this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !


















them that will have me, do, and them that don't don't  !  :  o  . . .  . . .{  .  .  .  }  .  .
















them that will have me, do, and them that don't don't ! :o(
















them that will have me, do, and them that don't don't !
















them that will have me, do, and them that don't don't  . . . .} . . .{
















them that will have me, do, and them that don't don't  .  .  .  .  } .  .  . {
















a reddit  askdocs  questioner   asks 


i got knocked out yesterday, should i get checked out?


was at a show, dude came up behind me by accident and full on punched me in the back of the head and i still have a headache since  (this happened yesterday)


when he hit me i blacked out and saw stars and hit the ground full on


i could comprehend what was going on most of the time
just not exactly right when i got hit


my


reply


doesn't sound like an accident, weirdly same thing happened to me many moons ago, complete stranger !


there's not much you can do about it, but take it easy for a year, healing and recovering robustness is that sort of time scale !


maybe take some good quality krill/fish oil to provide EFA's for brain repair and dampen inflammation ! :o) ?


imo, MRI's cause a certain amount of  damage  from the intense magnetic and rf fields channelled into the brain and should not be done unless there are very good reasons !
















the bbc  monastery  series,  (filmed at worth abbey !)  really very good !


if you think it's not zen think again !


just a different vocabulary !


and the same fucked maladjusted lives  !  :o)  .  .   . .  }  .{  .  .  . 
















the bbc  monastery  series,  (filmed at worth abbey !)  really very good !


if you think it's not zen think again !


just a different vocabulary !


and fucked maladjusted lives  !  :o)  .  .   . .  }  .{  .  .  . 
















you poor bitter twisted fools, fucking your lives and brains on this shit you promote as passing for zen ! :o()
















zakaj  asks


Are you a messenger of Infinity?


my  reply


why are you into proxies?


it's the capacity within yourself that matters ! :o)(
















very good  lines  by sepehr g.


“ As a hand that let's go of the wilted flower


Glistening petals flying to the bright moon ”
















very good  lines  by sepehr g.


“ As a hand that lets go of the wilted flower


Glistening petals flying to the bright moon ”
















 " this new hubble image shows spiral galaxy eso 137-001, framed against a bright background as it moves through the heart of galaxy cluster abell 3627. this cluster is violently ripping the spiral’s entrails out into space, leaving bright blue streaks as telltale clues to this cosmic crime "


galaxy cluster Abell 3627  owns  spiral galaxy ESO 137-001  :o)


 " as well as the electric blue ram pressure stripping streaks seen emanating from eso 137-001, a giant gas stream can be seen extending towards the bottom of the frame, only visible in the x-ray part of the spectrum "
















high blood pressure is always a worry, it is absolutely destructive ! :o(
















hardly anyone ever gets  enlightened ,  that sort of crap is just to give the morons something to do and make them a bit less likely to want to kill the enlightened
which is the usual state of affairs ! :o)!o)
















the latest  research  seems to indicate a role for  C. perfringens  and its production of the epsilon toxin in  multiple sclerosis ,  possibly setting up in the human gut, so there may be an underlying biofilm/microbiome problem !


in this context, it is worth looking at the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate  diet  and compendium supplement program !


the older version of the diet, the scd diet is  here


you would also find the Houston  enzymes  afp pep, no fenol, zyme prime and bromelain  enzymes  useful ,  they  really  help with digestion !
















barsoap  writes


I have to bow before your  post ,  and save it for purposes of copypasta.

To use on ewk when he's got his nose too deep in his books  (again)  or such


my


reply


lol, if you can crack ewk you are a better man than me ! :o)


he wouldn't blink in front of a firing squad ! :o)


ewk's big advantage is coming from a christian background so he can compare things and that's too much of an advantage for you lot to be able to handle him !


zen and Buddhism is a small but interesting part of the mystical universe, if you have the wider perspective of the larger mystical universe then you are always going to win against the zen/buddhism blinkered !


ewk really needs to move into poetry to start to lift his horizons much further
but I don't think he will do that ! :o(


ewk if you are reading this, look at Emily Dickinson and Charles bukowski, they are more fully zen than the limited and distorted recordings we have of any zen master !


you have educated me a lot about how good some of these ancients were, any return favour is for you to pick up just like I picked up from your posting ! :o)(


posting has only one purpose, that's to improve one's understanding and you should be a different person coming out of writing a post than you went in ! :o)(


zucchinipants  replies 


...as long as the firing squad was on reddit, firing comments


easy to be stubborn when there are no tangible consequences

that's something to learn from reddit zen !


my


reply


the trick is to use places like reddit to further your own development, if people like ewk want to further your development and take no advantage to themselves well that's the way the cookie crumbles, just look to what is to your benefit and in a way with this sort of thing it's real koan work and not going in some circle of of stupid repetition !


that way you come out on top tautologically !


what cripples everyone here on reddit zen is low grade reading, so they pretty well get stuck forever in some bypass called  “ mediocre stupid ! ”  :o()


it's a wide wide world/universe, you can't hope to understand it
with blinkers called  “ zen ”  on :o)(
















stop  wanking  mate !:o(


you are just ignorant and stupid and I can tell you that without your having to see a  “ doctor ” !


“ Who says who is on the right track and who isn't? ”


ME !


i'd encourage you to shoot yourself, but hubric wankers like you spilling nothing but bullshit
think the world better for their presence ! :o(


take some doctors with you ! :o)
















sepehr g. summarizes the ending of Andrei Tarkovsky's film  “ the mirror/Zerkalo ”


let's say you're lying on bed and your memory resurfaces
and you dream of all your loved ones, your regrets, and etc.


You also get many people and their roles confused
(since retrieval of memory is not perfect).


You start getting sad and feeling remorseful, beating yourself over many events that have happened in your life  ( “ he said this! she said that! ”  “ why couldn't you have... ” ) ,  and etc.


Your dreams start overtaking you, but at the end you simultaneously accept and nullify yourself when you let go of the bird in your hand, and it flies to the wide expansive field


my


reply


you are reading viewing quality stuff like Emily Dickinson and  “ the mirror ”  and it's pulling you ahead !


that's a good bit of writing !


i'm going with the view now that it's reading this quality stuff say compared with pap shit like suzuki and watts that is really the sole divider of those who make progress and those who don't and as far as I can see those who read quality are in the .00001% area ! :o()
















“The Truth in Hypocrisy”


by


sepehr g.


The end has come. Riots in the streets, children to feed. Stray cats and dogs abound. Lifelessness in the man’s eyes overcome by fear. In the middle of it all, looking around. Not even the poetry of the Greats can soothe the confusion of what was lost


Find myself outside the Zendo.


Forgetting whether “I” have ever done Zazen or not, simply walking around the center just taking in the trees with melancholy. The voice in my head chatters in despair of what has come. Does my age, accumulated experience, or thoughts matter at this point? Trying to hear a poem to console me but only a morbid silence. Give up with the thinking and judgments of good and bad. The end of defining myself, of measuring myself, to the fiction that is no one


Without thought, automatically walk into the Zendo… Is it right to say “again” or whether I was ever here but now? Suddenly hearing the drones zoom above, knowing this may be the end, no one to speak to. Who am I to find myself here? People say they would do Zazen even to the last breath, but the echoes of my trembling joints are my only companions in here


Mind gone blank for a second, and a reformation of everything that was or will be


Legs crossed with nothing to say or think – sitting. There is no wall in front of ‘me’, there is no ‘me’ in relation to the wall, but everything paradoxically felt to have a “say”. There is no death but only a flowering End


Explosion of erect spine dismantled


A poem resounds signifying the end of Becoming :


“ From here to there,

You sought -

and fought -

Amongst the background of issuing stillness.


Lingering in the cascade of life,

the facade of such stillness  [0]

unbounds to reveal itself  []


As a hand that lets go of the wilted flower.


Glistening petals flying to the bright moon ”


Closure:


Poem  by Emily Dickinson
















the problem with fakes is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fakes  .  . .
















the problem with fakes is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fakes  .  .


v6
















the problem with fakes, is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fake . . . .


v5
















the problem with fakes, is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fakes . . . .


v4
















the problem with fakes, is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fake  !


v3
















the problem with fakes, is you can't argue with them, that's because they're fakes  !


v2
















the problem with fakes, is that you can't argue with them, that's because they are fake
















the problem with fakes, is you can't argue with them, that's because they are fake


v1
















Dark  spoken eyelashes,  hinting at more communication,  but there is less !
















Dark  spoken eyelashes, hinting at more communication, but there is less !


v2
















dark spoken eyelashes, hinting at more communication, but there is less ! ?
















dark spoken eyelashes, hinting at more communication, but there is less !
















dark spoken eyelashes, hinting at more communication, but there is less


v1
















minions    of gozer   !  : 0 )
















minions    of gozer  !  : o)(
















minions of gozer  !  : o)(
















minions of gozer ! : o)(
















I actually use a kneeling type chair at the computer and alternate between using it properly and slumping over it turned around, with my bum on the bottom platform and resting my elbows on the upper platform and leaning over it !


ungainly, but I think it works in terms of no back pain ! :o)
















if i wasn't


genuine,


people


like


youwouldn't

complain ! : o . . . { .} . {}.!














   

timdavid  posts  on reddit


thoughts on my strange experience ?


i was lying in bed thinking about the future, everything i desire, etc. i started to focus on how much i wanted things, feeling the desire burn through me. then i had a thought/feeling: what if i already have it all? i breathed deeply and basically meditated on that question. what if i already have it all?


i felt as though a wave was taking me away. for a moment, my consciousness completely shifted and it felt like something was consuming me. it was when i honestly felt like i was about to die when it stopped. it was probably one of the most frightening moments i've experienced


i don't know if any of this even makes sense but it's hard to put into words. and now i regret even writing about this because i think i complicated it too much. oh well.


my


reply


do you take drugs?  on medications?  why are you so messed up, what you wrote is the most obscene putrefying thing I have ever read because it is sewage filthy !


it's honestly as sick, like mujushinkyo and dharmabumzz are sick with their stupid pretend enlightenment and your pretend satori !


I can't state it strongly enough ,  you have built something really weird and insane, not even voynich, something sicker than that !


you are exactly the sort of toxic monk who tells the master how it is in the old stories !


making fairy tales is such an intrinsic part of your being you can't even tell that you are doing the process, it is quite opaque to you !


you can't do it of course, but you have to go right back and completely rework everything you think you understand so that such movements pick you up and leave you on the right road !


you are a turd rolling in a sewer and no doubt will move further into the toxic space that reddit zen specializes in ! :o(


no doubt you will be offended and what I have just said totally beyond you, but actually just writing this I can see how the perversion of mujushinkyo and dharmbumzz comes into being and sustains themselves in such atoxic wacked out space !


crazy


crazy


crazy.............


actually the more i think about it, the more i can see where you are going wrong, you are trying to graft something on that has to happen in childhood, only if you have that background of childhood experience can it develop in a fruitful way the way...............


you have synthesized something from the usual reading of zen populist crap and ended up with a fetid abortion and this is your life man !


you you would be better advised (ha ! your arrogance prevents you from taking what i say seriously) to look more closely at this corrupt process you have been embarking on and unstitch it ! :o(


i am not tying to persuade you of anything.


like mujushinkyo and dharmabumzz you are your own toxic doom and who am i to stop it and think things should be any other way ! ?


------------------------------


basically what you have done is mix the genuine with the insanely fabricated in a way that is really repulsive ! :o()


--------------


you haven't had any genuine insight you fraudulent fucker !


yeah, i am really enlightened and not a crap artist like yourself ! :o(


if you had a genuine experience and not some macdonald's version you would be able to address what I say, as it is you just cry  “ mommy ”  and are stuck in a child's egocentricity !


genuine contact with infinity   opens up our closed areas and understanding,   not reverse it, which is what has happened in your case !
















you  (ed.  zakaj !)  seem afraid to use your own reasoning process, perhaps because it leads to very strange places by the views/lights of normative reality !


infinity says your wife, friends and family don't exist and  “crowd mind/minds”  are perverted and stupid ! :o(
















you seem afraid to use your own reasoning process, perhaps because it leads to very strange places by the views/lights of normative reality !


infinity says your wife, friends and family don't exist and  “crowd mind/minds”  are perverted and stupid ! :o(
















do I really want to discuss anything with you  (ed.dharmabumzz)  or reddit zen ! :o)(


like ET    I  am going back  home


“ so long and thanks for the fish ! ”  :o)
















reply  to a reddit  questioner


tolle is better than the usual, but  monistic  and monism is wrong !


you are doing the usual trick of acting as a high priest and selling your bible and prophet  ( tolle and  the power of now  in this case )


and actually to be fair to tolle I feel he would ask you to drop that and deal directly with your own experience and not parley through him ! :o)(


--------------


what I am saying is you and the original poster are immersed in bullshit, engaged in  “ selling ”  it,  so why shouldn't I call you on the con you are perpetuating ,  namely that there is any sort of mystical validity to what you regard as true ! :o(
















“ your website advocating your bcd diet and your compendium seem to be researched with reference to journal articles, and it is obvious that you believe in good nutrition. however, you are somewhat critical of vaccination, and seem to hold negative views of contemporary medicine ”


my


reply


it's not critical of vaccination per se, it's just the very unresearched nature of the vaccines and schedules and lack of male/female and age differentiation in vaccine design !


it's chronically underfunded from a research point of view ,  it really has to be a governmental responsibility !


the downside of this lack of research is of course a degree of vaccine injury that is not acceptable !


people don't realize way way more money has gone into heart/cardiovascular and aids research,  ( and wars !!!)  yet the effectiveness and ability to limit the damage of childhood vaccinations is what our futures are built on ! :o)


I have even seen adults damaged by travel vaccines !


so my beef with vaccines is more an issue of successful implementation and the need for lower damage rates which is really a question of vastly increased governmental research funding !


--------------


lol  good nutrition  is a bit of a   “ fata morgana ”  these days ! :o)


--------------


i'm not negative on medicine, just horses for courses and the  BCD  program is all about avoiding the need for involvement in the medical system !


it's a very obvious attitude on askdocs of course, where people take no personal responsibility for health and proxy it all to those wonderful doctors who most of whom can afford for their wives not to work and cook good home meals etc and look after them :o) !


i'm going to say something not that palatable, but it's really that askdocs questioners come from a background of very poor personal health care that in fact doctors themselves do not share , and have a childlike faith in medicine that again that doctors do not share !


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the   BCD  is the outgrowth of my own working on digestive issues and it's also a development of the  SCD  diet, unfortunately Elaine gottschall who developed the scd diet is no longer with us, so the bcd to a certain extent picks up and modernizes where she left off with the important notions of gut microbiome and biofilm, which were really her idea actually, but she died in 2005 ! :o(


I do notice that a lot of askdocs questioners have issues that are well targeted by the BCD and SCD and in fact diet is one area the medicine is very inverted on, frankly diet is so time intensive it does not pay for them to give it adequate attention !


the scd diet was actually taken and and butchered down shall we say to become the gfcf diet !


all the work I do is strictly voluntary and unpaid !
















why discos, clubs and night concerts  cause  more hearing damage than loud noise during the day !


low brain-derived neurotrophic factor !
















a very good hannah arendt  interview  !
















zen is not getting rid of attachments,  but understanding how the process  blinkers  us !


monks, those uniformed baldheads have huge issues with getting attached to their various forms of clothing and services etc, they might as well knit ! :o(
















zen is not getting rid of attachments, but understanding how the process  blinkers  us !


monks, those uniformed baldheads have huge issues with getting attached to their various forms of clothing and services etc, they might as well knit ! :o(
















you are too hostile to people trying to help you !


not life smart ! :o(


but we already know that don't we ! :o(
















you are too hostile to people trying to help you !


not life smart ! :o(


but we already know that don't we !
















you are too hostile to people trying to help you !


not life smart ! :o(
















well there's quite a big gap between stupid and  “ almost stupid ”


I certainly aim for the latter ! :o)
















well there's quite a big gap between stupid and  “ almost stupid ” ,  I certainly aim for the latter ! :o)
















“ zen logic :   ocean laps the shoreline, diver hides a pearl ”


ocean laps the hairline, diver gets the bends ! :o()
















“ ocean laps the shoreline, diver hides a pearl ”


ocean laps the hairline, diver gets the bends ! :o()
















“ ocean laps the shoreline, diver hides a pearl ”


ocean laps the hairline, diver gets the bends !
















“ no order or disorder ”


ordered and disordered !
















zen physics for ewk  !     hyperuniformity  !


“ states of disordered  hyperuniformity  behave like crystal and liquid states of matter, exhibiting order over large distances and disorder over small distances


like crystals, these states greatly suppress variations in the density of particles   —   as in the individual granules of a substance   —   across large spatial distances so that the arrangement is highly uniform


at the same time, disordered hyperuniform systems are similar to liquids in that they have the same physical properties in all directions !


[...]  while individual cones of the same type appear to be unconnected, they are actually subtly linked by exclusion regions, which they use to self-organize into patterns


multi-hyperuniformity is crucial for the avian system to evenly sample incoming light ”


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if you look at the pattern of our lives, they are disordered in the immediate, but ordered over some very consistent patterns in the long term !


it is actually an implementation of   “ avoiding picking and choosing ”   in that the mutual exclusion zones of the cones are preferentially aligned in terms of a bias in favour of  “ not self ”  against self


enlightenment is a further bias than the normal  “ hyperuniformity ”  into what is not ourselves and gives the magically clear and transparent sight characteristic of those greats  (minds)  who manage to transcend our usual vortextual attraction into our own world of familiarity.......
















“ ummon said,  ‘ the real emptiness does not destroy things,
the real emptiness is not different from materiality ’ ”


nup, he never said that, misrecorded !


that is monism and an anti-enlightened stance !
















man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than empty illusions !
















man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusion !


man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than empty illusions !
















man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusion !


man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than illusions !
















man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusion !


“ man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusions ! ”
















when a man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusion !


“ when a man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusions ! ”
















some of my reddit replies to the   “antis”  :o)(


“ Don't pity the sweet Patriarch


Who thinks himself a psychiatrist


All that he really needs


Is just one cosmic sex-tryst


Sorry, my downvoted one! ”


d e n  I  a l I st !


zen is a celibate tradition b. t. w ! :o()


f o r a r e a s o n !


______________


not a bad poem btw,  (ed. dharmabumzz)  if somewhat wrong minded ! :o)(


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oh great poohbah of the  “ this is that and this is not that ”  !


it follows from their being no self that there are no people, so how could the  (story character !)  of bodhidharma have transmitted anything to Charles the chink  ( harry the huike ! )  :o)(


“ when a man takes illusions as reality yet he is no more than an illusions ! ”  :o)(


--------------------------------


at least you are only a serial killer of sense ! :o(
















anything that is very seductive, is also very awful !
















anything that is very seductive, is also very awful 3  : 00
















“ there are chords in the hearts of the most reckless which cannot be touched without emotion. even to the utterly lost, to whom life and death are equally jests, there are matters of which no jest can be made ”


ed.  quote from the Masque of the Red Death by edgar allen poe !


lol, life and death are jests, that's not to say we always find them funny ! : o { . ' } ' . } .}
















defeating an infection is a combination of the bodies immune response as well as the antibiotic effectiveness !
















“ i'm 41 year old female, bp is 125/75, weight abut 78kg, 158cm tall.  problems in past with high cholesterol and bp.  is this bp okay? ”


if you had been resting for a while before your BP was taken, imo the 125 is a bit high !


( ed.  her comment  :  yes, resting for about 30mins.  it's shocking when i exercise ! )


any amount of exercise before blood pressure is taken really shoots it up tho !


disclaimer : I have a disgustingly good sorta 90/63 :o)


must be all the cream I eat ! :o)


well I take fish and krill oil as well ! :o)(


interestingly, if you have large difference of blood pressure between the arms,
it's a very significant   indicator  of problems !


“ if there was a difference of at least 10 mm hg in the systolic blood pressure readings between the two arms, it indicated the likelihood of a blocked artery


a difference of 15 mm hg or more was linked to an increased risk of peripheral vascular disease, or the narrowing arteries supplying the arms and legs,
and the development of cardiovascular disease


there is also an increased risk of developing peripheral vascular with a difference of 10 mm hg or higher 


many patients who had developed peripheral vascular disease suffered reduced blood flow to the legs and feet 


the risk of decreased blood flow to the brain was increased  1.6  times.


a significant difference in blood pressure was associated with a  70%  increased risk of dying from cardiovascular disease and a  60%  increased risk of death from any cause


it didn’t matter which arm had the higher or lower blood pressure ”
















it's more to do with a repeating image concatenated to meaninglessness


“ that's like saying a field of wheat is meaningless


the  photo  can't be that meaningless  - -  it made for a striking picture! ”


yeah it's the essence of meaningless ! :o)
















yeah it's the essence of  meaningless  ! :o)
















yeah it's the essence of meaningless ! :o)
















those who  blather  about wisdom are dumb !
















“ those who talk about wisdom are dumb ! ”
















those who talk about wisdom are dumb !
















what is the meaning of meaningless ?.. ! . }


v3
















what is the meaning of meaningless ? !


v2
















what is the meaning of meaningless ?
















what is the meaning of meaningless


v1
















buddhism,  not zen  for  ewk !


i have seen this pic several times, but now/this time it just clicked how  mistaken  it was !


it's to do with a repeating image concatenated to meaninglessness


part of an interesting larger  collection  !
















“ he who holds the most


holds nothing ”


he who holds the toast


avoids the jam !
















peter wasn't a wise rabbit  !  : o)  hoppity hoppity  !  :o)
















pweter wasn't a wise rabbit  !  : o)  hoppity hoppity  !  :o)
















pweter wasn't a wise rabbit  !  : o)  hoppity hoppity  !  :o)
















peter wasn't a wise rabbit ! : o) hoppity hoppity ! :o)
















if you lose it,  (ed.  enlightenment! )  you never found it  !  :o()
















if you lose it,  (ed.  enlightenment! )  you never found it ! :o()
















if you lose it, you never found it ! :o()
















people are trouble, and nutty : o)(.  .  } .  .  {


they


are


best


avoided


! :


o )  ( .  .  } .  .  {
















people are trouble,  and nutty : o)(.  .  } .  .  {
















people are trouble,  best avoided !
















people are trouble,  best avoided  !  : o (
















people are trouble, best avoided ! :o(
















I find people trouble, best avoided ! :o(
















the flowing river is closing over my head and you ask what to do?


enlightenment is beyond you,  just pass the time...............
















lin chi on his death bed  said


being carried away by the endlessly flowing stream, you ask what to do

achieve real infinite illumination, is my answer

however, to be free from forms and names is not innate in man

even the sharpest sword must be constantly resharpened


my


reply


it's funny how there's all this good zen around, yet when I was in zen we only had dogen voynich or any other voynich rammed down our throats !


this is simple and to the point, quite understandable,
yet never to cross a zen master's sermonizing ! :o(


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the flowing river is closing over my head and you ask what to do?


enlightenment is beyond you,  just pass the time...............


clickstation  asks 


are you saying I have no control of enlightenment
including whether or not i can  “ lose ”  it?


my


reply


it's more a question of recognizing something,
once you recognize it you don't forget it...........


that's actually a pretty good question !


clickstation  asks


but we forget things all the time!  remembering = (re)cognizing in the first place..  i don't see why recognizing necessarily means no forgetting ;)


my


reply


it's the beauty   of what you recognize !
















breaking  a new cfl  is not good because the phosphor in old lamps soaks up the mercury !


the basic problem is if you have any liquid mercury around and it is evaporating into the air that is then breathed !


i had a similar thing happen to me once ,  i just opened all the doors and windows to get a breeze blowing through and vacuumed and then disposed of the vacuum paper bag outside !


i did make sure the bag was almost full before vacuuming tho, to help absorb any mercury !
















kogen,  if you don't want to be hurt from being  criticised  either get a thicker hide or do what the rest of the zen fakes do and only post on censored blogs and boards and that way you can live forever just pretending to yourself !


way to go man ! :o)


the real zen takes hurt and utilizes it just in case you were wondering
what the fake wasn't which you aren't ! :o)


so pick up the ball and reply in a reasonable and nonthreatening manner ! :o)


just do what a real zen master would do !


they didn't fist fight those obnoxious monks but attempted to impart a little sanity into their lives


don't


say


i

didn't


try


with


you

!

:


o


)


(
















dogen wasn't well rounded at all, open your eyes,  he was a nut  ! :o(
















dogen wasn't well rounded at all, open your eyes, he was a nut ! :o(
















when I read this  crap  I know there's something really wrong with your brain kogen !


seriously !


neurologically !


kogen gets  irritated  ! :o)


but now I promise it; I'd punch you in the mouth if you weren't autistic. Really, that's all that's left between you and me.


my  reply


lol,  I will slit your gut ,  pull your intestine out and crack your skull and put your intestine in to fill the empty space you have there ! :o)


see how you react when you are shown in a way you can't deny that
you are pretending to do  what zen is about ! :o(


if you were real about it you would be able to handle what i say !


god, all your fake bowing shit and  “compassion”  not worth a shit is it !


at least your reply this time was the real you ! borderline schizophrenic/personality disorder/semantic pragmatic disorder and not so borderline autistic spectrum !


l o v e l y


those monks who wanted to kill the sixth patriarch, are you them or the sixth patriarch !?


and don't blame me for your marital, personal and poorliving condition problems at green gulch


the san francisco zen centers are screwed and anything to do with them is going to blow apart, like whose fault is that !?


kogen  replies


if you were real, i'd know where you live
you can find me anywhere on the temple grounds  (ed. green gulch!)
you are invited


my


reply


meet me on Mount  Tamalpais  at midnight ! :o)


any


day


i'm


there


all


the


time


!

:


o


)


(
















katagiri roshi was another fake zen non-celibate womanizer
















katagiri roshi was another fake zen non-celibate womanizer !
















katagiri roshi was another fake zen non-celibate womanizer
















meditation simply means reflection or contemplation ! ?


where do people get any more ?


postures, methods


it


flushes


out


the


crazies !

:


o


(


)
















there is no I/person that meditates !
















meditation simply means reflection or contemplation ! ?


where do people get any more ?


postures, methods


it


flushes


out


the


crazies !

:


o


(


)
















ju-ching was one of the great enlightened  masters  ewk,  it's dogen who wasn't ! :o(


go figure !


ewk  replies 


It's Tsung-tse that is Dogen's real teacher


my  reply


yeah two schizophrenics ! :o)(


you make the third


and


I


make


the fourth ! :o()
















ju-ching was one of the great enlightened  masters ,  it's dogen who wasn't ! :o(


go figure !
















ju-ching was one of the great enlightened  masters ,  it's dogen who wasn't ! :o(


go


figure !
















imo atheism is actually another form of religious belief !


“ how is atheism a belief?  what belief is there?  is off a tv channel as well? ”


it's a disbelief in a certain type of god  and doesn't ask what god is
which is actually not really answerable !


in practical terms atheism is human worshipping/humanistic !


thewhitenoise  replies quoting  me


“ it's a disbelief in a certain type of god ”


no, it's a lack of belief in the god hypothesis


“ doesn't ask what god is, which is actually not really answerable ! ”


this makes no sense. if you can't define god, then how can anyone believe in one?


“ in practical terms atheism is human worshipping/humanistic ! ”


no, it's really not. it simply means you're not a theist
it has nothing to do with worshipping other things.


my


reply


yeah but what is god?


not answerable means it's a process rather than object, something may be definable in part and not completely


a lack of definability and the erosion of boundaries is itself a sort of definability and  ( accretion ! )  of boundaries !


and  it's  N O T  : o ) !

:


o


(


)


thewhitenoise  replies 


what is a flingamonga? well it's not your job to give a definition for my hypothesis, so why should i be the one who has to give one for yours?


my


reply


a flingamonga is a piker  !  flingamonger !


I ask again,  “ what is god ”  !?
















imo atheism is actually another form of religious belief !


“ how is atheism a belief?  what belief is there?  is off a tv channel as well? ”


it's a disbelief in a certain type of god  and doesn't ask what god is
which is actually not really answerable !


in practical terms atheism is human worshipping/humanistic !


thewhitenoise  replies quoting  me


“ it's a disbelief in a certain type of god ”


no, it's a lack of belief in the god hypothesis


“ doesn't ask what god is, which is actually not really answerable ! ”


this makes no sense. if you can't define god, then how can anyone believe in one?


“ in practical terms atheism is human worshipping/humanistic ! ”


no, it's really not. it simply means you're not a theist
it has nothing to do with worshipping other things.


my


reply


yeah but what is god?


not answerable means it's a process rather than object, something may be definable in part and not completely


a lack of definability and the erosion of boundaries is itself a sort of definability and  ( accretion ! )  of boundaries !


and  it's  N O T  : o ) !

:


o


(


)
















imo atheism is actually another form of religious belief !


“ how is atheism a belief?  what belief is there?  is off a tv channel as well? ”


it's a disbelief in a certain type of god  and doesn't ask what god is
which is actually not really answerable !


in practical terms atheism is human worshipping/humanistic !
















maybe you misunderstand satire as sarcasm, it's not !


v2
















maybe you misunderstand satire as sarcasm, it's not


v1
















satire, humor and scepticism make a serious discussion shine !


v2
















satire, humor and scepticism make a  serious discussion shine
















satire, humor and scepticism make  a serious discussion  shine
















satire, humor and scepticism make a serious discussion shine


v1
















serious discussions, why would satire, humour and scepticism be excluded ?


audio
















serious discussions take their weight from being serious
and in no way preclude satire or humour !


v3
















serious discussions take their weight from being serious
in no way preclude humour or satire !


v2
















serious discussions take their weight from being serious
and in no way preclude humour or satire
















serious discussions take their weight from being serious
and in no way preclude satire or humour


v1
















satire enhances, not deprecates  a serious discussion ! .


v3
















satire enhances, not deprecates a serious discussion !


v2
















satire enhances, not deprecates a serious discussion


v1
















 "contraste de formes" by fernand léger


that rare thing,  a  fake  better than the originals !
















a cold mountain poem by han shan, number 6,  translated  by gary synder


men ask the way to cold mountain


cold mountain  :  there's no through trail


in summer, ice doesn't melt


the rising sun blurs in swirling fog


how did i make it?


my heart's not the same as yours


if your heart was like mine


you'd get it and be right here
















That's really quite  interesting  !


That's actually sorta remarkable if it is a biofilm, the anthocyanins in the blueberries could have helped detach it from the stomach wall, a good thing !


acid reflux is usually a symptom of a bioflm/microbiome condition !


you might like to look at the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate  writings
and compendium supplement program !


the older version of the diet, the scd diet is  here


it pays to lightly cook the blueberries, maybe simmer for a minute or two
to kill the yeast on the skin !
















the problem with tanning beds is they are designed to tan and not make vitamin D


what you want from a health point of view is not to tan and make vitamin D !


so I build my own broadband uvb  lamp  which wasn't difficult !


it definitely does something that vitamin D supplementation alone doesn't do !


dr. micheal holick on vitamin D   deficiency


I think there are solarium beds specifically designed to give vitamin D,
where they would be I don't know


in fact I feel my homebuilt lamp is the best solution, the ideal solarium would have UVB for the vitamin D, a minimal amount of UVA and strong amounts of infra red and the colour red, but this doesn't exist yet !


--------------


what you want to avoid is high UVA tanning beds because that is more dangerous than sunlight


the other thing is you do not want to tan, tanning reflects skin damage and reduces the amount of vitamin D made !


this simple factor has made the whole tanning bed business a nightmare ! :o)(
















imo atheism is actually another form of religious belief !
















but you have to go through that to make any  sense  of what zen is about !


everyone just plasters zen master this and that to separate themselves from that quote, so it never happens !


if you read some of these old masters, this is what they are saying !


I think this is why dogen is such a bad influence, he provides a superstructure of seeming sense that is in fact nonsense that you can just play like a rubik cube for the rest of your life with similar results !


it was not until dogen was faced with death himself that the penny really started to drop !
















been on reddit zen about 3 mths?


i'm actually in Australia  (ex new Zealander)  and sorta in the hermit monk ascetic area ! :o)


don't even drink tea or coffee but catch and gut wallabies with my bare hands and eat them raw :o)


that's the sort of background one needs to cope with reddit zen ! :o)
















pen-chi  of  ts'ao-shan


questions  and   answers


yün-men asked :  “ if a person who is difficult to change should come to you, would you receive him? ”


the master answered :  “ ts'ao-shan has no such leisure ”


a monk said :  “ your disciple is sick all over. please cure me ”


the master said :  “ i shall not cure you ”


the monk said :  “ why don't you cure me? ”


the master said :  “ so that you neither live nor die ”
















it's like ballet dancers getting crippled feet and  footballers  getting cumulative brain damage from a series of concussions, nobody wants to know including the injured people themselves, we are a great species at pretending ! :o()


“ importantly, this study moves us away from the singular focus that repetitive concussive brain injuries ultimately lead to chronic traumatic encephalopathy to the premise that such injuries can elicit pituitary dysfunction and metabolic syndrome that may be significant contributors to a poor quality of life in a subset of professional athletes ”
















lol, religion is for people with  mental  health issues ! :o()


schizophrenia, morbid depression, autism, aspergers, one hardly knows where to start ! :o()
















despite what you imagine,  your façade is all cracked  !  :o)(
















despite what you imagine, your  façade  is all cracked ! :o)(
















despite what you imagine, your façade is all cracked ! :o)(
















despite what you imagine, your façade is all cracked
















the sun  tones down the autoimmune response, we are evolutionarily designed to  need  it !
















good quote from this  page  !


“ For the first time, I could observe my pain and grief


I felt a tear fall.


Then something broke, and I couldn’t stop sobbing.


I found myself in a terrain where I had always wanted to be, but never had a map.


I found myself in the inner landscape, and now I had some direction ”


like there's something real,  not the  endless masturbating  on reddit zen ! :o)(
















you wouldn't be using words to say what you said would you !?


( ed.  the usual  “you are stuck in words”  counterclaim bullshit )


god the retards  here  !


it's amazing, you claim to be interested in zen, but you reject that  NOT  “ picking and choosing ”  which is simply being prepared to go into areas we are not comfortable in, is instrumental


this    not picking and choosing    is instrumental across any real form of mysticism !


you just cling to your comfort zone and claim this somehow is zen !


that's reddit zen I guess, one vast comfort zone cling ! :o(
















there's a reasonable amount of  chromium  in beer and drinking beer adds a significant amount of chromium to the diet !
















ever read  “ catcher in the rye ”  ?


it's basically about the depressive behavior of helping idiots ! ! :o()
















a hating unkindness mediation


fuck zen, fuck the patriarchs and may all burn forever in any sort of hell
(one isn't fussy how they go !)
















the translation of the shobogenzo by mike  cross  and guido nishijima was in reality mostly by mike cross


he is really pissed off by his zen experience and says this


“ i regret the years i spent, before i came across the teaching of fm alexander, reading and translating zen philosophy about mirrors and tiles, without understanding what the dichotomy meant in actual sitting practice ”


well the consensus of people who knew the situation is it is mostly mike cross's !


nishijima's English is/was very very poor !


they were both crazy of course devoting so much of their life to translating rubbish ! :o(


mike's view now is he should have never got involved in zen  (despite getting/receiving and giving transmission)  and that nishijima really screwed him up ,  brad warner also was hugely damaged imo !


zen brings people into it who can't bear the weight of what it is really about!


i relate to f m alexander, not because of his calisthenics system, but because i have walked on the farm and cliffs and over fossil bluff which is where he was brought up, and table cape is a lovely area !
















leys   walk
















humans do the  same  ! : o ( .  .  { . }
















humans do the  same  ! : o (.  .  { . }
















humans do the  same  ! :o(.  .  { . }
















“ how do you tell if you are enlightened? ”


you have   this


 jacob's dream by william blake


--------------


yeah William blake was enlightened !


it's the continual motion of the angels ascending and descending that is a/the key ! :o). . { ,}
















“ I've looked enough. I will enjoy your jazz  hands  when I see them, though, so thanks for that :) ”


I have never looked enough, but then that's enlightenment ! :o) . , :{ .  . }
















honestly if yoda was zen why would one waste time doing anything except becoming a wealthy film maker ! :o)


you could be enlightened, famous and very wealthy, way beats the usual zen life ! :o(
















the eye can look at itself ! :o)(
















the eye can look at itself !
















the eye can look at itself
















nemonomen  writes


hi all, i found this poem by ikkyū sōjun in an italian edition of a selection of poems from his  “ crazy cloud ”  anthology

i couldn't find its english translation, and since i needed some opinions about the poem's content i translated it myself  (quite roughly... sorry!):


for the monks in their last hour


when the demon of death

murderer will be in front of you,

who will you ask

the ultimate question to?

you are pressed by a thousand matters,

haunted by every kind of desire,

try closing the windows of the senses,

but the winds of the world blow through them

and keep opening them.


the point that struck me is  “ who will you ask the ultimate question to? ”  i think this is formulated in such a way that it may as well be the ultimate question itself, having the same meaning of several koans pointing to the buddha-nature


that would give something like a recursive taste to the poem... what is your opinion about ikkyū's ultimate question?


my


reply


death is no demon and I am the murderer, ultimate questions, I passed long ago


desire is as it is and I blew out/the wind lifted me out windows long ago


I


am


open


to


death and


death


is


open to


me
















“ how can an observer observe himself? ”


in that case, how can I observe you ?
















there is no sense of helping or having to help others at all in zen !


i'm not saying it doesn't occur, but this is the meaning of "there are no teachers in zen !"
















it's almost total  nonsense ,  some combination of a bad translation
and shockingly inaccurate transcription no doubt !


you are not enlightened, have an opposite understanding
and why do you inflict this shit on the world


that's  what yun men really said !


you just don't do any work except posture, I can see things never change ! :o(


reddit twits or the monks in yunmen's assembly ! :o(
















over the last several/few ? days i have been eating quite a large quantity of shiitake mushrooms and been getting quite a consistent feeling of intestinal cramping/unpleasantness lasting about four hours.............. :o(


  surprise  !


yeah, i think my heart rate had definitely increased !


maybe not so sure about that !


how old/size the shiitake mushrooms are has a big impact on their toxin levels imo,
rather like field mushrooms !


also the time of year grown may have an impact, mid, late summer being bad ? here in tasmania ?


broths with water from cooking the shiitakes is/are ok i think ! :o)
















an interesting  rendition  of the magic flute by lotte  reiniger


it's funny, when i look at that, i think of all the murder and chaos to follow !
















an interesting  rendition  of the magic flute by lotte  reiniger
















oddly enough even the springwater center which supposedly broke away from zen
still had a fascist streak whereas the Korean kwan um center's didn't
















dharmabumzz  asks


you didn't answer my question. when do you think you determined that a quote could show someone was enlightened?  if that's too personal, i understand, but damn that's interesting.

edit: i mean, was it when you read that poem, or another one? if it was while reading a text, which one was it?


my


reply


it's more that your question comes from a fragmented space that just doesn't yield for either both the expression of the question or any sort of answer !


my view of dogen is probably twenty years work, he's an absolutely fascinating example of scripting and semantic pragmatic disorder...............


once you see the scripting you see he's really on shaky ground..........


but on the other hand there is something to him and very occasionally one comes across writing/quotes of his that are so bang on it's astounding, almost like it's written by a completely different person !


so this actually raises the issue of what dogen wrote himself and what was recorded as transcribers can rewrite what they regard as incomprehensible and a mistake into what they regard as comprehensible and correct/the truth, but you have completely lost what was said originally !
















enlightenment is a disjunctively different viewpoint about the true nature of reality and for that to happen you have to be infilled by infinity since the knowledge is not within our power !


so my re translation of one of dogen's last  poems
(he died twenty three days later in late august)  is


how distant my life


below the snow line


now I am lost


diffused into the clouds


of


kinome


pass !




that is truly infilled !


it's the infilling that is true, you cannot fake it !
















eihei dogen was a crazy mixed up guy and it took the approaching death from tuberculosis to straighten him out into real mysticism !
















“ there is a famous japanese saying that goes,  ‘ rinzai for the shogun and the samurai, soto for the farmers ’ ”


soto zen existed way before  reformed rinzai under hakuin ekaku and drew it's support from the ruling class in Kyoto and dogen himself was the illegitimate son of a prime minister !


it's quite interesting to read dogen's accounts of his travels in china, he was obviously treated as upper class with the emperor of china himself personally answering a petition dogen made about his unordained status in china !  (lol, not a favourable reply !)


things don't change from their origins and I distrust that saying you quote  (the quote is prior to hakuin's reformation of rinzai?)  as I don't think hakuin was enamoured of the military and his dealing were with villagers, who knows it may have been the non conformist elements in the samurais who were a very rough and non homogenous bunch, basically licensed brigands :o)


because japan was up until the nineteenth century a feudal society the fact is that any religion is going to reflect the power structure which was oriented around warlords and their armies so both soto and rinzai are going to reflect that and with the modernization of japan in the meiji era, they simply moved their ideologies into continuing support for militant nationalism !


the test of soto is the way the doctrine is configured which punitively imposes blind obedience and being uninformed compared to hakuin/rinzai
which at least as far as/from hakuin's point of view is totally open !


soto was essentially a propaganda arm for nationalist government from the meiji era, that includes the occupation of korea and that's not mild conformance, but the total promotion of militarism and given its doctrinal basis and approach
one can see how easily it was able to glide into this !


why I am interested is that the soto zen in west appears particularly toxic giving rise to ignorant twits like yourself rigid past the point of stupidity and soooo bloody dumb !


this is I feel is due to the malfeasance of the engraving of zazen without adequate reading and broad knowledge, in short the product is ignorant narcissistic twits ! :o)


----------------------------------------


both soto and rinzai zen existed over very long historical periods and no doubt popularity and support by various groups waxed and waned, but the role of soto zen in supporting nationalist militarism from the meiji era until the end of world war 2 is well documented !


why this is important in terms of zen in the west is that zen was discredited by its role in the support of world war 2 and that loss of home base support sent some priests looking for more fertile grounds into the usa after the war !


hakuun  yasutani  was actually ordered to come to the usa by soto zen because of his embarrassingly unchanged extreme nationalism !

















the diamond sutra at its  core  is zen,  in its final form it's Buddhist !


it's the difference between deconstructing objects and expanding objects in infinite progressions ......................


it's the difference between something with the potential to be sincere and outright fraud !
















the diamond sutra at its core is zen, in its final form it's Buddhist !


it's the difference between  deconstructing objects and expanding objects in infinite progressions ......................


it's the difference between something with the potential to be sincere and outright fraud !
















soto zen funding several  “zeros”  for ww2 is all you need to know about soto zen !


--------------


the problem with soto  is it had its origins in a militarist feudal society and was intentionally dumbed down to suit an ethos of soldiers obeying their leaders unquestioningly and being prepared to die for whatever greater glory !: o)


that is, it's intrinsically a militarist doctrine !


brad warner is a good example of how soto goes wrong, less general knowledge than a five year old and proud of it !


dogen did not become properly enlightened until his last years and this is another issue as everyone takes dogen's zen from his younger years because they cannot accept that they themselves will never be enlightened and the later more poetic and less comprehensible work is actually reflective of a truer/true enlightenment !


how distant my life


below the snow line


now I am lost


diffused into the clouds


of


kinome


pass !


the history of the world is moronacy, it will never be any different ! :o(
















how distant my life


below the snow line


now I am lost


diffused into the clouds


of


kinome


pass !
















soto zen funding several  “zeros”  for ww2 is all you need to know about soto zen !
















i'm a reddit zenner


and I am quite insane


I root Buddha pornography


and my chatter is quite inane !
















“ Age: 30 Sex: Female Height: 5'8 Weight: 185 Race: Caucasian Location: Northwestern Ontario Any existing relevant medical issues: Depression, Anxiety Current medications: Paxil 20mg

The past few months I have been seeing a Geometric Grid pattern in my whole field of vision when I wake up from sleeping. It doesn't happen every time, maybe like a few times a month. It looks like this But the lines are colorful and change colors. The honeycomb shapes then turned into squares and stared to do a wave, like this It lasts about 1-2 mins and it fades away. I also feel extremely drowsy when this happens

I do have ocular migraines from time to time and see an aura/squiggly line in one eye
But this is nothing like that.

Anyone know what could be happening?

Please and Thanks ”


my


reply


a hypnagogic hallucination, might be something to do with the paxil !?


paxil can be ok for a while, then not be !


you should always taper off rather than go cold turkey
but I am not suggesting it's necessary !


the reddit askdocs questioner's  reply


I've been on paxil for like 10 years and just like 2 years ago it seemed not to be working all that great

So My doc put me on cymbalta and that wasnt good for me so he put me back on paxil and I seem to be doing fine again

I mentioned to my doc that I do want to get off paxil one day but I'm kinda scared because I think I'll go crazy
















“ I get grinding sensations in both my hip when I do butterfly stretches and my hip pops in and out when I abduct my hips

Most severe popping and some pain when I try to do Inside to Out Axe kicks

I'm 23 years old, 5"11, 150 pounds male ” 


“ Inside to Out Axe  kicks ”


good for movies but in real life people get a lot of joint damage from the martial arts ! :o(


be very careful of the hips, they don't self repair ! :o(
















well I am manic and mad


and being nothing on nothing


there is no rest !
















“ the frequency of your smiley use is too high. i for one like to rest and let things be as they are. at least for a while ”


well I am manic and mad and being nothing on nothing, there is no rest !
















“ the frequency of your smiley use is too high. i for one like to rest and let things be as they are. at least for a while ”


well I am manic and mad and being nothing on nothing, there is no rest ! : . ' { }'?
















“ the frequency of your smiley use is too high. i for one like to rest and let things be as they are. at least for a while ”


well I am manic and mad and being nothing on nothing, there is no rest
















“ what are the disadvantages of abstinence? ”


that portion of the sperm made by the prostate contains what is called a protease, that is an enzyme that cuts open protein, presumably to help the sperm slice into the egg !


unfortunately as levels of this enzyme build up in the prostate, some leaks out into the urinary tract with undesirable consequences like making the tract more susceptible to infection imo !


that is the main disadvantage of not having regular ejeculation imo!


so I think there is some physiological requirement for ejeculation, what frequency is hard to say, having been celibate for extended periods, there are certainly advantages in terms of energy and focus to complete ejeculatory abstinence !


the other aspect of abstinence is the question of sex drive which is not at all resolvable,
but pornography is toxic !


men have abstinence easy compared to women because I think women need sex or at least  “ advanced ”  masturbation for hormones !
















“ I don't think you are enlightened ” 


nah, great to see an honest  opinion !


you are not a beginner unfortunately, but well down the wrong road !


you won't see that of course !


Buddha is just a sanskrit soap opera btw, a glorified tree shrine god who happened to suit the needs of ashoka's empire and didn't really last beyond him !


actually I never was concerned with becoming enlightened ever at all,
it just turned out that I was ! :o)


the problem with goals.......................


is


what


? : .  .  } }
















Buddha is just a sanskrit soap opera btw, a glorified tree shrine god who happened to suit the needs of ashoka's empire and didn't really last beyond him !
















“ bright morning


the snow-crust breaks under my feet to the powder below


someone else’s bootprints lead out to the garden, but don’t return ”


it's funny, I felt I had a reply to this, just took a while to come up !


those footprints that lead out, but don't return, often need to be our own  !  :o) .  . } ( .{
















“ bright  morning


the snow-crust breaks under my feet to the powder below


someone else’s bootprints lead out to the garden, but don’t return ”


it's funny, I felt I had a reply to this, just took a while to come up !


those footprints that lead out, but don't return, often need to be our own ! :o) .  . } ( .{
















“ bright morning


the snow-crust breaks under my feet to the powder below


someone else’s bootprints lead out to the garden, but don’t return ”


those footprints that lead out, but don't return, often need to be our own
















“ a glass can only spill what it contains


but don't hold on to the glass either ”


your glass is full of pretension ! :o)


you


can


let


it


go


but


it's


only


yourself


that


would


fall out ! :o()
















a crappy story line with good  art  is still a crappy story line ! :o(
















a crappy story line with good art is still a crappy story line ! :o(
















“ very defensive!


what are you defending? ”


very offensive,


what are you offending?
















“ very defensive!  what are you defending? ”


very offensive,  what are you offending?
















“ very defensive!  what are you defending? ”


very offensive,  what are you offending?
















when you   translate    is there any  “ correct practice ”  ?


practice is a theory about something,  actually doing it destroys theories to create new ones !
















when you translate is there any  “ correct practice ”  ?


practice is a theory about something,  actually doing it destroys theories to create new ones !
















when you translate is there any  “ correct practice ”  ?


practice is a theory about something, actually doing it destroys theories to create new ones !
















“ how do you tell if you are enlightened? ”


you have   this


 jacob's dream by william blake
















“ where did the zen masters say you could not practice and become enlightened? ”


so that's what  you  wrote !


so what I said was


“ my view is dogen was not enlightened until his last years so a lot of what he wrote earlier is complete rubbish, plus biases in recording !


so if you leave dogen out,  where do you get a quality zen master saying practice leads to enlightenment  ! ”


which is the same as saying that practice doesn't lead to enlightenment, which is the same as saying not practicing leads to enlightenment !


also I know from practical experience having dai kensho at age seven? and knowing nothing about zen that it can happen completely spontaneously for no reason, that visiting of infinity by itself is sufficient and more than sufficient reason !
















“ i'm getting the ego-maniacal vibe of you ! ”


actually ego mania is an important part of being a zen master ! :o)
















zen is being wrongly re-invented as  perpetual practice !


i'll say one thing for reddit zen and ewk, it is making me read a lot of the old stories much more closely !


they are definitely about being enlightened as versus the unenlightened  (lol poor monks : o(


this notion of practice is a displacement and actually a deliberate time filler/waster for those who will never become enlightened, and since everyone on reddit zen is unenlightened except me, then the validity of  “ the practice viewpoint ”  is what prevails !


I am not being nasty when I say you are unenlightened, the price is way too high and what enlightenment is, is way too difficult..........


far better to be ignorant like yourselves and not to have to go through what is involved ! : o)(
















you grow out of zazen, it does have something to offer but the need is no longer there !
















good video !


birds of paradise mating  dance
















“ a simple outsider question, i don't know anything about zen; i've never read any zen texts or done any zen practice, but i've skimmed through reddit zen
out of curiosity a couple times


descriptions along the lines of  “ neither X nor not X ”  seem to be a recurring theme is there something that is neither zen nor not zen? ”


my


reply


“ is there something that is neither zen nor not zen? ”


lol, that's a brain tangle all right ! : o)(


see the problem is that zen is essentially deconstructive or the process of deconstruction, yet in practical implementation in terms of some communal reality it always ends up being constructive !


for example    practice  (in practice ! )  always ends up as a perversion of deconstruction, that is it builds rather than intelligently deconstructs :o)


so in terms of your question, the process of deconstruction and not objects
“ is neither zen nor not zen ” !
















I like lactobacillus rhamnous and acidophilus, but yeah, in my experience it takes 2   years   months to recover from some of these modern antibiotics !
















well you have to speak some sort of jargon or the art establishment won't buy your work !


you can be 100%  sincere  and always be broke or you can be 80% sincere  (too high a figure ?)  :o)  and quite or rather very wealthy in the case of some of these very proficient  “con”  artists, but the art market has always been a con game built on the back of the oppressed ! :o)(
















nickel  release  from pfo implants


“ mostly in the first days and weeks, depending on the pre-treatment of the material, considerable amounts of nickel may get released


this is due to the mechanical strain of the implant during the surgery.


the deformation damages the thin layer of oxide covering the material


as a consequence the initial nickel release increases


in the long run, however, the nickel release decreases to amounts of a few nanograms per day and is hence far below the amount of nickel that we absorb anyway through our food on a daily basis ”


my


comment


a friend had a very successful PFO operation for a hole in the heart,
but immediately afterwards her heart started to race !


most serendipitously she had packed a blackmores 1000iu vitamin D capsule
before going to hospital, so took one and voilà, her heart settled !


she must have had an immune response to the nickel
that the vitamin D dampened ! :o)(


the pfo was  Amplatzer


It's been four or five years now and the results have been excellent,
but she does take 1000 iu of vitamin D daily !


--------------


i emailed the above info to dr. andreas undisz  (jena university, east germany !)
and he replied and was interested in it !


so different from the usual anal academic/researcher who never replies and sulks at the notion that there's something they might not know ! :o)(


maybe vitamin D will become anew adjunct therapy for nickel-titanium heart implants !


actually any nickel-titanium implant ! :o)(
















lyme  ticks  in the san francisco bay area


“ a newly recognized human pathogen with unknown health consequences has been found to occur over a large part of the san francisco bay area !


[..]  found the bacterium, borrelia miyamotoi, as well as borrelia burgdorferi, the bacterium that causes lyme disease, in ticks they sampled throughout the area ”
















a good jack kerouac  quote  !


are we fallen angels who didn't want to believe that nothing is nothing and so were born to lose our loved ones and dear friends one by one and finally our own life,
to see it proved?
















buddhist sutras, a totally reflective form, in a totally reflective environment ?


they are actually a form of performance art, especially the earlier ones designed/intended to be chanted ! :o)
















buddhist sutras,  “ a totally reflective form, in a totally reflective environment ? ”
















josiah mcelheny on  models


“ a totally reflective form, situated in a totally reflective environment ”


3:32


--------------


actually Buddhist sutras seem to be this sort of performance art ! :o)(


a sutra is objects reflected infinitely, mostly distorted but the odd clear one ! :o)


the core is there are one or two basic objects and that is what it is about, the rest is superfluous except to illustrate the  (concatenating !)  process of distortion and that of course is our perception of life, images endlessly and infinitely repeated, confused, fused, fractured and shattered, distorted............... :o()
















is the modern low fat diet a major contributing  factor  to the diabetes epidemic ! ?


diabetes, dementia/alzheimers, protein misfolding and high blood sugar
are  quite a nasty snarl  !  : o (
















is the modern low fat diet a major contributing  factor  to the diabetes epidemic ! ?


diabetes, dementia/alzheimers, protein misfolding and high blood sugar is quite a nasty snarl  !  : o (
















is the modern low fat diet a major contributing  factor  to the diabetes epidemic ! ?


diabetes, dementia/alzheimers, protein misfolding and high blood sugar is quite a nasty snarl ! :o(
















is the modern low fat diet a major contributing  factor  to the diabetes epidemic ! ?
















a vey good/superb blog  post  by lorianne disabato on josiah McElheny's


“ endlessly repeating twentieth century modernism ”
















you  talk  but I find you have to    do   to    get/generate    real interest  !  :o)(
















you  talk  but I find you have to    do   to get/generate real interest  !  :o)(
















you talk but I find you have to  “do”  to get/generate real interest  !  :o)(
















you talk but I find you have to  “do”  to get/generate real interest ! :o)(
















you will never be enlightened so you will never understand  !  : o (


what


can


i


say ?
















you will never be enlightened so you will never understand
















you will never be enlightened so you will never understand  !  :o(


what


can


i


say ?
















you will never be enlightened so you will never understand ! :o(


what


can


i


say ?
















you will never be enlightened so you will never understand ! :o(
















everybody,  on occasion is untrustworthy
















everybody,  on occasion is untrustworthy !
















everybody ,  on occasion is untrustworthy ! :o() !
















everybody ,  on occasion


is


u


n


t


r


u


s


t


w


o


r


t


h


y

! : o .  .   .  } 0 (  .  . } .  .  } .  .  } .  .  .  .  {
















german soil is selenium  deficient 


check out the compendium  dual  selenium protocol !
















“ I've noticed that a couple of times after having a long make-out session that my stomach hurts


is there a reason that this happens? ”


Ingesting bad bacteria !  try eating a yogurt afterwards !
















the more meds you take, the more you get cross amplifying of side effects !
















Dizziness is a common side effect of Tramadol and Cyclobenzaprine


Cyclobenzaprine can break down muscle and cause tachycardia


What you have  got  is three meds with cross amplifying side effects !


--------------


you are not wanting to hear what I am saying are you!


the doc just gave you some nonsense name  (ed. postural orthostatic tachycardia !)  and you are happy ! :o(


to survive long term you have to absolutely minimise med use and sort out other things, you cannot live twenty or thirty years with any quality of life with the level of dose and number of meds you are taking !


--------------


the combined side effects of multiple medications can be very destructive of any quality of life and in some cases fatal !


the side effects of three concurrent medications can be not three times, but nine times worse in certain overlapping areas than them individually !
















“ I'm curious, have you read any of the masters' works in their original language? ”


what I have done occasionally is translate/retranslate some poems I like and that's about it, that's across several languages


so you could know medieval and later period japanese, that would help with eihei dogen, matsuo bashō, ryōkan taigu and hakuin ekaku but you would be stuck with ancient greek  (sappho, heraclitus !)  or teresa of avila's spanish !


there are also huge issues with what was actually said or written since sources get combined, or transcribers give their version or copiers make mistakes and give their version as well


even Emily Dickinson just amazed me, you would think not much could go wrong, but some of her poems don't make sense unless you read them in her original handwriting ! :o)(
















first off, you are on autistic spectrum, your brain is structurally  different from most people !


i am also that way which is why you wrote to me !


a lot of what you describe is actually quite normal for this structural difference !


you have an over compartmentalized view of human biology and biochemistry, it just doesn't partition that neatly at all !


you were fortunate to stop chelation within one and half weeks,
i have seen plenty of permanent  wreckage  !


what comes to mind with you apart from you/r not eating or doing supplements right is questions about thyroid function and blood sugar !


it's really quite involved to look at these things, they have to be taken piecemeal, like the first question about thyroid function is where do you live  (roughly !)  so one can gauge whether selenium supplementation is important !


( if you are in  germany  it is important ! )


it's literally years of work and putting all the small pieces in place to slowly step up to some improved height on !


there is a message  board  you are welcome to join where these things are discussed !


there's no requirement to do things a particular way, it's purely for discussion !


--------------


yeah i think you have an autoimmune problem, one reason why you don't get ill, but in other areas you suffer ! 


you can't trust thyroid tests, the best way is you can check your thyroid function by putting a couple of drops of topical  iodine  tincture on the underside of the wrist and seeing what that does to how you feel and your energy levels !


i still am suss of your blood sugar, try  chromium
















devoyniching    the diamond sutra


it's not entirely empty just full of goddamn waffle and buddhist pretension/promotion !


using paul Harrison's  translation


a video talk by  him


any way the first ten sections devoyniched


no. 3


if everything is extinguished, why is that meaningless ?


because non-extinction is meaningless ! ! :o(. ' } .' {


no. 4


give without expecting any return !


no. 5


because infinity  “ is and is not ”  you cannot say a person is more of infinity than not !


no. 6


there is nothing of more value than the written words of one who has worked it all out !


to read back over the ages the words of these people is a blessing !


no.7


a hand can grasp itself, but it's not in physical space !


no. 7.5


or is it !?


no. 8   same as  no. 6


no. 9   same as  no. 5


no. 10a


each person is the entire universe !


no. 10b


coherent schema as to what this is about are/is an illusion !


no. 10c   same as  no. 5


more to come !


get downvoting you ignorant reddit zen clods ! :o)(
















devoyniching the diamond cutter  sutra 


no. 3


if everything is extinguished, why is that meaningless ?


because non-extinction is meaningless ! ! :o(. ' } .' {


no. 4


give without expecting any return !


no. 5


because infinity  “ is and is not ”  you cannot say a person is more of infinity than not !


no. 6


there is nothing of more value than the written words of one who has worked it all out !


to read back over the ages the words of these people is a blessing !


no.7


a hand can grasp itself, but it's not in physical space !


no. 7.5


or is it !?


no. 8   same as  no. 6


no. 9   same as  no. 5


no. 10a


each person is the entire universe !


no. 10b


coherent schema as to what this is about are/is an illusion !


no. 10c   same as  no. 5


more to come !