics  !

people seem to develop possibilty permanent gut problems with soil based probiotics


muju scores a hit on ewk !

now why was ewk so  sensitive  ?

this is like commenting on a football game, muju made a move that hit ewk real hard judging by ewkʼs response !

basically it showed up ewkʼs approach to zen which is to create some scriptural based analogue of zen like christianity does . .  its what he knows i guess and despite his endless posting he still is clueless about how real life zen works

essentially zen is all about infinities transmission which may or may not include the written and visual  .  .

but scriptures regardless of their original authenticity get degenerated by the  “pointing”  morons  .  .  guffawing and gaggling fools remain creepy monsters in the pond contaminating any reflection of the moon in its brown excrement laden waters  .  . 

its so fundamental, the jaw and  tooth  isnʼt it ?

designed to rip something apart

why do we complain when life does the same to us ?

you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again  !

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you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again  !

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you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again  !

: o (

you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again  !

yes, i was just thinking as usual !

you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again  !

you think you

have

it

all

sewn up

and

everything

falls

apart

again

april the 23rd is the four hundredth anniversary of william shakespeareʼs death, next time  (the 10th of july 2115)  it will be the five hundredth anniversary of sir henry nevilleʼs death !

i wonder if london will be under water ?

the lef  “sea-iodine”  is a kelp/seaweed product and these have issues with arsenic and indigestible polysaccharides !

also  iodine  needs to be considered in relation to your  selenium  intake

i supplement selenium and have on occasion have taken very large amounts of iodine that simply made me sleepy, so i thinks selenium has a protective effect !

the best way to supplement iodine imo is to put a povidine iodine on the toes  (betadine sore throat gargle in this case !) ,  this might sound a bit absurd, but the reasoning is the toes are as far from the thyroid as you can get on the body, so the thyroid gets the last call on the iodine . .  which in my case is what i want, i get migraine and iodine used in this way helps !

someone i know puts iodine tincture on the gums which works well for her, maybe the tincture iodine goes straight to the thyroid with the site of application being so close to it ?

in the end one has to figure what zen is about and how it fits in the scheme of things so that one doesnʼt get blinkered as to any over-sufficiency it has !

so what is zen ?

its a rich and sometimes authentic celibate historical mystical tradition

so it fits alongside christian and islamic/sufi mysticism and literary writing and poetry .  .

its one thing ,  its useful but not a be all and end all .  .

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the pantheon, fascinatingly advanced concrete construction in 120 ad !

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 the results of the  study  suggest that loss of iodine through profuse sweating may lead to iodine deficiency, and loss of electrolytes through sweating may have a dietary significance for heat-stressed individuals or for individuals who perform heavy workloads 

we lose a lot of iodine in sweat

if you are iodine deficient then you won't sweat much, its a symptom

high iodine levels will increase sweating

jason   writes

i had some chocolate with espresso beans at daveʼs house and i was wired for the rest of the day

slick, though no doubt a very common  scam ,  he took the real gold chain back with his left hand and into his left pocket, but gave a fake chain back again too quickly with the right hand

the pawn shop owner didnʼt pick that, but i think the replaced chain must have looked at bit different because his suspicions were aroused !

i was thinking that the really heavy duty work of zen is three or four hours a day of solitude/shikantanza

thatʼs what sorts the sheep from the goats !

its just not doing anything, no internet, but walking around, enjoying the night sky and fields etc, i never actually sit lotus or whatever, too tough on the joints and requires a yoga like level of attention !

  why donʼt you post on /r/zen anymore man ?  

the problem is that i was getting at least several downvotes each time i posted

my karma count is fragile !

if you have several people that want you gone on a forum you just canʼt post !

ewk only survives because of his huge initial karma, but it is slowly getting whittled down !

maybe he loses 500 a year on balance, lol he has a few years left and actually i think he is healthy for the subreddit ?

the thing about reddit is it appears to be uncensored, but thatʼs not the reality, the reality is it is and censored environments are always going to try to eliminate me !?

the censorship doesnʼt have to come from the mods at all !

why are you here ?

to enforce some personal ideology which as far as i can see is some form of borderline personality disorder ?

i am   a s k e d

a)  what supplements can you use to prevent mobilization of metals in the body, if you have mercury dental amalgam or even if not? You mentioned some that we should not take because it can cause mobilization. What are all those? I think you said MSM + ALA are 2 examples but curious on other ones to avoid

NAC is another to avoid, maybe very small quantities of MSM are ok, but NAC is completely out !

b)  do you know supplements that help grow hair for men ?  everyone says biotin but that doesn't seen to work because of its water solubility. other dht-blocking drugs like finasteride are there to block the enzyme conversion

finasteride side effects are illustrative of this problem being too hard to solve at this state of the science !

e)   .  .  we live in a confusing time of what info is good and not

time, experience, research and trying things out is the only way, humans are so full of bullshit !

the supplement world  is crazy ,  you have to be careful !

“ nobody can beat joshu, because joshu is fucking d-e-a-d ”

when you get enlightened you will have a different view of true zen masters and death !

basically in the zen pantheon he stands almost alone in authenticity and understanding !

r/zen is basically a paradigm of buji versus religious zen though to be honest i think most of the   “religious”  camp are a sort of  “faux religious”

the basic problem is the lack of real life zen experience that leaves the posters at sea as to how zen really works and has always worked which is highly authoritarian with a master  “who knows" versus the rest of the world

the reality of there being any such master who knows is exceedingly rare, once in a generation perhaps and in all the centuries of zen records there are only a few masters who know

the rest is pretence and that of course is the way of the world. . .

why people choose to waste their time in this way i do not know, but the zen records attest to the endless many who do this . .


a monk declaimed to joshu

its best to ask a question without using words

joshu replied

that sounds like the real deal

the monk said

ask me a question then

joshu replied

i'm not aware of doing otherwise


a dewdrop bright on the clothesline

with the light of the moon

it looks like a star

but its not !

a dewdrop bright on the clothesline with the light of the moon

it looks like a star

but its not !

a dewdrop bright on the clothesline with the light of the moon

it looks like a star

but its not

so many requests always from a lover ,  none when they   fall  out of love

jason posted some photographs and videos of the farm he is staying at with some very healthy looking free range   piglets  !

it seemed quite isolated and quiet and i thought how much better than a zen center it looked then i thought the answer is in the pigs, zen centers are vegetarian and raising animals for slaughter is an anathema, but the vegetarian diet keeps their brains and health screwed !

weather gifs

asperatus

tenerife

at least one person is consistently downvoting me on the supplements subreddit, they want to ruin the subreddit for others, remove any useful information so everyone is in the same toxic boat as them !

persecuting downvoting has cowardice written all over it, if they had any guts why donʼt they post ?

its information processing that brings improved supplementation, not trying to enforce some dumb ideology !


one of the problems with translations is you are not speaking directly to the author, but rather through an intermediary so the real voice of the author can pass right by you !

that is ,  to really   ‘ get ’  a poet in another language, you sort of have to be there before the poem so to speak, so you somewhat already know the   fit   of the poem

then when you read the poem you are coming from your own and the authors   ‘ interior ’  vision  !

this has happened recently to me  with  anna  akmatovaʼs  poems  ,  its like a light switch, suddenly i am consonant or identical with her interior space and she makes a lot more sense . .

its exactly the same with zen ,  ‘ enlightenment ’  is that consonance or being there in interior vision before the translation so that you can see the problems with the translations

these stupid arseholes who treat the translation as some sort of sacred ground that cannot be touched are worse than despicable . .

we lose  a lot  of iodine in sweat

if you are very iodine deficient then you won't sweat much, its a symptom

high iodine levels will increase sweating

roadkill will stay fresher longer if there's no internal breakage of the gut

how stiff the carcass is, is an indicator, fresh is quite floppy, but a carcass that has been stiff for only a little while is ok

 with your rude, aggressive, condescending attitude.  you should be banned from the sub, all you do is rant and whinge when people downvote you 

how do you think your reply comes across ! ?

why not speak to the content of what i write, successful supplementation is the result of a lot of hard work and researching, not the provenance of princesses who get their noses put out of joint without their even knowing why !