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pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !



 
















you have fallen into the  very very  common trap  of second rate reading  in zen which leads to the meditation just amplifying error so to speak !


that is you just sorta engrave deeper on the stupidity of the mediocre and plain nonsensical and your posting shows/reflects that ! :o(!


you will read the nonsense of  Daodejing and the Upanishads and you will never read Emily Dickinson who is the most    zen   of all the English poets !


you replied in quite a reasonable way, that's quite a big step, the next step is harder which is better quality reading like the clearly brothers translation of the blue cliff record, sa'di, ryōkan taigu, matsuo bashō, good joshu translations................... there is a lot of good  stuff  out there and feel free to ask for opinions !


the trick is in zen you get trained to revere nonsense, but that's not how it should work, when people really know what they are writing and talking about, it's quite understandable with a bit of effort !


but you know with zen, people can spend years trying to crack koans were just plain voynich in the first place, is it any wonder most of today's zen teachers don't know crap !?


I was interested in your use of  “apophatic”  because of its use by the Russian and greek orthodox christian traditions and actually I lived for a while in a hermitage with a russian orthodox monk and an  “ abbotess ”  who tho Anglican/episcopalian was very strongly involved in the orthodox traditions and ecumenicalism !


go clem, you are fondly remembered :o)


clem btw was a fascinating character, a Scottish aristocrat with an actual illuminated bible and beautiful furniture heirlooms from her family dating back 8 or nine hundred years that her brother didn't want when a parent died and she  being canny took them with alacrity ! :o)


her childhood was spent with a governess in Italy ! :o)


to wind up running a hermitage in the beautiful hills of the hokianga harbour in new zealand !  : o)(


d r e a m   d a y s


long past, if only we could go  b a c  k.................... : o ) . {
















it's not trolling,  (ed.  when i post to reddit zen)  well it is to donkeys who don't want to understand


it just amazes me you people who think you know it all, then you come across what I write and that gets you all upset, surely your zen work would enable you to handle it?


N O !


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you  (ed.  ghostmitten)  are one of these total scumbags who can't write a word themselves and just repeat the moronic nonsense that passes for zen then try put down anything that is actually authentic and enlightened !


so quit chewing the bullshit and front up with something decent !!!!!!!!!!!


you can't can you, you'e so dumb you can't even address what I write,
just blather  “ it's bad cause I can't understand it ! ”


a reading age of 3 and a writing age of 5 doesn't cut it in zen and actually it doesn't cut it anywhere except in your own imagination !


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the basic point is if you are going to criticize then go to detail, like my reply to the  extract  from the lotus sutra was a detailed criticism and correction, I welcome anyone  ( lol empty room ;o)  who takes the trouble to look at what I write and if they feel something needs elaboration or I am wrong then say specifically what that is,
not just a general  “ i don't like this ”  stuff !


do that and it would be a massive upgrade to your game ! :  .  . { )  }


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there's nothing in your comment history quoting my post's at all you idiot liar !


( ed.  the moron ghostmitten claimed he had made specific criticisms of my work ! )


jeez wayne, such deceit ! :o(


you are like some blind moth are drawn to the flame of what I write
and get your wings singed and squawk !


I do see that you quote others endless rubbish left right and center but my stuff rocks and you are afraid to touch beyond a distant  “ I don't like it ”


you are drawn to the truth of what I write and can't help yourself, but like some snail you can only leave your slime !


if my posts are not worth it then go away............. but as is shown you are drawn by what you cannot acknowledge !


J.. F.. . C .. ! :o(
















it's not trolling,  (ed.  when i post to reddit zen)  well it is to donkeys who don't want to understand


it just amazes me you people who think you know it all, then you come across what I write and that gets you all upset, surely your zen work would enable you to handle it?


N O !
















my reply to  yourenotagenius


what you think is healthy eating is not, you are on a road of decline, seen this so many times !


what I do, it's complex but gets the results !


the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate diet and compendium supplement  program !


the twit  replied


bugger off, i am not here to be sold products


my


reply


insolent prick, you are not being sold anything except the fact you need to do some work to get better !


lazy stupid bastard, I took my time to tell you something useful !


you fucking deserve to be really ill and man you are going to be happy to die in ten years !


seen plenty like you, I know your fate


suck on it idiot !
















apophatic is sorta true, but enlightenment is  (also !)  actually cataphatic, unless you become enlightened ,  you won't of course understand but meander about in some  (indirect!?)  denial of your not being enlightened which is how the vast majority of people involved in zen meander about ! :o()


you are welcome to look on, but that's all you will ever do ! :o()
















two   quotes  from  ‘zen and zen classics’ ,  volume three,  by r. h. blyth


when banzan was about to die, he asked his monks to bring him his portrait,
but he was not satisfied with any of them


at that time fuke had one


banzan said,  “ why don't you show it to me then? ” 


fuke turned a somersault and went out


banzan said,  “ this lunatic will pervert the true way from now on ” 


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one day hyakujo isei  (?)  said to his monks,  “ you make a new field, and i'll tell you the meaning of everything ”


the monks finished the new field and said,  “ we ask the master to tell us the meaning of everything! ”


hyakujo isei opened his arms wide


my  reply


the somersault means you have to go upside down to the world to be the rightside up in  terms      of the absolute . infinity . Buddha    and the arms open wide mean you have to take the blinkers off and look without boundaries !


this of course means that zen is not all there is by along shot ! :o)(
















i wrote :  what compass?,  you are just stuck in  bullshit  !


kliqrocks replied :  you forgot the :o()


my reply :  nup, didn't fit


kliqrocks replied :  :o/


my reply :  lol, that fitted :o)


my further  reply


this is more dense in meaning


lol that fitted : o)(...  .  ) . } {
















gocloudrunwater  writes/ criticizes


never appreciate your misogynist 


my


reply


the problem is you think you know it all and when you come to something that stretches you, you just flick back to some clichéd view you have !


your view is crimped and rather than move beyond it, it's apparently my fault !


what did I mean by   buddha is a bitch,  there are least three layers, what is the big one that you are missing and is in fact quite anti-misogynist ! ?


oh


great


one ?


your self willed stupidity is incredible, you will walk away from what I just wrote when in fact it would be a productive koan to work on !


but you just spew whatever free attention you have away on meaningless outward forms ! :o)(


you are just another of the very conventional semi-middle class in zen............. :o(
















david st. germain  writes


when I was reading the lotus sutra, I talked with a zen master™  about it,
and he gave me good advice

he said to read it as if it were talking directly about my life

I think that's fine advice for reading anything worth reading


my


reply


c'mon George Bowman,  (ed.  the zen master!)  fess up the rest, you also have to evaluate wether it's true or not and buddhist sutras are   E   grade movies believe me ! :o)
















“ be  diligent  and of a single mind

for I wish to explain this affair

have no doubts or regrets  ‑

the buddha wisdom is hard to fathom

now you must put forth the power of faith,

abiding in patience in goodness


a law which in the past was never heard

you will now be able to hear

now I will bring you ease and consolation  ‑

do not harbor doubts or fears.

the buddha has nothing but truthful words,

his wisdom cannot be measured

this foremost Law that he has gained

is very profound, incapable of analysis.

he will now expound it  ‑

you must listen with a single mind ”


since I appear to be the only enlightened person here I will take on the thankless but rewarding task of devoyniching the above half arsed nonsense !


how do I do it, well when you are enlightened you will know ! :o)


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diligence and focus are your natural attributes ! :o)


you will regret but caught in a wave/tide not of your choosing you are swept along ! :o)


patience is a cornerstone


the law has been heard by great minds of the past


but


remember


Buddha


is


abitch


with


false


words


and


true


:


o

)


.  .  { ., }
















diligence and focus are your natural attributes ! :o)


you will regret but caught  in  a   tidal wave   not  of  your  choosing you  are  swept  along  !  :o)


patience is a cornerstone


the law has been heard by great minds of the past


but


remember


Buddha


is


abitch


with


false


words


and


true


:


o

)


.  .  { ., }
















“ dogen and hakuin both loved the  lotus  sutra ”   ( ed.  see the passage quoted  above )


this is a good example of  voynich ,  that is meaningless rubbish crafted to look like it means something !


no wonder dogen liked it since for a lot of his life he wrote almost nothing else !


too bad for dogen he died soon after becoming truly enlightened or was it the fact of dying that made him let go !?


hakuin was amore complex character and a bit of a showman, harder to say what he really thought ! :o()
















mujushinkyo writes/ advises  me


wake up and become a real person!


my


reply


but I don't want to be a real person !


Buddha was fictitious, and so am I ! :o)
















the new view of migraine is there a lot more different types than people realize and some may not even have pain !


there's a stage before the actual migraine called    the Prodromal    where you sorta feel super good and revved because the good mood brain chemicals are being released too much................
















new research is showing that it's the myelin sheathing on the auditory nerve that gets damaged by loud noise so a supplement to help build myelin like a good quality krill oil  (marine stewardship council!)  may help !


most earplugs are not much good, I find the 3M brand 1100 give the best sound suppression !


that said you have cumulative damage  (ed.  ringing in ears after concerts !)  so will have to expect some tinnitus imo !


I do find those 3M plugs very very good !


Bilsom Viking earmuffs are good too
















“ i've smoked rather heavily for about four years, a couple of days ago i decided enough was enough

i occasionally had a cough when i smoked, but since quitting it's gotten so much worse. also experiencing shortness of breath and wheezing. i'm 21, male, arguably athletic ”


it's better to taper off smoking over a couple of weeks, the body has made a lot of adaptation at the level of genetic expression and needs to unadapt again !
















paper will bear the weight of anything put on it !


quote  by stalin ! :o()
















“ i am looking at you, you are looking at him . . . how to solve this puzzle; you, he, and i ? ”


the above  quote  by kabir


kabir  is so spaced out  he must have had diabetes ! :o(
















“ i am looking at you, you are looking at him . . . how to solve this puzzle; you, he, and i ? ”


the above  quote  by kabir


kabir is so spaced out he must have had diabetes ! :o(
















“ i am looking at you, you are looking at him . . . how to solve this puzzle; you, he, and i? ”


the above  quote  by kabir


I am looking at sue, sue is looking at jim, how to solve this puzzle . . . . . . . .
r u n  j i m : o) ?


:

.
 . 

:.
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“ i am looking at you, you are looking at him...how to solve this puzzle; you, he, and i? ”


the above  quote  by kabir


I am looking at sue, sue is looking at jim, how to solve this puzzle, I am not into threesomes ?


:

.
 . 

:.
{
















kin dza dza   is a latterday  waiting  for  g o d o t  !
















kin dza dza   is a latterday waiting for  g o d o t  !
















kin dza dza is a latterday waiting for  g o d o t  ! :o)(
















kin dza dza is a latterday waiting for  g o d o t ! :o)(
















kin  -  dza_one  -  dza_two


!


it


certainly


dislocates your sense


of


reality !


:


o


.

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{   }

 . :

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I guess now toni  packer  has died I can say it,  but she said the enlightenment stories in  the three pillars of zen  were made up by  (Philip !)  kapleau !
















I guess now toni  packer  has died I can say it, but she said the enlightenment stories in  the three pillars of zen  were made up by  (Philip !)  kapleau !
















“ is enlightenment permanent? ”


it's actually a lifelong process ! :o)(


so the process is its permanence


you


never lose


it


but


you


can


almost lose it


: o )

.

.  .

:

(
















“ is enlightenment permanent? ”


it's actually a lifelong process ! :o)(


so the process is its permanence


you


never lose


it


but


you


can


almost lose it


:o)

.

.  .

:

(
















slackingalready   quotes  me


“ the big problem with pot is it is toxic to the brain and  kills  neurons ”


and  says


blatant misinformation


cannabis use does not kill neurons


my


reply


do some research, it certainly does !


god you can tell the dumbed out dope heads !


you guys are  sickening  !


as I said, there are much better ways to improve  sleep  quality


--------------


look i have dealt enough with people like you to know
the sick mentally retarded reality of the scene !


my view is it's self medication, maybe you need it for glaucoma, I don't criticize that !


in your case i suspect you have sleep issues so that's why I gave the link, but your brain is too far gone for you to read it ! :o(


what you want is to  not escape  the toxic haze and do any real dealing with some sort of health issue and pass your life in a dying brain haze cloaked in some psuedo zen bullshit !


you so fucking stupid you haven't even read the article, it's large mri study and says


“ the results added to previous evidence showing the hippocampus, the area of the brain involved in memory, shrunk in heavy users ”


S H R U N K  man !


that's MRI and it takes a bit to show up ! :o(


there's alot of vulnerable teenagers out there being encouraged to smoke by sleaze bags like you saying   “ Oh it doesn't damage the brain ”  !
















 night, moon and purple flower


there's something to this pic ! ?


maybe


the


night?
















 night, moon and purple flower


there's something to this pic ! ?


maybe


the night?
















“ how to sit in zazen? ”


the whole point is to screw the brain and hip and knee joints so focus on the breath and sit full lotus with your fingers stretched back touching the top side of the same wrist and your thumbs in your ears pushing hard !


if a little bit of your brain doesn't dribble out of your mouth it's not working !
















my   rendering   of the number 191 story from  “ the recorded sayings of zen master joshu ”  page 71,  translated by james green


a monk  asked  joshu


“ i honestly don't know what this/life/zen is about and feel like a drowning rat or sinking ship/boat ! . .  .{ .. ?/ ”


joshu didn't reply


the monk said ,  “ no bullshit i am really asking ! :o)( ”


joshu said/replied  “ this is our condition ! ”


truthier gives  his version/translation  from a different source with a comment


joshu was asked  “ a scholar is dazed and confused in one constant rise and fall, how can he find an exit? ” 


joshu just continued sitting


“ i am seriously asking you sir ”


the teacher said ,  “ what place inside you does the rising and falling? ”


since the student did not understand the first answer,
the teacher explained it more clearly a second time


my


reply


the story is  voynichated ,  my rendering is unvoynichated !


the big trap of zen is to accept semi meaningful/meaningless nonsense as some sort of attained end, but it's just a dull side road in the wrong direction !


you


need


to


look

for


what


makes


clear sense !


that original text quote doesn't


:o


()


why have people replied to my post ?


it's because it frightens them because they can understand it, zen is supposed to be unknowably obscure ! : o . .  } .. { . .  [
















a monk  asked  joshu


“ i honestly don't know what this/life/zen is about and feel like a drowning rat or sinking ship/boat ! . .  .{ .. ?/ ”


joshu didn't reply


the monk said ,  “ no bullshit i am really asking ! :o)( ”


joshu said/replied  “ this is our condition ! ”
















truthier provides a  translation


someone asked joshu   “what does it mean to study oneself?”


the teacher replied   “ do you still see the cypress tree in front of the courtyard ”


my


re-translation/translation


a monk asked   “ what am I missing ? ”


joshu replied   “ the cypress tree will teach you ! ”
















truthier provides a  translation


someone asked joshu   “what does it mean to study oneself?”


the teacher replied   “ do you still see the cypress tree in front of the courtyard ”


my


re-translation/translation


a monk asked   “ what am I missing ? ”


joshu replied   “ let the cypress tree  (ed. in the garden)  teach you ! ”
















truthier provides a  translation


someone asked joshu   “what does it mean to study oneself?”


the teacher replied   “ do you still see the cypress tree in front of the courtyard ”


my


re-translation/translation


a monk asked   “ what am I missing ? ”


joshu replied   “ let the cypress tree (ed. in the garden) teach you ! ”
















“ god writes the gospel not in the bible alone, but also on trees,

and in the flowers and clouds and stars ”


the above quote is attributed to martin  luther 


jeez  . . . . .  he had some guts,  going to the diet of  worms !
















“ god writes the gospel not in the bible alone, but also on trees,

and in the flowers and clouds and stars ”


the above quote is attributed to martin  luther 


jeez ..... he had some guts, going to the diet of  worms !
















“ god writes the gospel not in the bible alone, but also on trees,

and in the flowers and clouds and stars ”


the above quote is attributed to martin  luther 


jeez  he had some guts, going to the diet of  worms !
















“ god writes the gospel not in the bible alone, but also on trees,

and in the flowers and clouds and stars ”


the above quote is attributed to martin  luther 


jeez he had some guts, going to the diet of  worms !
















it's all about you and how great your  opinion  is isn't it ?


yes you steal but like any thief


d


e


n


y !
















it's all about you and how great your  opinion  is isn't it


yes you steal but like any thief


d


e


n


y !
















the ten directions converging

each learning to do nothing

this is the hall of buddha's training

mind's empty, all's finished

十方同聚會

個個學無爲

此是選佛場

心空及第歸

all ten directions converge together

each and every learns non-doing

this is the place where buddhas are chosen

when the mind is empty, one returns, having passed with flying colors



(  the 10 directions are eight points of the compass and up and down, the right translation is by truthier and the left possibly by katsuki sekida )



my


reply


one direction retracts


to


re


e


m


e


r


g


e


doing


non - doing


is


for


the


fairies


:


o} . " . . .  ? *
















you can't really sweat toxins out like that !   (ed. infra red sauna)


i have a wood heater and for a lot of the year have my room where i work very very warm, like 35C, it really helps the circulation and everything so imo you are better to have it that way !


of course it's late summer here so still plenty of infra red in the sun ! :o)


if you sweat a lot, you lose  iodine  so need to do something about that !
















generally viruses precede bacterial infections ,  the high temperature means her immune system is having  difficulty  defending against it


some of these viruses can last a while, there's a lot of sense in the old fashioned invalid's diet, chicken broth for the collagen while keeping high iron sources like meat out..................
















i have always wondered why i never  recalled  dreams..................


from this study, i don't think it's necessarily agood thing to have a lot of/strong dream recall, the brain doesn't shut down enough ! :o()


“ the temporo-parietal junction, an information-processing hub in the brain,
is more active in high dream recallers.

Increased activity in this brain region might facilitate attention orienting toward external stimuli and promote intrasleep wakefulness, thereby facilitating the encoding of dreams in memory ”
















truthier  writes


this was a  letter  from muuija  (the unclothed monk)  to someone named seobaek/qi-bai  (the abbot?)  at a korean temple, seonamsa temple  (heavenly?  (zen?)  rock)


to the high-seated seobaek:


once the true origin is understood, the mind is put at rest


when one cannot get this, one still has to rely on there being a buddha to seek


the beginning of  “pure oneness” ,   is to study the way  (tao)


when the bitterness of the disordered mind is surpassed, there is nothing which lingers on


my    reply/re-translation


to the grand  poohbar  seobaek


having no understanding we are disturbed


having understanding we are


disturbed


let the idiots persue  Zen  (and Buddhism ! ?)


f


o


r


e


v


e


r


:


o


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one of joshu's better  koans


a monk asked  “ what is god in life ”


joshu said  “ i don't want a wife ! :o)( ”


the monk asked  “ what is life in god? ”


joshu replied............................. ! .  . ? { .  .} dave st.germain  replies i assume you're down voted based on your reputation rather than the content, and that's unfortunate. A monk asked, "What is the host amidst the guest?" The master said, "I do not ask for a wife." The monk said, "What is the guest amidst the host?" The master said, "I have no father-in-law." I think he's saying that he's cut himself off from normal relations -- the host doesn't need a wife, but as a result the guest doesn't have a family. Also, father-in-law could be a pun. Apparently it's written as 岳父, which would literally mean "mountain peak father". So, no father-in-law also means, I have no higher father. Maybe. my reply yeah, thanx for that ! :o)( the downvotes are because what i say hurts them and they understand so little about hurt and zen that they reject it rather than embrace it ! :o( see what zen is really about is being able to access the space of infinity which is the same as that sun above the treeline and the golden light on snow you wrote about from that space my retranslation of this joshu koan came................! that's enlightenment . . . . ! but these turds hate it and think it's all that they have learned and would kill me if they could............ that aspect of the jesus story is true ! :o)(
















one of joshu's better  koans


a monk asked  “ what is god in life ”


joshu said  “ i don't want a wife ! :o)( ”


the monk asked  “ what is life in god? ”


joshu replied............................. ! .  . ? { .  .}
















funnily enough some of the most extreme non copers of any sort of criticism with one exception have been zen masters/teachers on their blogs or facebook pages.........................


absolutely the most narrow, rigid and completely intolerant of any viewpoint except their own................. ! .. } (


that's when I started to figure these traditions that weighted heavily on zazen and oversimplified their understanding, reading and thinking were big trouble


“ grunt zen ”  I call it ! ..........:o()
















when i wake up, i take the 3M 1100 foam ear plugs out  (i am very sensitive to sound and wake easily)  and sit on the edge of the bed


then i  hum  and sing or chant to resonate the lungs and nasal passages and even resonate the gums by bending the head and neck right down

you can also do a deeper hum  (whooo)  to resonate the spleen and then the liver, holding your hands over your head with fingers intertwined and the palms facing upwards may also help focus the hum in the spleen, then the liver

this kickstarts the immune system in those areas

also do neck stretches as its the one area of stretches that has been proven to significantly improve cardiovascular health, in general stretches seem to create problems !

hold the arms right out and do a small rotating circular motion and move the arms and shoulders to loosen up the thoracic outlet !

move the eyes up and down, diagonally, sideways, back and forth ,  then roll to equalize the intraocular eye pressure after the night's sleep

i find it best to leave off more than minimal exercise for an hour or so after waking, but then a short run of several minutes, starting slow and when warmed up, finishing hard, gets the blood flowing and the blood pressure usefully up !

a monk  asked  joshu


“ i am told that the master said  ‘ the way has nothing to do with the practice. where there is no defilement. nothing is lacking ’  this  ‘ no defilement ’  ‑  what does it mean ”


joshu replied  “ examine the inside and the outside ”


the monk asked  “ do you yourself examine them ”


joshu replied  “ i do ”


the monk asked  “ what is wrong with you that you must examine them ”


joshu replied  “ what about you ”


my


comment


I think joshu is basically saying the  you  is wrong, so this constant examination is needed !


I must say thanks to reddit zen I am appreciating joshu/zhaozhou much more ! :o)(


--------------


i wonder if joshu was illiterate?
















my  reply  to 


one of the problems with pain killers is you move the body in ways that exacerbates the injury !


i would allow at least a couple of months to allow the injury to heal and since he seems to be getting damaged easily, I really would rethink his involvement in basketball !


He has many years ahead and doesn't want them blighted by sports injury pain !


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some people are naturally good at avoiding injuries and some are not, he wants to give a lot of time and attention to avoiding them, just a sort of savvy that some professional sportsmen develop and they have long career's and some don't and they get in the headlines for endless ongoing injury !
















I have several reddit accounts, I could be more consistent on reddit zen with only posting under one nick since I am not being banned but I forget which nick I am being posting under, but I have trouble with being banned on almost all other reddits and web messageboards, reddit zen is unusual !


humans are amorphous blobs of concrete who object when a few grains of sand are abraded from their badly shaped and toxically rigid forms !
















master yunmen told the following story


xuefeng said to a monk:  “ come here! ”  when the monk did as told, xuefeng said:  “ where are you going? ”  “ i’m going to group work ”  the monk answered


xuefeng said:  “ go ! ”


master yunmen remarked:  “ this is an example of  ‘ knowing a man through his words ’  ”


my


comment


xuefeng disapproved of the monk !


why


was


that ?


:


o


( . .  . : ( o)
















ewk  replies  to dave st. germains  post   (ed. also the next section just down from this one !)


moon. pish. anybody that wants to see it only needs a little  puerh  and a lunar calendar

wait until you get a look at unchanging!

then you'll really have something to complain about


my  reply ,  quoting from dave's post !


“ for instance, last night I stepped out and watched the full moon rise over the tree line, and the snow glistened with such a subtle golden light ”


that is the unchanging ewk, you aren't enlightened, rather psychotic/schizophrenic and stuck in some mad dream of your own fantasy of the  “unchanging” !
















dave st. germain  writes  a reddit post titled


“ don't get your panties in a bunch over  censorship  and rule changes ”   (ed.  to reddit zen !)


some people are afraid of censorship and the tyranny of the majority, but from my perspective, i'm already censoring myself through my inability to communicate completely; what difference does some extra rule make?


for instance, last night i stepped out and watched the full moon rise over the tree line, and the snow glistened with such a subtle golden light. during the day, the snow had thawed and refroze, so i was walking through a thin layer of ice into about a foot of snow beneath. it makes sense to walk in your own footsteps rather than make new tracks, unless you want to fill your boots with snow. the pigs were out, grunting and trying to stay warm, and marley, the ram on the farm here, ambled around, taking in the night. i briefly wondered about him  --  does he care about the moon, or even notice it? or does he just want to ram me if he could only get a chance? he looked at me, but if i told him to look up, he wouldn't bother


tonight we've got another few inches of snow, and it's going to dip to about  20ºF/ -6C .  my heater stopped working a little while ago, unfortunately. if i'm lucky, the house will retain enough heat until morning, when i can figure out what's wrong with the propane. i can't run my light because the battery has nearly drained from having snow-covered solar panels for a few days. it's been an interesting winter!


but anyway, i find that, try as i might, i'll never be able to communicate the sight of the moon rising above the tree line, and marley looking at me, his breath visible in the light. if i had to add a little label to this post, like  (moon talk) ,  i'd still be just as poor of a communicator. i can try to increase my proficiency in english, but i've seen again and again how finite it is, and the impossibility of truly describing anything


don't sweat the small stuff


my


reply


how r u eating ?


your brain has turned to snow melt !


seriously you may need to live in a better climate


i agree the lack of censorship by reddit is disappointing, even brad warner gave me the boot in the end, reddit shows no signs of being so helpful to this malfunctional perseveration ! :o(


“ birds of a feather flock together ”  and frankly the  “ feather ”  is frightening ! :o(
















mujushinkyo    “asks”   


“ tell me something about  ‘ the subtle dharma gate ’ ”


my


reply


why would it be any more than than the other fictions you cling to ! ?


you don't accept you haven't had the fundamental experience
or you would know that  “gate”  is a load of nonsense !


   looking at the vast escarpment

why would you think there was a gate?
















“ tell me something about  ‘ the subtle dharma gate ’ ”


why would it be any more than than the other fictions you cling to ! ?


you don't accept you haven't had the fundamental experience
or you would know that  “gate”  is a load of nonsense !


looking at the vast escarpment, why would you think there was a gate?
















well of  course  dogen got TB didn't he?


however one can understand what nyojo and dogen are driving at, dia kensho is a fiction to most people that they can't even begin to get close enough too to contemplate happening ! :o(
















well of  course  dogen got TB didn't he?


however one can understand what nyojo and dogen are driving at, dia kensho is a fiction to most people that they can't even begin to get close enough too to contemplate that happening ! :o(
















“ coming from the space of enlightenment, words are merely words ” 


going to the space of enlightenment, words that are bullshit are lost


coming from the space of enlightenment words are glinting diamonds
and the soft purl of the sea and flowing stream.................
















men do not exist in truth the way fools discriminate them


men do not exist in truth the way the wise discriminate them
















“ in truth, generated things do not exist the way the immature discriminate them ”


na bhavo vidyate satyam yatha balair vikalpyate


ed. lankavatara sutra    b. nanjio, page 149


my  reply


“ in truth, generated things do not exist the way the mature discriminate them ”


the 7th zen  patriarch's  putra sutra :o)


songhill  replies


Buddhas don't see generated things the way the immature do.


my  reply


Buddha's are immature !
















an interesting  study  on what happens with deafness from the exposure to a loud noise, the myelin sheathing gets degraded and consequently the nerves become lossy ! :o(


and actually this suggests that supplements and diet like a quality krill oil or anything that helps myelin might help !
















what  this  is saying is that doctor's waiting rooms are a significant source of viral infection which is obvious from our own experience of the dripping and hacking nits spreading their germs everywhere ! :o(
















a reddit zen  shitstick   posts


“ all the buddhas and all sentient beings are nothing but the one mind, beside which nothing exists

this mind, which is without beginning is unborn and indestructible

it is not green nor yellow, and has neither form nor appearance

it does not belong in the categories of things which exist or do not exist,
nor can it be thought of in terms of new or old

it is neither long nor short, big nor small, for it transcends all limits,
measures, names, traces and comparisons

it is that which you see before you - begin to reason about it
and you at once fall into error  [....]  ”


my  reply


yeah he wasn't reasoning about it of course ! :o(


of course huang po never said that, the transcriber (s?)  and translator  [ I   II ]  did !


of course the last thing a reddit zen poster will ever do is credit the person who did the real work, the translator oh no it's all the reddit zen arseholes insight !


ewk   you are a very poor creditor, shall we say it's another form of dishonesty ?


--------------


the poster of the original quote surprised me  and asked


do you think that it is an inaccurate translation?


my  reply


that's shall we say, an advanced question ! :o) !


is there any such thing as an accurate translation ?


I really take the view that all translations are interpretations because of the loss of cultural associations and layerings of the meanings of words that can never be recovered................


so a really good translation might be  20  or  30%  of what was there originally !


of course zen has the particular problem of being mainly an oral tradition in the sense that a lot of the written records we have are actually transcriptions which are subject to bias problems in the transcribers and copyists and all this before translation !


the result is most of the ch'an record is in fact a mix of voynich and authenticity !


so to answer your question the quote of huang po is not inaccurate, it is completely distorted and raving monism which is what blofeld tends to do/be, really you are reading blofeld and not huang po !


Thomas cleary, while better also distorts and really all the zen wankers quoting the ch'an gospel thinking they are on some bedrock of what the master say are laughable !


even worse are all the rumi quoters in neo advaita pretending to some knowledge of this great master when in fact they are only parlaying coleman banks who clearly states his  “translations”  are really re-translations and interpretations !


why the ch'an master of old railed against the scriptures so much is this problem of distorted and inaccurate recording ................ when you read the Buddha says this and that crap around, no wonder they distanced themselves from it !


accurately recorded stories and sayings are a wonder, you get occasional glimpse but they are  rare !


to really to understand this stuff you have to come from the space of enlightenment, that is you know what the real sense should be so you can unwind or straighten up the voynich and get some true meaning, but actually this quote of huangpo  is so off ,  it can't be done ! :o()


reddit zen is no different from real life zen, endless masturbating instead of real fertility, wankers churning up meaningless words thinking they are onto something when the reality is they are simply walking in the wrong direction from any real understanding ! .  & / ) # . .!
















eileen  writes


i love the scarecrow  video  where did you find it....


so cute and dark
















if things get that  bad  i'm not hanging around ! :o)(..  ... { . ........) . . .  ( ) ( . .  ..............














in terms of your  questions  ,  (about writing and teaching)
it's worth a further  investigation  of ann patchett !


it's really a life question for those heavily autistically traited women
that have the sense not to have children !


and zen masters :o)(


she was educated by nuns ! :o)


if you don't have children and you teach then you run into the same problems as nuns, you care too much and put too much into the work !


whatever I do, I have learnt to make what I do work for me, that is ,  it changes me hopefully productively ! :o)
















writers have  insomnia  like dogs have fleas :o)


you need folapro  ( a metabolically active form of folic acid )  and to understand the effects of white/blue and red light in the circadian rhythm !


my write up on this  page
















hui neng is about as welcome as a snake bite in zen !
















stickballwizard   writes


“ before enlightenment chop wood carry water, after enlightenment,
chop wood carry water ”  is actually a  misquote


it's actually  “ before enlightenment chop wood carry water, after enlightenment, carry wood chop water ”


my  reply


you are the first unbashed  plagiarist  i have had, i ought to frame you :o)


imitation  is the sincerest form of flattery and straight copying is the laziest sincerest form of flattery :o)


i would put it to you that that form of personal dishonesty is not what zen is about and you need to think through a few things !


--------------


it's the first time in all of history that that has been said, and he just happens to come up with it  22  days after i do ! :o)


--------------


yeah  he has hashed it, destroyed the real meaning and put an abortion in its place !


the way he has used it doesn't make sense and if you look at the way I use it you can see it makes sense in the entire context, that's how one can tell he has copied it !


my two poems are also about enlightenment , but the real thing not his idea !


I've have seen this so many times, the absolute dishonesty of the people on these boards, even the twits who read something I wrote who go on to endlessly criticize and downvote me and yet they pick up and include elements of what I say and my writing style in their abuse like it was all their own idea !


some honesty please!


--------------


lol, you couldn't create anything original could you,  just gratuitous insults  ( ed.  he called me a  peeball )  is your style you thief !


--------------


don't worry, you'll do it again, anything except your own words and life !


:o(. . . .(


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don't worry, you'll do it again, anything except your own words and life ! : o( (
















sepehr,  the deer  poem  is very good and way ahead of anything in manga, you are doing yourself a disservice by promoting what is inferior to your own efforts and abilities ! :o()
















sepehr,  the deer  poem  is very good and way ahead of anything in manga, you are doing yourself a disservice by promoting what is inferior to your own efforts ! :o()
















very long winded jam  making  instructions !


dense = intense, manga is way too dilute for me ! :o) ( )
















very long winded jam  making  instructions ! dense = intense, manga is way too dilute for me ! :o) ( )
















“ i don't believe zen can exist in this format  (ed.  reddit zen !)  in any way,
and is actually counter productive ”


it's the transmission system that has killed zen, only idiots were willing to go through the irrelevant and idiotic training with the result that zen is mostly represented by a clutch of morons !


neo advaita/ non - duality  picked up the potential zen audience  so reddit like some burnt out star is about all that's left ! :o()
















poem  by sepehr. g


Smoking outside during the blizzard

Everything cold, see a cat running, struggling

Looked at cat, forget myself and the chatter subsides


All of a sudden, 6 deer run

with antlers

An epiphany of Love

Call my Beloved to come See

A moment of seeing how existence is struggle, yet

In the core of the Blizzard there is Light of Life


The Deer Family run away to the deforested woods,

Beloved goes inside,

Moment of reflection  –

The stray cat runs to the bowl


Pour him the rest of the Vital Essential Raw Food

More happy for himself and the giving  -

than my own self

Back to my own struggle with the books  -

This is my struggle, the cold

But to be a beacon light onto others,

requires humility on my part, like Hui Neng who helped the fish


 hui neng frees the fish


ed.  The title  “ Hui Neng frees the fish ”  is when monks would go to small ponds that would dry during a drought, scoop up fish, bring them to the river and let them out…
















sepehr g.  writes


check out this  manga ,  Andrew. It's not like other sequential art.
I'm interested in your opinion of it

Read a bit before giving your opinion


my  reply


I read a fair portion including chapter 18 !


it's sorta partial, dulled, no bite and too suburban !


the theme is similar to following the peach  blossom  stream by wang wei, but just doesn't cut it by a million miles whereas wang wei is all there !


one of the universe's most profound poems ! YAY ! :o)(
















ewk  does a very free  re-translation


this is a joshu, case. do you know it? somebody asks him about the patriarch's robe and he says,  “ you mean this one? ”  holding up the hem of his crappy robe.


he really is pure awesomeness.


the re-translation is from the recorded sayings of zen master joshu, number  185 


a monk asked,  “ having chased him all the way to mount t’a-sou, why didn’t he pick them  (ed.  the robe and bowl)  up? ”


the master picked up the hem of his robe and said,  “ where can you get this? ”


the monk said,  “ i’m not asking about this one ”


the master said,  “ in that case, you can’t pick it up ”


my


reply


translation  of a different but relevant passage  (no. 381)  by yoel Hoffman


“ a monk asked,  ‘ What is the practice of a monk? ’


joshu stretched out one hand and straightened his robe ”


do you see how ewks retranslation/fantasy suits ewk,  (it's actually his creation !)
but the hoffman quote doesn't?


he wants to be a patriarch by just being ewk with his piss poor brain/crappy robe  (ed. life misalignment/mood swings !) ,  but doesn't want to do the straightening at all, so easy to see with his evasions on reddit zen, the moment the need for any real straightening occurs, there's this absence ,  he's not there ! :o)(


ewk's re-translation is actually christian, there's something to it, but it's not something a truely enlightened zen master would have said !


all you guys  (ed. on reddit zen)  have the same problem, you don't do enough detail wrok untangling what naturally tangles pretty quickly, look at the trouble i have gone to clarify this   quote  of ewks, and everyone else has just passsed it over !


this is actually why celibacy is needed, that extra strengthening energy input is just not available to those in relationships and  “ married with kids ”  which is why i recommend aquite different road for those in that situation doing zen, to approach the whole thing through both some solitude and   wisdom literature   ( life smarts perhaps !? :o)(   and poetry, quality reading !


i can afford the time to untangle the tangled mass  (mess !)  of zen, its stories and quotes and dogen ,  but you can't and you are just paper boats on the sea :o(


are you going to hear and reply in a reasonable way ewk, not just  “ i am the partriach ”  mode, but actually addressing what i say in a reasonable manner !


i guess that question shows my stupidity, trying to straighten out a schizophrenic who while perhaps functional enough to avoid institutions when younger  (who knows !?)  is certainly calcified completely in any way that matters by age ! :o)


i don't make any criticism of schizophrenia or being institutionalized, that's the breaks in life, but there is an area where we do have some freedom and make choices and of course reddit zen is a good place to pretend that those choices if mistaken/ /wrong minded have no consqeuence and really are functional in some true way about what we want zen to be ! :o)


lol a lot of writing   tl;dr    :o) ,  lol i donated blood yesterday :o)(
















“ what would the zen masters think of one occasionally smoking pot? ”


the big problem with pot is it is toxic to the brain and kills neurons which is why old dopers are  overmellow  and cognitively impaired !


the positive side when used judiciously is for some medical conditions like pain relief or glaucoma or sleep !


however there are much better ways to help with sleep !


from a zen point of view you need a lot of cognitive sharpness so really if you need it to self medicate for sleep then you should do what is discussed  here !


why be unnecessarily retarded !?


piss your time away on reddit zen mouthing inanities ! ? :o ( . ). ) ( ?
















none of the zen patriarchs had children !
















none of the patriarchs had children !
















sir henry neville really wrote shakespeare's works,  reasonably well accepted in academic circles now tho nothing public !
















sir henry neville really wrote shakespeare's works, reasonably well accepted in academic circles now tho nothing public !
















sir henry neville really wrote Shakespeare, reasonably well accepted in academic circles now tho nothing public !
















soto zen is really damaging in my observations, makes people very rigid and stupid !
















there is is a classic western Christian theme which is basically a koan


what it asks is if there is a god/absolute/brahma/Buddha nature why is life so unfair ?


why do the  “wicked”  do so well and the righteous suffer so much?


this really cuts to the edge of the whole thing being an illusion and the 1400 years of zen being nothing but some stupid wanking idiocy !
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair


v4
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair  ?  !/ ?!
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair  ?!
















if there is god, why is the world so unfair   ?!


v3
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair  !


v2
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair !
















if there is a god, why is the world so unfair ?


v1
















i think the  koan  is confused and would make more sense if the original question has been,  “ is an enlightened person outside cause and effect ! ? ”  and i think it's sometimes translated like that !


the overwhelming answer is NO and yet sometimes yes !


this the whole problem with zen, because these garbled koans are so institutionalized ,  you learn to expect this sort of crap as having real meaning............


so you get all the idiots applauding what is intrinsically incomprehensible because it's garbage and an explanation which is quite understandable like i have given gets the bum's rush by the endless morons in zen !


this question of  “ is an enlightened person subject to birth and death/cause and effect ”  is actually a philosophical chestnut and could/may be asked as  “ is a holy person a better person ? ”


and actually this whole question ties back to this question of enlightenment being  fantasy ,  is it all a house of cards or not ?


real and unreal


endless

the

perturbations !


:


o )(
















now that's a decent  vision  ! :o)(
















the superstitious have a superstition of enlightenment


the enlightened have enlightened to superstition


superstition and enlightenment are the same essence


the enlightened instantly know this


translators  comment     (ed.  reddit  “truthier” )


the chinese word used for for superstitious in this poem literally means lost, bewildered, but it's the same word used for superstition in chinese  ( “lost”  beliefs, i.e. getting lost in one's own belief )


it's from the scripture of master foyan's recorded sayings, in chinese


my


reply


fantasy is enlightenment


enlightenment is fantasy


yet


both are only half, you


need


to temper


it


with


the real !

:


o


(


)


that is actually a really advanced concept, I have never seen it in zen or English literature, the one instance I did see it and it really has made me think about it ever since is in cao xueqin's introduction to the  dream  of the red mansions !


that book was what got me interested in zen in the first place ! :o)(
















fantasy is enlightenment


enlightenment is fantasy


yet


both are only half, you


need


to temper


it


with


the real !

:


o


(


)
















look you are trying to fit me to your script  again
I never said  “personal understanding”  did I ?


you are every free in distorting what is said to suit your ideas !


what I said was


“ where you people go really wrong is you fester in a false abstraction and don't write any of your understanding into you as a person  (and personal life !) ”


that's an objective view of  “oneself ”  and really quite different
from your   misquote  of me !


you are intellectually dishonest ! :o()


well again that's zen isn't it, but it's not what the masters said !


yeah your point is that there is nothing to know only reflects your reading zen the way you want to and total lack of real life experience of zen, which for all its flaws is a long tradition of the validity of dai kensho and the the many years of working through that experience so that really there is something to know and my writing is all this knowledge and exists in contradiction to your wrong minded intellectual and personal dishonesty ! :o)
















when I reply   (ed.  reddit and ewk in this case ! : o()   I am always exploring what I don't know ,  but the reality is I do  know


what's primary is the reality of the exploration of what I don't know, the fact it comes across as I do know and you don't is almost a co-incidence, it just happens in this case to be the vehicle of what I don't know :o)(


you are not any wronger than any of the other schizophrenics and nuts cases who post here  ( I am not saying I am not schizophrenic and/or a nut case !)


if any one is even a tenth of the way there I try to be encouraging, but like most of the posters on this  (reddit! .! .!)  you are very vigorously going in the wrong direction so pardon me if I pull you up on it !


where you people go really wrong is you fester in a false abstraction and don't write any of your understanding into you as a person  (and personal life !)


so I ask you again to go   opposite   :o)(
















obviously you have had this all your life ,  (ed.   ewk)  that is, you don't understand the huge gap between our thinking and  perception  of something and the way that necessarily changes by doing  ( it ! ?)  in real life !


arguing on a message board or reddit can do something,
but you have to modify................ : o (/. .) ( .. .. )
















ewk, if you just talk and don't do, then you are going to get the talk wrong, which you do !
















kosal  khiev


“ i discovered the power that poetry has to change a person's perspective and outlook ”


my


comment


when you write can you see the seeds of change ?
















kosal  khiev 


“ i discovered the power that poetry has to change a person's perspective and outlook ”
















it's like tai chi, you have to go with the  opposite  for a while, I am going with you,
now you try to go with me, or can't you ?


that's the schizophrenia I guess ! :o()
















it's like tai chi, you have to go with the  opposite  for a while, I am going with you, now you try to go with me, or can't you ?  that's the schizophrenia I guess ! :o()
















interesting film ,   ( I   II )   subtlely anti-regime I think !


paradoxically one of the reasons the regime is so difficult to remove is that they killed a fair portion of a whole generation of teenage boys in the human wave stupidity in the iran-iraq war !


these boys would have generated the needed changes as adults now, but of course are dead, killed by men living very comfortably off money from corruption and of course their children never fought !


i think the iran-iraq war was for the arab/persian world like world war one for europe, with some strong lessons about the futility and generation destroying nature of that sort of warfare and the loss of your best men who are removed from the breeding pool to leave the unhealthy to continue the species !


that's why hitler and the nazi's were so keen on eugenics and the killing of the unfit to breed, of course with the usual human contradictions they then managed to decimate another generation of their best men and hitler in particular by refusing to let his /the german troops retreat !


the germans learnt second time around, but what it took for that lesson to sink in !


i think the japanese learnt the first time in WW2 !
















would you like to be alive with such a poor  quality  of life ?


life


is


not


always


worth


living


!

:


o


(


)
















lucid  dreaming  is not healthy at all because it means the brain is not shutting down
the right parts of itself for sleep !


be careful to keep your circadian  rhythm  in order !


there's no control in lucid dreaming !
















lucid  dreaming  is not healthy at all because it means the brain is not shutting down
the right parts of itself for sleep !


be careful to keep your circadian  rhythm  in order !
















that looks like a black ink in the  tattoo ,  black has the highest nanoparticle level of any of the tattoo inks ! :o(


don't try to remove it, but don't get any more tattoo's !


ed.  the condition is called  dermatographism  and she had it before getting the tattoo, but since the condition may relate to high histamine,
it could be exacerbated by the tattoo ink nanoparticles/toxins ! :o(


i read of another case where the dermatographia just happens around the tattoos in the skin of a young swedish woman !
















if you look closely at guanyin's footsteps you will see the maggots ! : o ( . ) .  .. .  ). ( )
















if you look closely at guanyin's footsteps you will see the maggots
















if you look closely at her footsteps you will see the  maggots  !
















good  post  !


“some tibetan guy”  is actually khyentse norbu/dzongsar jamyang khyentse, looking at some you tube videos of him, he's certainly a mixed bag ! :o() !


I would still say he's heterodox, though what he says is abig improvement on the usual crap, but the sense of human insufficiency comes from the displacement into us of infinity................:o)( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : o ) (


the point is infinity or god and the sense of that drives everything


as you say


“ it is the suffering, the negativity, the constant loss and pain that ends in death, that is the true practice and the true work of god ” 


yeah, but the point of it all is god it/him/herself, the identity of that with ourselves which your  drunken  poem  about the beach and moon and branches really was ................... ! :o)() ()
















the problem is it's only one person in a generation who really understands, that is real understanding is so very rare that it's intrinsically lonely, that's why you have to read sa'di and not talk to him, though reading him, because he knows what he is on about and tells his stories so well is actually   talking to him  !


yeah brad warner is sorta  sad ,  he could have been so much more with a bit of sense and direction, but that's just how it is, it takes 100 or 1000  (lol arab ! :o)  brads for one sa'di to emerge ! :o()
















the problem is it's only one person in a generation who really understands, that is real understanding is so very rare that it's intrinsically lonely, that's why you have to read sa'di and not talk to him, though reading him, because he knows what he is on about and tells his stories so well is actually   talking to him  !


yeah brad warner is sorta  sad ,  he could have been so much more with a bit of sense and direction, but that's just how it is, it takes 100 or 1000 brads for one sa'di to emerge ! :o()
















there's an infinite amount of garbled nonsense ! : o )(

but stuff that's centered/sensible


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there's an infinite amount of garbled nonsense ! : o ( . . )
















there's an infinite amount of garbled nonsense ! :o(
















there's an infinite amount of garbled nonsense
















i'm a grunt zenner


no


words


whoops


haven't i just used words


hmm


(thinks!)


ouch i'm thinking :


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it's good to see ewk finally giving  credit  to the   translators   of what he posts,  (mostly Thomas cleary as it happens !)  like it's not all just silk he purls from his own wonderful mouth and understanding ? :o)  ()


it's easy tell you lot are ignorant clods (unenlightened ? !  : o )(


because you have no words of your own


or


when you


do


it's


rubbish : o


( . ) ( . )(


you all piss your lives away in zen on the same conceptual mistake as any any religion, that of taking texts which are very poor representations of what zen is really about and treating them as some sort of platform to/from pontification from and the surety that one is really dealing with the words of the masters, jesus, the saints or whatever ! :o()) (


in actual fact there are the distortions of the original recording, loss of idiomatic and associative cultural context, translation, interpolation, synthesizing or combing several sources into one person.............


and changed views of the quoted source over time, dogen is a very good example of this, quite a different person in his last years of life, ditching zen and becoming a poet...............


with that sort of sensibility ! :o)( (  ) .  .)(
















eliot york of hellopoetry  writes 


so, what's next?  probably the most urgent is that the expense of running the site is now too much for me to handle on my own, so i'm exploring ideas for covering these monthly costs


donations?  freemium?  kickstarter?  a magazine?  books?  advertising??  poetry competitions??  respond to that  $6,500,000  offer in my inbox from the cote d'ivoire???


there are many ideas floating around, some good, many bad, and i've yet to settle on one. hello poetry has always been a labour of love and an opportunity to support people and a practice that i care about, so i'm not about to let a silly thing like  “money”  get in the way, but, of course, i do need to settle on something


my  comment


basically most of the people who post are broke, but one or two have quite a bit of money so there is a very wide variance in terms of what people are able to provide !


so imo to maximize the potential income it's best not to have subscriptions but donations !


this involves a regular marketing effort, but it does seem to be the way the web works !


you don't need kickstarter because you already have a well visited website by the people most likely to donate and perhaps you will need some sort of donor status system so there is public recognition of the donors and the degree of support they provide !
















life, there is no answer because we are the continuing question  !  : o )(. .).( .)
















life, there is no answer because we are the continuing question


v2r2
















life, there is no answer because we are  the  continuing question


v2r1
















life, there is no answer because we are a continuing question !  :o)
















life, there is no answer because we are a continuing question :o)
















life, there is no answer because we are a continuing question


v1r2
















life, there is no answer because we are a continuing question


v1r1
















hitler's secret agenda in/of world war 2 was to kill as many jews as possible and he was quite prepared to sacrifice huge numbers of german soldiers to do that, which was what happened in the eastern campaign !


you were suckers germans and paid a huge price for your anti-semitism ! :o(. ..) .( . .).((.. ))). ( . .) .  .   .


one of the interesting things about the  tape  of the discussion between Mannerheim and hitler in june 1942 is that hitler realised that he had lost the war by taking on more than the germany military could handle with russia !


that's why there is such afuss about this tape ! :o)(
















hitler's secret agenda in/of world war 2 was to kill as many jews as possible and he was quite prepared to sacrifice huge numbers of german soldiers to do that, which was what happened in the eastern campaign !


you were suckers germans and paid a huge price for your anti-semitism ! :o(


one of the interesting things about the  tape  of the discussion between Mannerheim and hitler in june 1942 is that hitler realised that he had lost the war by taking on more than the germany military could handle with russia !
















hitler's secret agenda in/of world war 2 was to kill as many jews as possible and he was quite prepared to sacrifice huge numbers of german soldiers to do that, which was what happened in the eastern campaign !


you were suckers germans and paid a huge price for your anti-semitism ! :o(
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth ......... ! :o(...)( . )) .
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth ......... ! :o)(
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth ......... ! : o)
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth ......... !
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth/untruth ! :o)(
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth ! :o)(
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth !
















the notion of truth is recursive and contains its contrary, distruth
















you are losing some - one you love


it is rather distressing  !  : o ) (
















you are losing some - one you love


it is rather distressing   !   :   o ( )
















you are losing some - one you love


it is rather distressing  !
















“ dad has stage 3 pancreatic cancer which has  metastasized  to his liver, don't know what to do ”


you are losing some ‑one

it is rather distressing

you are losing some - one you love


it is rather distressing
















actually I was thinking  ,  this  sequence  is rather like  a nembutsu chant ,  except it means something, unlike the stupid nembutsu!


:  o  ()
















actually I was thinking  ,  this  sequence  is something like a nembutsu chant ,  except it means something, unlike the stupid nembutsu!


:  o  ()
















i figured out what you are, apot and pizza denialist ! :o()
















i figured out what you are, apot and pizza denialist ! :o)(
















i figured out what you are, apot and pizza  denialist  !
















i figured out what you are, apot and pizza denialist
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourselves !
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourselves


v3
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourself !
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourself


v1r2
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and myself
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity  of others  and myself


v2
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourself !
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity of others and ourself
















that's life, chastened by the endless stupidity  of others  and ourself


v1r1
















the curse of having ancestors who survived the black and justinian plaques !


“  [..plague related  changes ..]  included genes involved in inflammation, and one associated with susceptibility to autoimmune diseases such as rheumatoid arthritis  [..also..]  genes coding for toll-like receptors, proteins which latch on to harmful bacteria in the body and launch a defensive response  [..]  the side effect seems to be that the europeans  have a more proinflammatory immune system  than those who have never experienced black death ”
















the curse of having ancestors who survived the black death and justinian plaques !


“  [..plague related  changes ..]  included genes involved in inflammation, and one associated with susceptibility to autoimmune diseases such as rheumatoid arthritis  [..also..]  genes coding for toll-like receptors, proteins which latch on to harmful bacteria in the body and launch a defensive response  [..]  the side effect seems to be that the europeans have a more proinflammatory immune system than those who have never experienced black death ”
















reddit disinformation syndrome


when you try to persuade  anybody  on reddit of  anything  ! :o)(
















reddit disinformation syndrome


when you try to persuade  anybody  on reddit of  anything  ! :o)
















reddit disinformation syndrome


when you try to persuade  anybody  on reddit of  anything  !
















if you think people are  flexible  and can see their mistakes.................. :o()
















if you think people are  flexible  and can see their mistakes.................. :o(


“ war has it's own rules ”.............. !


does it ?
















memorial  tributes  to toni packer


i liked the poem by elsebeth holm
















people have different sets of  weight  gain or loss genes turned on, i'm like you, I can't put on weight if I try, but I am sorta on the adrenaline side of things perhaps ?
















the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief :o(


the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief :o()
















the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief :o(
















the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief
















“ there's no fucking  space  between the last word of the sentence and the exclamation point ”


yes ! there ! is !


read some ee cummings, you have a very low reading age.............


work on it and you will be better able to move out of your very limited black and white world!


I hit a nerve with you, why is that, you know what I say is true, you have elected not to look at more holistic solutions to your health problems  (ed. IBS)  and live the living crucifixion of a medical only approach !


like that's my fault ?


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lol take your meds and suffer !


the fact is I have good health and you don't and the biofilm/microbiome carbohydrate  diet  and supplement program is the difference !


the fact is you can't read and understand this sort of advanced writing and ideas can you


crippled by your medical approach to your condition !


seen plenty of your type over the years, oh how you hate anything that rips the illusion of your life away ! :o(


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the way you are eating you are doomed , no wonder you are reacting to me and the BCD diet, it says you are all wrong ! :o(


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pot and computer games is your style apparently ! :o(


you just want everyone else to piss their lives away like you and suffer in the same way !


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you can't read well enough to understand the BCD


just passing your time in a weed and game haze pretending your health is not crapping out !


you know you are on the wrong road and you can't stand what I am saying otherwise you'd go away


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an asperger moron with pot, game and bowel issues who can't read anything above a reading age of 10 ! :o(


My Fucking God !


oh well that's reddit isn't it, infested by junk heads like you who verbally wank to their hearts content !


people smoke pot for sleep problems mainly, there are better ways !


my advice on  sleep  :o)


people like you are what I call  “spoilers”


games, pot, drugs is how they cope, don't want anyone else to better themselves ! :o(


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yup i'm a creepy psychotic and fraud ! :o)


ed.  that's what he called me :o)


I presume you eat grains then ?


what is messing you up so much?


you are not sleeping either are you ?


ah got it


“ I was just making some dough before i read this post. Make a pizza! ”


ed.  on an old reddit post of  his 


so wheat flour !


ed.  his staple i think since he is excluding most vegs and fruits,  ( “most fruits and veggies bother me really” )  he must be eating quite a bit the neurological effects are so apparent ! :o(


I think you are sorta abit SCD and BCD excluding potatoes and fiberous/ difficult to digest carbohydrate vegs, but you need to eliminate grains, but of course you won't and will eventually end up with a bowel op and all the usual shit!


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the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief :o(


the world is grief, you are grief and i am grief :o()


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reddit as performance art :o)(
















ptsd, vaccine damage, ied's etc etc, modern warfare is too way damaging on troops


the generals play golf and the troops get their health ruined................
















“ farmed salmon should be consumed in limited amounts  [...]  the consumption of even one or two meals of farmed salmon per month may  exceed  acceptable contaminant levels ”
















reply  to a reddit poster complaining of a shortened penis !


“ previous studies have concluded that there is shortened penis length following prostatectomy

this is most common with  non  nerve sparing surgery, as this may result in fibrosis and atrophy of erectile tissue due to damage to nerve and vascular structures ”


you haven't had a prostatectomy, but I think those mechanisms  ‑  nerve and vascular structure damage  ‑  and the consequent fibrosis may be relevant !


i'd be concerned because of the way changes in the penis can signal cardiovascular system problems !
















lol the catholic church won't make mother Teresa a saint because of her ambiguous atheism !


i'd keep a low profile, hr departments are staffed by Satanists :o)


(ed.  the poster/complainant i am replying to works in a neurosurgery office mostly staffed by catholics!)


conventional religion is uninteresting but mystics like john of the cross, Teresa of avila and catherine of siena are really something different !


the last pope benedict VXII was sacked for being a flagrant queen and the Vatican had become one big fairy party :o)
















i'm not feeling burnt with reddit zen, not even chagrined really, its been alesson, but one knew it before, I guess it's just the total in your face moronacy and schizophrenia that leaves unavoidable conclusions !


the main one is that  “zen”  as a brand name at least is destroyed because it is a commodity and the net enables any fool with half or 1/4 or an 1/8th of a brain to claim what ever value  “the commodity”  has and drag down, pollute and wipe their arse with it which they do...............


so the better teachers like George bowman and Lorianne disabato ,  all they are doing is imparting value to a commodity that  (for instance!)  the reddit zen arseholes then pollute !


it's not just reddit zen I was looking at a video of dharma talk given by herb deer this month  (2nd feb 2014)  and thinking what duplicitous bullshit ! :o(


brad warner I notice is having difficulty in making any head way in getting himself established with some sort of financial base in zen, and again I think it's because he is one of the better teachers, but in doing what he does he supports idiots like nonin chowaney !


so my advice to brad, george and lorainne would be to abandon zen and basically strike out themselves in the way advaita teachers do, with the net you don't need the organizational publishing structure !


in fact brad warner was always outside it, but unfortunately for him the net has derated book publishing to the extent it is very difficult to make money from writing books and basically kick starter or donations is the way to go !


or just flag the whole thing  (almost)  and earn income in another way which I am having to face up to doing ! :o(


sorta odd to walk down a very long road through parched and not that interesting country and seeing it does nothing but go on forever in much the same way and one has to walk back to get into more interesting and productive scenarios ! :o(